Bella POV
After Alex left, I was feeling, you know what, I have no idea what I was feeling. It was like a mixture of numbness, shock, hurt, happiness, anger. I mean we never had to stop being friends. He was the one that wanted freedom. He just didn’t want me. He wanted me as a friend but not as a girlfriend. The day he broke it off with me, I was heartbroken. I mean I had fallen in love with him. I thought he felt the same way and I was planning on telling him. We also had a road trip planned for the summer and that just went out the window because he wanted to have his freedom already. It was like he had changed. Like a flip of a switch. I did not know what else to do but be a friend and be supportive while I was breaking inside. I got away from him as soon as possible and went up to my room. I feel on the floor and started crying. A couple of minutes later Elise had walked in and saw me on the floor. She automatically closed the door and came over and hugged me. She asked me what was wrong and I told her everything. She was the only one that knew about our relationship. She was shocked and said “What is going on with my family?”. When I asked her what she meant, she said that her parents and brother have been arguing a lot lately but no one would tell her what was going on. She also told me that she has noticed the changed in her brother. We both sat there while cried and laughed because we really had no idea what was going on in our lives. From that day forward we were super close. After that I was never able to fall in love with anyone. I was broken. I not only lost my boyfriend but also my best friend. What was breaking more is how I felt about the explanation. He wanted freedom. I know he said his parent’s pressures and such but we could have stayed together. No, he wanted freedom from me as well. It made me feel unloved and unwanted. That summer ended up being the worse summer. Aside from being rejected, that summer I went through a very severe depression. My grandmother had dies. We were very close and I was heartbroken. I felt that people just leave me. Yes, I had my parents and Elise and her parents. But the people that knew me inside and out, as well my deepest secrets and fears were my grandmother and Alex. Then I lost them. My parents just thought I was grieving my grandmother. Every guy I dated after that which were not many, was nothing in comparison to him. The old him, not the new him. When I started dating Matteo is was when I had decided to let go of the old Alex and just move on with my life. Now Alex wants to be back in my life, but I am not sure how this is going to work. The problem is I still love him. No matter how much I deny it I do. But I know he is not the same person. Will he then leave me again? I fell asleep after all my thoughts. The next day was amazing. We spent all day at the spa. The full day was amazing. We were relaxing and this is what I needed. Elise and I had a conversation about my talk with Alex last night. I told her everything that had happened. She asked me “Do you still love him, Bella? “I think I do Elise and I don’t know why.” I respond “Are you going to try to be his best friend again? And trust me I am not jealous. I know you love me. I just know how much I missed all three of us hanging out without our parents there.” She said “I am going to try to be his friend again. I also told him that we would have to build up the friendship again. That’s why he wanted to come, so we can bond as friends again. He seemed to have understood and then he left. The he hugged me and I kind of froze at first. That’s how I knew I still loved him. Because he felt like home. I don’t know if that makes sense.” I sigh “Bella, I understand exactly how you feel. That’s how I feel with John. I just don’t want you to get hurt again. I was there that day. I know you remember it better than I do, but I remember the pain I saw you in and it made me hurt as well. I love my brother and in a perfect world you guys would be married by now we at least my perfect niece on the way. But I also know that my brother has changed, a lot. I just don’t want you to get hurt.” “I know Elise and that’s why I told him I need to build up to that point. I need to get myself in the friend headspace and learn to love him in that capacity instead of loving him as someone having a future with because he will never see me that way.” She sighs and just said “Let’s see how this night goes.” After we finished at the Spa we are so relax and take an hour nap before the guys come and get us at 7. A knock comes at the door. Elise goes to open it and the guys come in. As soon as they see what we are wearing they both just said they were glad they came since we should not be out dressed like that by ourselves. I mean we were both wearing black bodycon dresses with LV heels. We wanted to match. “Okay ladies please stick with us for the night. We are going to have dinner at Nobu and we will walk the strip. We can then go clubbing halfway through the strip and continue to walk the strip after a couple of hours. The we will rest up and meet for brunch at 11 am. Does that work for everyone?” Alex says “We came up with discussing the plan before we got wasted today.” John says. “I