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Chapter IV: His circumstances
The past year shrunk the world. In the hot wash, and to be honest, washing it had been a bad idea, all along. It should have gotten trashed, instead, given the dirt it had accumulated.
Especially Tom's world. It had been feeling rotten for as long as he could think, and it wasn't due to the rank kitchen, not to empty bottles in the hall, and neither to the floors that a cat which didn’t live for long had at some stage peed upon. It was due to himself.
Sundays which were actually Mondays. Tuesdays which would feel like Fridays, and Wednesdays that could have just as well been Saturdays. They were all the same. Except for Thursdays. Thursday was usually different, because he would sometimes take responsibility then, and see his son.
Except for that, nothing ever happened in his world. Only unimportant things tha
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