I lay in bed looking at the ceiling for hours, I managed to get maybe 3 or 4 hours sleep but that was all. I had this problem when Kyle and me first moved into my old pack, no matter how hard I tried I could never fully get to sleep. Kyle always said it boiled down to our past and how I haven't fully accepted the things that happened, he thinks if I try to accept them it would help me get over it. But I don't know if I'm ready to do that yet.
I turn my attention to the window to see the sun beginning to come up, I guess there's no point trying to fall back to sleep now. I decide to get up and start getting ready for the day, the early bird catches the worm I guess. The amazing thing about this room was there was a bathroom connected to it, which meant I didn't have to see anyone else I could just start getting ready. I round my things up and hop in the shower, hoping that would help to kill time.
Once I was ready I walk out into the bedroom, I had fully finished getting ready but couldn't leave the room. I mean I could but I didn't want to alone, I might get lost or hurt or anything! I just had to wait for Grayson to get me, but I didn't know how long that was gonna take. I pace up and down the room waiting for the door to open, which it didn't! I slowly make my way over to the window, it looked as though it was gonna be a hot day. I take a seat on the window seat just staring at the sky, my mind drifting to my family most of them I haven't seen in years. I wonder what they're all doing or even if they're around anymore, I know most of them were into some shady stuff so you never know where they would have round up. I bet when the news comes out that I'm gonna be queen they'll all try to come in contact with me again, it's not like they haven't done stuff like that before.
Our family used to be in a pack many years ago, but they ended up having a huge falling out with the Alpha, who eventually kicked our whole family out his pack, I'm talking aunts, uncles, cousins the lot. This meant the whole family bounced from pack to pack, we would stay for a few weeks but than annoy someone and get kicked right back out. My parents were the worst to get into fights, someone would look at my mother funny and that was it! I often think about the day her and dad abandoned me Kyle, I was so young that I didn't fully understand but now I'm older, I still don't understand.
The door opening makes me jump looking towards the door, Grayson makes his way in smiling at me, I sigh a sigh of relief turning my body so I was facing him.
"Morning my love, did you have a nice rest?" He asks making his way over to me, I just nod smiling but really I wanted to say how bad my sleep actually was.
"Then do it, it's mate" my wolf tells me, I block her out so Grayson wouldn't know she butted in.
"Well let's go get you some breakfast, we have a busy day ahead of us" he smiles holding his arm out, I smile taking his arm allowing him to lead me out the room.
I'm once again taken through the maze of corridors and doors, how on earth do people find their way around? All the corridors look the same! We soon arrive in a huge dinning hall, the table must have been the biggest I've ever seen! You could probably fit a whole pack here if you wanted, Grayson must have many dinner meetings in here, but how would you get around to talking to everyone? I have so many questions!
"I'm assuming you like the dinning room" Grayson smiles pulling me out my thoughts once again, I always get lost in my thoughts as I don't talk much, people always like to tell me how much of a problem it is.
I nod with a smile as he leads to a seat pulling it out for me, I thank him taking the seat which was extremely comfortable! He takes his seat across from me as the doors open with around four people walking in. They immediately start to place plates of food and drink in front of us, looking at the food it was incredibly fancy! Another girl makes her way in handing me a napkin but looked rather nervous, I send her a smile which she soon returns with a bow of her head.
"I hope the food is to your majesty's liking, if you need anything we'll just be outside" one of the men smile, Grayson thanks him which immediately makes them all leave the room.
I just stare at the food in front of me, I didn't have a clue what any of this was. I'm used to having whatever cereal is in the cupboard for breakfast, this looks as though it was prepared hours in advance. How did they know what time we'd have breakfast? How do they know what we're feeling today? I mean there's days where I could eat a whole box of cereal and then where I just want a banana! Do you tell them the day before what you'd like? But you don't know if you're gonna want that the day after, I have so many questions!
"You look confused my love" Grayson laughs a little looking at me, oh I must have got lost in my thoughts again, I need to stop doing that.
