Prologue

"What are you doing here? I believe it was Lyzza I was meeting tonight." She angrily told him.

"Have to convince Lyzza to do this. If I will invite you to go out with me, you will surely reject me so I have no choice but to do this stunt. This is the only possible way I could have a chance to talk with you, Gav."

"I can't believe you, Cedrick Miguel," she stated frustratedly while shaking her head in disbelief and feeling so upset for what he did.

She immediately walkout and left the place but he ran over and followed her. She might succeed in leaving the establishment but unfortunately failed to get away from him because he blocked her way as soon as she reached the exit. He pulled her outside the bar until they reach the beachside darker area.

"Get off me! What is it that you want?" She hissed irritably.

"I'm sorry..." Shocked by her disgust, his face stoop down as his eyes went gloomy. She never missed the pain and sadness in his expression when he jerked his eyes away from her.

This sly and manipulative man, did nothing but keep on hurting her feelings but how could he still manage to keep on affecting her all this time? She hates him but she knew deep inside her she still cares about him.

"Let's date." He said seriously. Her eyes automatically went through him as she felt her heart suddenly jerked in pain.

She has to admit she got stunned but she somehow managed to calm herself and showed him a blank expression.

"You've gotta be kidding me." She replied bitterly as she tried to jerk her eyes on the ocean.

Is this what he would tell her the reason he used his secretary and fooled me to come in this place? He wants us to what? Date? He's gotta be me...

"I want us to date." His tone was full of seriousness and stability now. His intent stare gives her chills as if he wanted to reach her soul.

"As far as I'm concerned, I made it clear with you that you should stop this foolishness, Cedric Miguel." She stated in a cold and pissed tone.

She doesn't understand, he hated her before. They might be okay now but they just started to become friends again. Now he wants her to date him? Is he out of his mind?

"I was so wrong for what I treated you in the past. I know I can never bring back the past but believe me I regret those moments."

"I'm sorry, but it was just so hard for me to believe that you like me. Knowing how you treated me before, the sudden act of getting close with me after four years? You were even proclaiming before that I was like a sister to you so I don't get all of this?"

He went silent for a moment then pulled out a frustrated sigh. She gotta be mistaken because by the looks on his face, he seemed very offended. And is it pain and desperation she could view in his eyes? Her eyes might be deceiving her. Funny because if this moment had happened four years ago, her heart must have been celebrating because it's a dream come true. In her teenage days, her wildest and secret dream is for him to like her. The dream finally came true but unfortunately, it's not the same happiness and expectations she hopes it will be because that dream is no longer a dream anymore. It is now a foolish illusion in her past that she wanted to forget and get over with.

If only she didn't know whom he was in love with. If only she didn't know what might be his purpose for doing all of this. Realizing it, she couldn't help to tighten her fist in disappointment and anger. It's so painful he can use and hurt someone just to have the girl he loves. That he wanted to take revenge on her stepsister at her expense.

"Feelings outgrown, people changed. Just give me a chance to prove my feelings to you." He said in a pleading tone.

"You're just wasting your time on me. I will not date you and my decision was final." She told him in an obvious skeptical and censorious tone instead. She saw how his jaw clenched as his expression turned dark and gloomy. Seeing him hurt and rejected like this still make a pang in her heart.

"I want you to stop this nonsense, Cedrick Miguel. Do this stunt again and I'll swear I'll get mad with you. Let's forget about this and just remain friends like we used to, okay?"

His face turned distorted then jerked his eyes away as if he didn't like what she said. She was about to walk away and leave but she never expected his next action. In one swift motion, he suddenly grabbed her arm and turn her around in a drastic way. His other hand held her face firmly then kissed her fully in the mouth. With eyes widened in shock, for a moment, she got stunned and seemed her world suddenly ceased to exist.

His kisses were rough and the sudden electricity feeling of his touch makes her body start to shudder. She knew he was the only man who has the capacity to do this to her and it's so frustrating an hidden part of her loving the sensation he do to her. She tried pushing him and hitting his chest to stop him but he only captured her arms and continued to kiss her thoroughly. Then his kiss turned gentle coaxing her lips to open. When she felt him delve her tongue and make a twirl inside her mouth, she tried to push him with all her force but he wouldn't stop and kept his pace.  His audacious tongue was persistent in tracing every corner of his mouth. Her knees started to weaken and if she was not being held by him, she will surely tumble to the ground. His hold tightened and she couldn't help to close her eyes. The sensation was starting to melt her and she couldn't accept the fact she was liking every bit of it. As much as she wanted to deny it but her traitor body started to enjoy and get drowned by his kisses. That in just a flick of time, she found her own lips responding to him. She felt lost and just let her feelings reveled with the pleasure of being held and kissed by him. Her defenses are slowly breaking apart when a sudden voice in her memory from the last suddenly jotted in her mind that brought her back to bitter reality.

"You disgust me..."

Those remarkable words suddenly infiltrated her mind that awaken her in her silly fantasy. The same and exact words he told her four years ago that marked and pained her heart the reason he can never trust him. Realizing why he was doing this, tears started to stream down her cheeks as her body stiffened. Her body might be a traitor but not her mind. If she will let her feelings win, she will end up miserable the way she felt before. She will never let him use her, she'll make sure of that. So she gathered all her strength then pushed him away with all her wits. When she finally succeeded, a hard slap on his face is what she immediately responded. She saw him get stunned as if he got awakened in a sweet dream. His face looks like he has been splashed by cold water, confused and guilty.

"I-I'm sorry..." He said looking confused and apologetic. Is she not mistaken, concern and worries were written in his eyes when he saw her angry reaction?

"How dare you kiss me! You stay away from me from now on!" She shouted angrily. She saw him clench his jaw as his face darkened in anger. She gasped when he suddenly pulled her on the arm never wanting to let her go.

"I'm sorry baby but I don't take no for an answer. I swear I'll do anything to win your heart and that's a promise." He said with finality before freeing her arm and just like that, he left and walk away leaving her.

Seeing the man she had been secretly loving for all these years walking away finally made her tears fall down as the memories from the past started to flashback into her. The pain and bitterness that brought her towards loving him and how he hated and disgusted her all the way. Funny because he was only trying to convince herself that she already moved on but it was still him all along. The painful and wrong accusations he cast her that left a scar on her heart. Yes, she still loves the unworthy bastard but she will never let herself be fooled and use him. Drastically wiping her tears using the back of her palm, she looked up in the sky to stop the tears from falling. There's no way she will let him know that she was loving him for all these years. There's no way she will give him the satisfaction that he can break her heart into pieces just like before. Never...