Chapter 31

Fabian

I hated myself for causing her pain. I stared at my hands

The flare of my ego wouldn't allow me to come close to her. I was pussed and I should have known better than to allow my anger to take charge of my thinking. It was the first time I had laid a hand on a woman. I usually avoid them but this woman did things to me. She makes me lose control and it was the first and last time I wanted that to happen.

Meredith made me calm as much as she made me go wild. There are things I would let her in on, Mariana didn't have the chance to be that way around me. Mariana was suffocating but Mergave me that freedom to feel whatever I wanted. She drives me crazy as much as I make her go crazy too. Were we denying our emotions too much that we were fighting and hurting each other in the process?

I haven't really given it any rational thought before now but it was pretty soon before someone came looking for her again. I wished she knew how I felt genuinely, maybe it would help see thin