"I'm just confused on what this is" I smile looking down at the food in front of me "is it yogurt? Or maybe custard but if it was custard than it wouldn't be that colour, wait can you get coloured custard? I mean what an amazing business that would be, just imagine having a rainbow custard, but then if it's a different colour would you make it a different flavour? I have so many questions" I ramble looking at a smiling Grayson in front of me "and I now realise I said that out loud and not in my head" I say looking down at the table, he's gonna think I'm so weird.
"That's what you are thinking about when you space out? Then please think out loud more often, I loved hearing how your mind works" he smiles causing me to look up, he doesn't think I'm weird.
"Are you sure? Some of the thoughts I get are confusing" I say but he just smiles nodding his head "okay, but boy you don't know what you've just put yourself through" I laugh causing him to laugh too "I mean I don't know what this is but I'll try it" I smile picking my spoon up, as soon as I put in my mouth a whoa comes out.
"I'm guessing you like it" he smiles looking over at me, I just nod my head staring at the amazing creation in front of me "I'll tell the cooks how much you loved it, they'll be very pleased" he tells me I just nod but look to the side, I wish I could tell them but that would mean I have to speak to them and I'm just only warming up to speak to Grayson.
"I thought you were going to tell me your thoughts" he smiles snapping me out of my thoughts, I just smile looking down at the table.
"It's just I should thank them and I want to but, I find it hard to talk new people like it's taken me this long to finally talk to you, I'm just so stupid" I sigh shaking my head still staring at the table, he went to speak but I do before he could "I mean I'm supposed to be queen, but I can't even bring myself to to talk to a cook, maybe you should just reject me an-" I start but this time he cuts me off.
"There is no way I'm rejecting you, you're mine Clara, you and I are going to be together forever, you are not stupid far from it, you are going to be an amazing queen" he tells me taking hold of my hands from across the table, the sparks of electricity went through my arms cause me to smile "I just know that you are going be able to talk to whoever you want soon, but until then I'll be your voice" he smiles rubbing his thumb over my hands, I smile looking down once again but he pulls my chin up to look at him.
"Maybe I can write them a letter! Oh and I could say how amazing they were and oh, I could tell the nice nervous girl there was no need to be scared, I mean look at me" I say thinking out loud like he told me "I just need paper and a pen, knowing me I'll need a bunch of paper because I like to write a lot and I'm doing it again" I say but he shakes he head telling me to continue.
After breakfast, Grayson was giving me a tour of the huge castle, which was just getting even more beautiful. My favourite part had to be the huge ballroom, he did tell me when I first arrived that I'd love it. It has huge with murals on the ceiling, it had gold statues it was beautiful. The last part of the tour was the garden, he said he thinks I'll also like this part too. The doors open my mouth also hanging open, I couldn't believe my eyes! I stop at the door just staring at the beautiful garden in front of me, I think this might have topped the ballroom. "The garden was always my mothers favourite, so my father would add more and more to make her love it more" he smiles standing beside me "I confess I have let it go a little, the gardeners make it look great but I've just forgotten about it since she left" he sighs looking down at the ground, I don't know what's happened to his mother or father for that ma
Daisy and I sat there and chatted for awhile, she was actually super nice and told me what to expect when living here. She also told me about her family and where she comes from, she was born in America but moved to the uk when she was 5. Her family quickly settled into a pack a few hours away, she doesn't get to see her family much now she's with Josh. As Josh is Grayson's beta he can't be away from this place for very long, but Josh doesn't want Daisy to be away from him so she just has so wait until he can get a few days off. She was actually being so open with me, she told me how lonely she's felt since she moved here. She said she's so happy that she's found Josh and wouldn't change it for the world, but as he's always working here she's alone as she doesn't have any friends. I told her how that's all changing now I'm here, honestly she would be helping me because I'd be just like her if she wasn't here.
