LOOKING AT LOVE

CHAPTER TWO

Aura's POV

It was now my turn to explain everything to him. I was freaking out so I took a deep breath to relax myself as I looked at him. He held my hand to comfort me, his fingers intertwined with my fingers and I could feel how small my hand was in front of his. 

He was very eager to know and I was feeling very nervous somehow. I managed to speak.

"I am sorry I lied to you, but there was no other option for me at that time. It was the only option I could think of”, I said to him.  

I took a pause to prepare myself and started speaking again.

“When we started dating, after five months, I started having a lot of headaches. At first, I thought it was because of study pressure and past issues but it gradually increased and that’s when I went to the doctor”

“Firstly, he was not sure why it was so painful, he gave me a medicine course for a week to see if the pain would reduce or not, but it started to increase day by day. It was so much pain I was not even able to open my eyes”, I said and looked at him.

 He was listening to me very quietly, without even blinking his eyes. 

Before I could continue, he sat down next to me and started patting my head. He knew it was my comforting language. I looked at him and he gave me an assured smile.

 I continued saying,

 “After a month of treatment there was no improvement in my condition and it was getting worse and worse day by day”, I told him as I remember those days. 

“It was when you got your job offer from Bengalore, you were so happy about it so I decided not to tell you because I knew if I told you about my condition, you would deny your dream offer”.

 He looked at me with a sorry look in his eyes. Before he could say anything, 

“Don’t blame yourself, it was not your fault. I didn’t want to tell you” I said.

 “What happened after that?” he asked me, but I ignored his words and started drinking my iced tea. He waited for me to continue but I didn’t. 

“It’s getting late” I said, looking at the clock. 

I didn’t want to talk about it anymore, so I changed the topic and asked him.

“DO YOU HAVE A GIRLFRIEND?” He looked at me in shock. Well, I could say he did not expect me to ask such a question. 

“NO” he stated, it as a fact. 

I don’t know why, but I took a breath in relief but then I threw another question 

 “DO YOU HAVE A WIFE?”

He looked at me in shock and again said “NO”. 

In the last ten years, it was the happiest moment in my life. I don’t know why but I found myself smiling like a fool in front of him. He smirked as he was looking at me. I was so embarrassed.

“I think it’s getting late. You should leave and I will tell you about the story some other time”. As I pushed him out of my door.

 “When are you free to meet again?” he asked, leaning his body on my doorframe. 

I looked at my mobile. “I am free the day after tomorrow”.

 “WOULD YOU LIKE TO HAVE DINNER WITH ME THEN?” he asked with hope in his eyes.

 I wanted to say no but he looked so innocent I could not stop myself and agreed to his proposal. He began to walk away and I closed the door as I went inside my apartment. 

I sat on my couch and opened the television to watch so I could divert my mind but after ten minutes there was a knock on my door. I went to open, it was again Sabestine  breathing heavily as if he ran to my apartment. 

He gave me his mobile “YOUR NUMBER”, he said trying to manage his breath. I looked at him with a raised brow. 

“YOU FORGOT TO GIVE ME YOUR NUMBER” he managed to say and I was puzzled, he said again “SO I COULD MESSAGE YOU THE LOCATION OF OUR NEXT MEET”.

 I looked at him and fed my number on his mobile, we exchanged good night and he went away.

After he left, I decided to take a bath and sleep as I had to wake up early tomorrow, so I took a shower and I went to bed.

I was thinking about us, every moment we shared with each other. Our laughter, our sorrows, our fighting, our teasing and our love. Everything was a blessing for me.

I don't know how much I have left but I just want to spend my all the time, thinking about him and loving him.

I don't want him to think about me, once I am gone. I don't want him to live his life without any partner because of me.

Seven years ago, I left him because I wanted him to move on in his life, forgetting me. I lied to him so he would never find me.

It was tough for me but I did all, just for his sake.

Loving him was never a option,

It was need,

Need of my soul,

Need for being alive.