FREYA
Zara’s whimpering woke me. I stretched, and jolted upright. I needed to polish the floors, to steal food for Zara, or she wouldn’t have breakfast, to – I frowned. I wasn’t in the slave-quarters. The bed felt too soft, the sheets were too soft, cool, like – bamboo sheets. I took in the rest of the room, as the memories came flooding in. “Mommy, I’m hungry,” Zara whimpered, rubbing her belly. “Is it too late to get food before the bad Madame comes?” I shook my head, hugging her as tears filled my eyes. “Oh Sweetheart, I don’t think we’d need to steal food again,” but I wasn’t so sure. I knew Darkmoon was too civilized to starve a child, but I couldn’t tell if Alpha Zac would be even more cruel to me than Gregory was. Zara pulled out of my arms, and shot me a quizzical look. “Why did you call me sweetheart Mommy, I’m Zara!” “Yes baby, Sweetheart is a name you call someone you love, and Mommy loves you.” She seemed more perplexed. “You did not love me when we were in the bad house, that’s why you only called me Zara?” “No Sweetheart,” I said, drawing her into my arms but before I could explain further, the door opened. I flinched, and hated the look of fear that instantly entered Zara’s eyes, as she stared wide-eyed at the maid who stepped in. “Good afternoon Ms,” the woman said with a curtesy. “You slept through dinner yesterday, I did not know if I should have woken you, please forgive me if I chose wrongly.” I nodded. “It’s alright – what’s your name?” “Helen, Madame.” “It’s alright Helen. But I and my daughter would like to eat something soon, we’re ravenous.” She nodded immediately. “Do you have a preference for breakfast, or should the chef use his discretion?” “I’ll leave it to the chef,” I reassured. From the look on Zara’s face, she couldn’t wait for the woman to leave before she started with the questions. “Mommy, you call me sweetheart, and now she calls you Madame, but you’re not Madame Tessa?” I nodded. “I didn’t call you sweetheart in – the bad house because there, it’s easy to forget your name, so I wanted you to remember you are Zara. And ‘Madame’ is simply a name we call someone that is respected.” I could tell her little mind had not fully grasped it, but she had time to adjust. That morning, I cried again as I watched my daughter gorge on the food served, marveling at food that should have been considered normal. Helen came later to tell me the Alpha had gone out to see to business, and he would be back later. I spent the day flipping through TV channels – TV was prohibited in Bloodwood, and I had to watch the awe on my daughters face as I finally found a children’s channel. How did she learn the songs so quickly? Hoping about as she danced in rhythm. Later that evening, Helen came back with a change of clothes for I and Zara. My eyes misted as I remembered a time that seemed so long ago, when I would have been happy to receive a beautiful designer dress, now, I was only grateful I had a change of clothes. A full smile broke out on my face however, as I watched Zara’s excitement when she was to wear hers. Alpha Zack, I was told was waiting in a little cozy parlor. He wanted to see both Zara and I. My dear returned with full force, as I raised my hand to knock on the door. It opened before I touched it. Alpha Zac stood in front of me, staring, his expression unreadable. The door cast a shadow on his face, so that I did not fully see him, but when I stepped into the room, I noticed he – he had been beaten! He had a double black eye, his lips were torn in at least five places, and from the stiff way he carried himself, I knew there were other bruises his official, Alpha attire hid. “Alpha Zac!” I cried out, dragging him to the sunlight streaming in. The bruises looked even worse up close. His eyes were swollen, both of them ringed with dark, angry shades of purple and red. His bottom lip was cracked in too many places, dried blood at the corner of his mouth. My gaze trailed lower, to the stiff way he held himself, the careful way he breathed, and I knew without seeing that he had bruises all over his body. “What happened to you?” My voice shook, part fear, part anger. “Who did this to you?” He only gave a small shrug, as though it were nothing, and—infuriatingly—smiled. “Don’t smile at me like that!” I snapped, my throat tight. I reached for his arm and pushed him toward a chair before he could argue. “Sit. Now.” Zac didn’t resist, but the way he kept watching me, the ghost of that smile still on his face, made my chest burn hotter. I found a cloth and a bowl of water on the side table, my hands moving before my mind even caught up. Dipping the cloth, I dabbed at his split lip as gently as I could, my fingers trembling. “You could get an infection,” I muttered. “And your ribs—are you even breathing properly? You shouldn’t be walking around like this. What kind of Alpha lets himself get beaten this way?” Still, he smiled. His green eyes followed every movement I made as though nothing else existed in the room. My hand stilled. “Do you think this is funny?” I burst out, louder than I intended. “Do you think your injuries are so minor? You’re bleeding, Zac! Stop looking at me like it doesn’t matter!” His smile softened, but he didn’t try to defend himself. Instead, his voice dropped low, almost tender. “It’s only good to see how brave you get when you’re taking care of someone else. But when it comes to yourself…” His eyes searched mine. “Why are you so timid then, Freya?” The words struck deeper than I wanted to admit. I clenched my jaw, blinking rapidly, hating the tears threatening to well up again.Freya’s PovThe house was quiet that night. Too quiet for my liking.I didn’t know what I would do or what was going through my mind at this time, but I knew it was not anything good. I really needed to get out of here with my daughter or I would be in serious trouble.The more I paced, the crazier I was becoming.Zac did not forgive. He didn’t forget. And that vase? That vase was enough to sign both our death warrants. I wasn’t waiting around to see how bad it would get.I got out of the room and walked back in to see Zara still sleeping. I could not even sleep. Not with the thought of me being killed or worse.I sighed. I had no choice. It was either I made this work, or I didn’t.The only choice I came up with was to run away and leave all of this behind. That was all I could do now.I walked to Zara and slowly shook her awake as she looked at me with wide eyes like she had been tortured while she slept.“hey sweetheart,” I smiled. “Wake up.”“Mummy?” She muttered. “what is going