For the next few hours, I was stood up straight on a little platform thing with two woman poking and prodding me. Daisy was there the whole time though keeping me company, I felt I could have a full conversation with her as the two woman were wrapped up discussing sizes and poking me! The two woman leave for awhile telling us not to leave the room, this gave me and Daisy time to do our hair and makeup, which wasn't a lot as she said I didn't need to wear any. They return with a full dress where they asked who would help me put it on. I immediately look at Daisy who nods causing the two woman to leave, I sincerely didn't want one of them poking me again. "You're gonna look amazing Clara" Daisy smiles going back to do the back up, I mean it was absolutely beautiful, probably the nicest thing I've ever worn.&
The past week as been so hectic! Most of my days have been filled with plans and tasks all about my coronation, I was under the impression that it would be a simple ceremony, this was far from simple or easy. Gray has tried to be around and help as much as he could, but his days are full of his work and duties which does suck a little, but I know it's his work so I don't mind. Daisy has actually been keeping me company, she's helped to keep my head focused through all this chaos. The next day after the whole presentation thing, Kyle rang me on the phone here which was so nice to hear his voice. He told me he would have contacted me sooner but the pack was prohibited from doing so, which is exactly what I thought before. We arranged a day for him and Emma to come see the castle, I had to run it passed Mason so I could actually get the day off. Today was Sunday, the day of my coronation, according to Daisy it was
It's the morning after my coronation, also being my first day or duties as queen, let's just say I'm so nervous. Last night Mason went over what we'll be doing today, I have to go to an orphanage to see all the children and speak to the people that run it. When he told me I had to speak to people, the little nervous voice started to talk into my ear. But I soon remembered that I'm now queen and just have to suck it up, this is what I was born to do so I have to do it.I was just getting ready for the day, I managed to find a few outfits that would cover my neck. It's a bit of an inconvenience but until I'm marked it's what I have to do, I don't know when I'm going to be ready to get marked but I hope it's soon. I was slipping my shoes on when the door knocks and in walks Grayson, he smiles at me closing the door behind him."Good morning my love
After a little drive, we soon arrive in a little town. As we make it past the sign, people just lined the streets, as we drove by they all cheered and waved. Did all these people really come here to see me? In no time we pull up at a building, outside stood a man in a smart looking suit, either side were railings where people with cameras stood. My guards stand either side of the railings as my door is opened, I put a smile on my face climbing out the car. Immediately, the cheering got louder as I take a look around, I send a few people little waves before walking over to the guy in a suit."Welcome your majesty" he smiles bowing his head, we shake hands where I say hello " I'm Mike Falcon, these two are Maria and Jackson" he smiles walking backwards a little where two children stood."These are for you" Maria smiles handing me a bunch of flower
This week has had to be the most hectic in my life, now I know I've said that a lot since I arrive her but this one, well it hit a peak. Mason has been sending me here, there and everywhere. He keeps telling me it's to get me out there and seen, the people need to know I'm the type of person who will go into the community. Thankfully, it was Sunday a day I can get off, in no way did that mean I was getting a lay in. Today Kyle and Emma were visiting, I haven't saw them in nearly three weeks. It feels like a lifetime since I got to give Kyle a hug, a hug I've definitely needed. I was fully ready and waiting outside the castle, I asked them to come early so we had more time to spend together, with my schedule you never know when my next day offs gonna be. A car pulling into the gates makes a huge smile fill my lips, I begin to slowly walk down
It was the start of my third week here, my second week of duties which I feel are getting easier. Well not really easier, I'm just getting used to the schedule I guess. At the start of each week I have a meeting with Mason, he gives me a rundown of the week so I'm somewhat prepared. I walk into the room shocked to see someone else sat there, a man in a blue suit that looked maybe my age stood there. "Good morning your majesty, I'm Erik your new royal advisor" he smiles holding his hand out, I smile shaking his hand but was utterly confused. "My new adviser, what happened to Mason?" I ask still confused, I saw him on Saturday and he seemed fine. "He has been relocated to fulfil a different job"he smiles pulling his folder out "and before you ask, no it had nothing to do w