XIENNE
“You should have brought me to the hospital,” I said.
He looked at me and scanned my condition. By the way, he looks at me, gave me an uncomfortable feeling.
“Why? Do you think your condition is worst?” he asked. “I will bring you to the hospital.”
I nodded. “That is much better than here. I think I will not get well soon if no one will take care of me. My condition needs further assistance.”
I just don’t want anyone around here in my apartment. I have a lot of secrets hidden here. In my room. I am afraid he will need to enter that while taking care of me. I need to avoid that possibility.
“I think so, too.” He went to my kitchen and drank water. “I will just call Lexy so she can fetch us here and bring you to the hospital.”
I dismissed our discussion and just let him do what he said. He came out of my apartment. I feel the pain of my whole body. I can not move. They must wait for me to regain my strength and I will return to them. I
XIENNEBecause of the severity of my condition, I chose to stay in the hospital temporarily until I recovered. If I go home to the apartment, there is a good chance or high possibility that Lexy and Nikolai will visit me every day. My classmates might also visit me which can’t happen, they might see what’s in my room. They can't figure out my plan. I thought of that for a long time, they should not ruin my plan.I missed class for almost two days and Ace told me yesterday that our classmates might visit me when they have time after class. They already know too that Clarisse is the mastermind of what happened to me. I heard they are ignoring both Rhiza and Clarisse. I don’t think they should ignore Rhiza too, I only hate Clarisse. I also think that Rhiza has nothing to do with what happened to me, she’s too nice to agree with what her girlfriend is planning.Nikolai did not visit me since the night I was admitted here to the hospital. I don't know what he is up to.
XIENNEAfter a week, the Doctor said I can go out of the hospital already. Honestly, I am feeling better now so I think I can go home and go to school because I have a lot to catch up on. I think I missed a lot of lessons and discussions. I should not fail even though I am doing something terrible.I packed all of my things. I can stand up and move without aching something from my body. I still have band-aids but it lessened not like before that almost all of my body is covered with bandages and band-aids.I cleaned and fixed the bed so that the nurses don’t need to clean it. I roamed my eyes around, for almost two weeks I became comfortable here but I don’t think I can stay here. This is a hospital, duh!I was surprised when the door opened, I saw Ace and his wide smile. I shook my head a little, annoyed with his presence.“I told you, I’m going to be the one who will bring you home,” he said.He helped me pack some of my things and put them in a
XIENNEClark being true to his words really did teach me of our discussions last week. Undeniable, he speaks like a smart student, I thought why did he not used his brain before. He used to ditch classes and fail all of his exams and quizzes but now, he looks smarter than me.Is he really dumb or stupid before or it’s just that he is too lazy to study but he is really a wise person? I was amazed by the way he teaches me every single detail that he had learned.Almost all of our classmates are looking at us... including Ace that looks pissed. I just smiled at him and waved my right hand. He smiled a little too that looks unreal.Is he... jealous? I hope not, he shouldn’t be jealous, we’re not in a relationship after all. Oh, I remember I am giving him false hopes that are part of my plan.“Xienne,” Clark interrupted. “Are you still listening? Did you understand what I have said earlier?”I nodded and smiled. “Of course, I heard it loud enough. You
XIENNEClark being true to his words really did teach me of our discussions last week. Undeniable, he speaks like a smart student, I thought why did he not used his brain before. He used to ditch classes and fail all of his exams and quizzes but now, he looks smarter than me.Is he really dumb or stupid before or it’s just that he is too lazy to study but he is really a wise person? I was amazed by the way he teaches me every single detail that he had learned.Almost all of our classmates are looking at us... including Ace that looks pissed. I just smiled at him and waved my right hand. He smiled a little too that looks unreal.Is he... jealous? I hope not, he shouldn’t be jealous, we’re not in a relationship after all. Oh, I remember I am giving him false hopes that are part of my plan.“Xienne,” Clark interrupted. “Are you still listening? Did you understand what I have said earlier?”I nodded and smiled. “Of course, I heard it loud enough. You
XIENNEI was astounded by what Clark did. He’s still not leaving my lips and I don’t know what to do. His soft lips are not moving yet it gives me a different feeling. I held his shoulders to push him away but he already left my face so I did not have the chance to push him.I waited for him to talk. He shook his head and place his palms on his face to cover it. No words came out of my mouth. Fortunately, no one saw us.When I found the right words to say. I asked him. “Why did you kiss me?”He then removed his hands from covering his face and looked at me. “I’m sorry. I was… I think I don’t know what I am doing. I’m sorry, Xienne. I did not mean to kiss you.”I stood up and clean up my things and put them in my bag. “It’s okay. Let’s just forget that it happened.”He nodded. “Thank you. I hope you won’t avoid me.”I looked at him intently and heaved a sigh. “No, don’t worry. Let’s just go back to our class.”Like what I have said, we
XIENNEI keep on thinking about why Nikolai acted like that. He seems pissed when I saw him, his jaw was clenched. By just looking at him, I can say that there is something wrong.What is it? I don’t know anything. There’s something to me that knows what reason why yet I can’t accept it. Like it is wrong and it’s quite impossible. Nevertheless, I just shrugged it out.I’ll just ask him... when I already have the courage to. The night is keeping me awake. I am aware that some are already asleep by this time but sleepiness is not approaching me.I decided to get my diary and write what happened on my day.Dear diary,It is undeniably a long and tiring day yet I am still awake. I am not just physically tired but also mentally and emotionally. I’m drained and I don’t know how to get back. I badly want to be alone but I know... I just really want to be found.Save me... those were the words I wanted to shout yet I know, no one is willing to save
XIENNEI didn’t leave. I still chose to hear what they are talking about. I am very curious about what Clarisse had said. What does she want Rhiza to do?Rhiza is still sobbing and when she calmed. She sighed softly. I heard her clear her throat. I did not bother to peek my eyes inside anymore. It is enough to hear them.“Let’s break up,” said Rhiza.My forehead creased the later on I smiled a little. Few more, I will already make up my plan with these two. They will in my hands... easily, without exerting too much effort.“What? No! We’re not going to end this fucking relationship, Rhiza! Open your mind!” Rhiza exclaimed. I heard her chuckle with annoyance.“I already made up my mind, Clarisse. This isn’t working anymore!” A little sob from Rhiza came again. “This is not about us anymore! It is only about yourself and your bullshit ego!”I tried to look inside. Clarisse is now sitting on the floor with her palms in her face. I bet she’s cry
XIENNEWith a little talk with Nikolai, I suddenly became comfortable with him again. Thinking about the last time I saw him, he’s different now. His face is calm not like the last time that he looks kind of annoyed or irritated about something.“How’s Lexy?” I asked.He shrugged his shoulders. “We do not always see each other but I know she’s fine.”I nodded. “How about you? How are you, Nikolai?”It took a while before he answered, eventually sighing deeply. As usual, he looked up at the blue sky. The weather is cloudy now so the sun doesn't hurt the skin much, to add the fact that we are under the trees so we don't get hit by the sun rays.“As usual, Xienne. I’m just fine and trying to be okay with each passing day,” he uttered.I was silent for a moment and did not know what to say. I watched him in his entirety. Gradually his physique became more and more deteriorating, what the reason was I don’t know. I felt little pity for his condit