JEONGHAN's POV'Jeonghan," Yoo-Mi scooted closer to me.'Yes, babe?"'I do miss having you in my mouth," she hollered after me, that fire in her slowly returning. "I always liked seeing you at your weakest." She pouted.I chuckled and shook my head as I searched for a washcloth and when I found one, I turned on the warm water and ran the white cloth under it before wringing it out.I walked back into the room and climbed onto the bed, cleaned her folds off with it. Her eyes never left mine as I worked slowly, her skin erupting goosebumps under my touch as we stared at each other.'You've never done this before." She gave me a sly smile. 'I like this older, more mature version of you."I folded the washcloth in half, then half again before gently sliding it through her inner thighs, making sure to clean her off completely.It's not that I didn't take care of her before—it's just that I didn't always know how to show her how much I loved her. Not in the simple, little ways I want to. I
YOO-MI's POVWe need to talk.The words of Jeonghan echoed through my mind as an icy shiver trickled down my spine.He heard. Jeonghan heard the voicemail Josh left for me. The voicemail I never should have listened to.I deleted it. I deleted it so he wouldn't worry, wouldn't question me, wouldn't doubt what we have.Whatever was going on with me and Josh was over. For good.Jeonghan was standing in the doorway wearing a pair of light blue boxers, with two cups in hand, his face was fallen and frozen.I reached for my cup of chocolate from his hand and put it on the table. I swallowed nervously as I clutched the sheet to my chest. I felt my lower lip quivered, shook and trembled. Tears filled my eyes as we stared at each other for a long moment.I don't want to do this again. I don't want to feel like I have to prove myself. Prove that I love him more. That I'd choose him over and over again even if I had a million other choices.'It's not what you think," I said quietly.His eyes dr
YOO-MI's POVThe drive to Josh's house was long and quiet as I stared out the window, my chin resting on my palm. The dense pines passed by, deep green as golden sunlight filtered the pine needles, dancing across the ground.I don't want to do this. I don't want to tell Josh that I don't see the future with him that he sees with me. I don't want to tell him that he's too late. That we just never got our timing right. That even if Jeonghan leaves me again, my heart will leave with him. That I don't want to play games or hurt him.I already made my choice and that was Jeonghan and it was unfair of me to start something with Josh if my heart belonged to Jeonghan.'Jeonghan, watch out!" I screamed when a deer crossed the road and suddenly he stepped on the brake that caused my body to push forward. Thankfully, I got my seatbelt on.'Shit, babe. Are you okay? I'm sorry—' his hand reached up to touch my head.'I'm fine Jeonghan," I said as I leaned back on my seat, feeling a bit dizzy.'Our
YOO-MI's POVThere was a room full of eyes on us as Jeonghan looked down at his feet. I could see guilt and regret weighing down on him.'You get to be the asshole and coward who leaves," Josh continued. 'and I stayed here for Yoo-Mi, took care of her, loved her. And she's the only fucking I want but you took her away from me... Again!"Jeonghan clenched his fists, his jaw twitched, ready to attack Josh but I stopped him. I grabbed his hand and squeezed it, telling him to calm down. 'How about you, Josh?" he asked sternly. 'Weren't you the asshole here who hide everything? Didn't you keep to yourself everything you did to Yoo-Mi?"'Jeonghan....' I tried to stop him but he ignored me.'You made us believe that Honey was mine. Weren't you the coward here who was scared to tell us the truth? Huh, Josh!" he yelled. 'You have all the time to fucking tell us the truth! You ruined everything! You destroyed our relationship! You were telling us that you were the hero here when in fact, you're
JOSH's POVJeonghan was standing on the curb with his hands shoved into his pockets when I walked out of Yoo-Mi's house, my heart stuck in my throat. I brushed my face with my hands, swiping away at the few angry tears that slipped out during my confrontation with Yoo-Mi.Looking at him standing there makes my skin crawled, my blood boiled, my tears threatening to fall.He got her. He always got her. It doesn't matter that he left her. Doesn't matter that I love her. He always got her.'Let's talk over here." I said as I walked past him, heading across the parking lot to the edge of the pines.One showdown in front of Yoo-Mi's mother and Cheol and his girlfriend was more than enough for today. I don't want any physical fight with him anymore.Jeonghan followed quietly behind me, his footsteps lighter than mine.When I whipped around to face him, he doesn't bother stopping the verbal attack I immediately landed on him.'You're a fucking piece of shit!" I exploded. 'I have been angry wi
YOO-MI's POVI stared in the bathroom mirror, my eyes were swollen and puffy. The tip of my nose was bright red and there were pink splotches around my temples, splayed across my cheeks from the long cry I had in the stall. On the cold, hard floor.My hand dove into my purse, searching for something to cover up the agony and hurt and pain that was plastered all over my face.The pain of hurting Josh. Of hurting myself.‘Choose me, Yoo-Mi. Just this fucking once... choose me.'Those words nearly broke me into two. Those words made me want to tell him that I would choose him. That I would do anything to keep his heart from breaking.But, if I did that, I would just end up hurting him more than I already am.I always thought love was supposed to be simple. That falling in love was rainbows and butterflies and magic. But it was not. It was complicated and chaotic. No matter how many times you attempt it.I love Josh. Not the best friend who took care of me. I love who he was now. The fath
YOO-MI's POVMy heart began thumping as my eyes locked with mom. Her hazel eyes darted to Jeonghan. I watched as she rolled them dramatically. Anger, hostility, and revulsion flaring in the chocolate and coffee specks of her irises.'What are your plans, you two?" she started.Jeonghan cleared his throat. 'Firstly, I want to thank you for accepting me again—'Mom held her hand up to stop him. 'Don't mistake this talk as acceptance. I think history is just going to repeat itself where you two are concerned. I don't support whatever it is you two are doing."I felt my heart dropped all the way to my toes. 'Mom!'What?" she feigned innocence, her eyes widened.My blood felt like it's boiling as I balled my fists that was wrapped around Honey's body, who fell asleep on my lap. 'That's completely unfair and out of line."'I love you, Yoo-Mi," mom meekly stated. 'But I don't want to lose my daughter again."'You never lost me," I defended myself. I was never lost. I was just…hurting. Lonely
YOO-MI's POVI bit my lip while I mulled over whether or not it's a good idea to talk to Josh. We used to be best of friends. We're still, right? But I doubt we'll ever be friends like we were, but there's history and memories, a bond that's never been easily shaken. And Honey, connecting us.'Josh, can we talk?"His head lifted and he looked surprise to see me approaching him. 'About what?"'Are you okay?" I asked, his eyes were bloodshot as he looked at me expectantly.He laughed bitterly. 'You're unbelievable, Yoo-Mi." I took a step back, wounded. 'I lost my home, my life, and you. It's all gone and I'm rooming here, with you and your mom. I can't believe you have the fucking audacity to ask me if I'm alright. How the fuck do you think I'm doing?"I swallowed hard. He never talked to me like this before.'Don't worry, I'm leaving tomorrow." He continued.'No please…and I'm sorry. But I thought we're okay now?? You can stay here as long as you want. We're best friends, Josh."‘How a