Freyas povMy chest was beating loudly the more I thought of what was going on. How would I get through this? I was in a jam right now. I couldn’t keep my hands from being all clammy and sweaty and I hated the fact where no matter how I tried to think of it it wasn’t working. I was in a big mess.I looked at my shaky hands. Thinking of what the woman across from me has said made my heart beat faster.“The vase there was Zac’s favorite.” I thought deeply about it and sighed. What was I going to do?“Hey… are you okay?” She said across from me as I looked at her while nodding.“Yes I’m just… I’m just… yeah.”I let out a shaky breath and tried to sit up in a confident way but what was I doing? Who was I kidding? I knew I was soup. How stupid was I? I should have dropped everything in a safe place. Any breakable thing should have been kept aside. Instead I had been silly and moved on like nothing was wrong: now I had broken something. A vase. Just a vase. And somehow it was the one thi
Freyas povI ran into the room fast. “Zara!” I shouted.She was on the floor. The vase had broken around her. There was glass, so much sharp glass scattered everywhere. Her little hand was red. Blood scattered everywhere.“No, no, no…” I collapsed down beside her. She was screaming so hard that her face was red too. I carried her up immediately.“Shh, it’s okay baby, it’s okay,” I whispered as my hands shook.She cried into my chest with scared little cries. My shirt was wet wet her tears fell but I didn’t care.I carried her to the bed and set her on it. I got a rag, water and some bandages. My hands felt all shaky but I tried to steady it and I had to because she was looking at me with big wet eyes thinking maybe I would be mad at how she had broken the vase.“Stay still,” I said in a calm way. “It just stings a little.”I cleaned the cut. She screamed louder when the water hit it. “Shhh… shhh… I know, I know,” I said, holding her.I put the band-aid on her hand slowly and softly b
Freyas povI woke up slower than usual. My eyes were heavy, I was probably swollen, but it wasn’t from sleep. From last night’s tears maybe. The memories. The… everything.But oddly enough, I didn’t feel crumbled like I thought I should have been. My chest still hurt, yeah, but there was this little something inside of me. It was small and soft and kinda fragile seeming like a candlelight trying not to go out against the wind or something.It gave me a little hope that maybe… just maybe the day wasn’t going to be so bad.That was when I remembered her.Beth.I thought of her and smiled as I couldn’t believe this. After all this time telling myself nothing was going to make me cry, I had broken down when I saw her.My lips formed the slightest smile. There was no need denying that having her fight for me was one of the sweetest thing anyone could ever do for me.The memory of our shared past came to my mind as I remembered when me and her would be sitting on the dining table, gossiping
Freyas povThe sound of my name in that voice stopped everything.When I turned and saw Beth, my chest squeezed so hard it hurt. She looked the exact same and entirely different, older, of course, but her eyes… they were still Beth’s. Wide, and glistening with tears before we even said anything.I stared at her as my heart broke. Seeing my best friend again… it was heart wrenching. Not after what I had done to her. I couldn’t bring myself to look at her as my eyes welled up.“Freya,” she muttered and stepped to me as I sighed and wiped the tears from my face. Oh I can’t believe this. You’re really here. I thought—gods, I thought I’d never see you again.”A shaky laugh broke out of me, half-choked. “I can’t believe it either.”We fell into an embrace as she held me so long before separating to look into my eyes. “I can’t believe this. One day you were here and then… gone. No call, no message… nothing. I thought that I somehow fucked up. That maybe I was the problem,” She bit her lip h
Freyas povThe morning after he left, the silence was the heaviest thing. Alpha Zac hadn’t said a word to me before he left, he hadn’t said goodbye or anything at all. He’d just gone.I wanted to act like I didn’t give a rats ass what happened but I suddenly shuddered at the thought of what anyone would do without him at the pack.I leaned against the headboard of the bed and stared at the window.Uncertainty seemed to claw at me with every breath.Zara didn’t seem to have any of that. She was five years old. This was magic for her. It was a new home. A garden bigger than she’d ever imagined, rooms with windows tall as doorways and soft rugs blanketing the floor, flowers she’d never even dreamt existed before. And guess what? We were not in prison like the last pack. We felt free. Or happy. Or was it that the punishment wasn’t here yet? I couldn’t tell. But hey, at least we felt like everything was just okay.I heard her little feet run back and forth just outside the door, her laught