Chapter 11-Help my heart

Carissa’s face was red and her eyes blurry as a result of the tears that had welled up in them.

She kept writing, pouring out her heart and narrating her desires.

For a while, her journal became her place of rest and peace.

She had no one to talk to about her pains and wants because none of them would understand from her perspective.

However, her journal was one thing that wouldn’t judge her or debunk her thoughts and opinions.

As such, she derived great joy in writing whenever she felt so overwhelmed and deserted.

Carissa couldn’t get enough sleep all through the night. She kept tossing on her bed, thinking of Stan and wondering what her life would be like.

This caused her to become restless and when she was unable to take it anymore, she picked up her journal and decided to write.

“Hey journal, all I want is peace and despite how much I crave it, I can’t seem to find it anywhere. Maybe, I would find peace if I set my eyes on Stan again”, she wrote down on the journal as more tears dropped out of her eyes.

Just then, she heard something hit her window and for a second, she froze.

It sounded so familiar, but she concluded that there wasn’t a way that what she thought would come to reality.

She quickly shook her head and returned her gaze to the journal.

Again, she heard a hit on her window and this time, it was longer than the first.

“Oh my God!” She yelped as she stood up and staggered slightly.

She swiftly turned her gaze to the window, with her heart beating out of her chest.

Glaring at the window, she waited to hear the knock yet again.

And then, it came, making her realize that he was right there, at her window.

She stayed rooted to the spot, thinking of the next step to take.

Memories came flooding in as she remembered how excited she got whenever she heard the knock on the window.

Her heart was in an array of emotions at the moment. First, she got excited to open up the window for him, but then, that excitement quickly paved way for great sadness when she realized that they had nothing to do with each other again.

He had left her at a point where she needed him most, causing her to live in misery while pretending to be great.

This caused her heart to ache and almost immediately, she made up her mind to ignore him.

She sniffed hard as she took slow steps back to her bed, ignoring Stan and hoping he would go away.

Stan shivered in the cold, but wasn’t willing to leave without setting his eyes on Carissa.

He peeked into the window and saw that she had ignored him.

However, he wasn’t willing to relent in his actions.

He quickly dipped his hands into his pocket and brought out a little notebook and pen.

On the note he wrote “I love you Carissa”, after which he stretched it out on the window which was closed.

He hit the stone on the window again, hoping that Carissa would dart her attention to him.