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014. You don't have to fall for him

Author: Dark Ocean
last update Last Updated: 2025-03-19 22:58:41

RENATO MARINO

Irritation, uncertainty, rage, frustration.

So much fucking anger weighed down on my chest making it hard to breathe. I was angry at myself for slipping up and allowing my emotions to get involved with the fucking rat I was trying to tame.

I was pissed off at Jayce too because why in the hell did he have to look so much like Aspen, confusing the shit out of me? But above all else, I was furious with my act. I was over pretending to be someone I wasn't.

I wasn't who I was presenting myself to be in front of Jayce. I wasn't nice, nor was I clueless. Nothing ever goes behind my back and I wouldn't know.

I wasn't the person I pretended to be in front of Jayce. I wasn't the naive, clueless Renato Marino who welcomed anyone into my inner gang just because they'd taken a bullet for me. That wasn't me - not the calculating, ruthless leader who'd stop at nothing to protect my empire.

I was a master manipulator, always in control, with eyes and ears everywhere. Nothing slipped pa
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