I have been anxious the whole day about the decision I took on going to go see Jason. No one knows about this. Not Brandon, not Ryder. I took the side of encouragement that I was doing it for them, for the betterment of the pack as I can’t deal with seeing them drained day in day out.
A little chat I had with Ryder when he got back over dinner showed me that what I was doing was indeed right and it needed to be done fast.
“The farms are drying up, the crops are dying, and the farmers are not happy about it,” Ryder told me when I asked him how it has been out there.
The dark circles around his eyes and his eye bags showed he has been getting little to no sleep and that hurts me even more. As much as it hurts, it shows that I was doing the best I could to make all of this end. I do not mind the repercussions, I just wanted the men I love to find peace.
“I know all of this started with me, it started because of me and I assure you it will all be behind us soon,” I said to Ryder pl
