POV Lisa.
No matter how many times I repeat all the phrases to motivate myself mentally, I can't do it. I know I have to get up, I have to get up and go to work but I can't! I feel really weak, after spending the whole weekend under the covers crying. Maddie came knocking I don't know how many times, but I didn't open the door. I didn't want to talk to her, I didn't want to talk to anyone or see anyone. The only time I went out was when I went to the bathroom, I haven't swallowed anything since, my stomach is in knots. All I want to do is stay here for the rest of my life. I spent the whole weekend thinking about why Tony Moncrief was putting me through all this, what could I have done to him? Why do I have to be so fixated on me? I never did anything to make him think that I wanted anything with him. If only Dad were here, I'm sure he would have found a solution. Dad was always good at dealing with any problem, he always knew how to handle any situation, unlike me who runs away from