am okay with that. Sounds good to me.” Elise says “I agree, I like having a plan.” After the guys picked us up, we ended up having dinner, then we walked the strip. We actually had really good conversation. Alex and I talked some. Nothing too personal just basic chat. I did not want to talk about anything personal. I wanted to unwind and relax before going back home and having to be all business. Don’t get me wrong I do have freedom to go out and have fun, but I am responsible and like to plan. I take lots of mini weekend vacations. Its my way of relaxing and letting loose. I was just always alone or with Elise. This trip was supposed to be my first trip with a guy. While walking the strip, we stopped at a few street vendors and bought some desert and drinks. The drinks were incredibly strong. The alcohol really help me be more loose and not shy away from Alex. It was like we were young again just having fun. When we got to the club, we were already kind of drunk so, I ordered some water for everyone first before we continued drinking. We danced the night away. I look over and I see Elise dancing with John, and I am dancing with Alex. -------------------------------------------------------------- The next morning, I woke up with a pounding headache. I slowly open my eyes to adjust to the light. I tried to move but I groan as I not only feel pain in my head but between my legs. I start to panic; I hear a groan from beside me and I quickly sit up. Ugh, should not have done that. I look to see who it is and its Alex. What the hell happened? I run my hand through my hair and I feel something on my finger. I look at my hand and see a ring. “OH MY GOSH!!!!” I screamed. I started to remember everything that happened last night. And when I say everything, I mean everything. “THIS CANT BE HAPPENING!!” I yelled out.THIRD PERSON POV FLASHBACK The four friends went out to enjoy their night out. John and Elise are having the time of their lives. It has been a while since they were able to go out and enjoy themselves without the worry of work and life. This weekend and this night is what they have been wanting to do for a while now. They drink without a worry in the world and dance away in the club. They are floating on clouds. They are too drunk. John is not a lightweight and did not have many drinks yet he feels like something is off. Why is he so drunk? Alex is thinking the same thing. He is having a lot of fun. He has not been able to do something like this since college, but now he is doing it with Bella. It just feels right. He should have never pushed her away. This is something he should have done with his best friend and discover who they were together. He messed that up because of his messed up mind and the horrible memory of the reason why he had to end it. Tonight though
Alex POV I wake up to someone screaming. Wait, is that Bella? I open my eyes and see her pacing the room. I start to think back at what happened last night. I rub my hands on my face when I feel something on my hand. I look at my hand and see a ring. Then everything starts coming back to me. The strip, the club, the chapel. Oh my goodness, I got married. That was not a part of my weekend plans. Bella continues pacing up and down. I get up from my bed, and walk over to her. She looks terrified. “Bella, calm down and look at me.” I say while huggin her close. “Calm down are you crazy, we got married last night Alex! MARRIED! I was supposed to marry the love of my life. Someone who loves me as I love him. Not …” She doesn’t finish her sentence. I don’t know why but my chest felt tighter at that moment. I know we were not in love but this can work. “I know I was there too. Weirdly though I remember everything. I usually barely remember anything that happened the pre
Bella POV I can’t believe I got so drunk that I got married. MARRIED!!! I remember all the details and it was indeed my dream wedding. I even married the man I love. The only problem is that he doesn’t feel the same. I don’t know what we are going to do. Will we get a divorce? Do I want a divorce? I did not see my weekend playing out like this. Also, why was he so calm about this? I am so mad and sad that I can’t help but cry. I am sitting on the floor in the living area of our room and I am just crying. We also had such a great night. He was gentle and passionate and if I did not know any better, I would think he loved me too but I know he does not. About 10 minutes later, Elise walks into the room. “Bella, Oh Bella, talk to me, what is going on in your head?” Elise says as she sits next to me and hugs me close to her. “It was my dream wedding, El, but he does not love me. I don’t know what to do. I am still in love with him. I thought I was finally over him, but I
Bella POV To say we were all sitting around shocked, well, that was an understatement. We all sat there quietly processing the fact that he had been played, and that had been the cause of all this to happen. I spoke first. “Is this why you wanted to be friends again? Because you found out the truth?” “Yes, initially. I realized you were the only one who really cared for me as me. You were my real friend. Not only that, but I have always missed you. It took everything in me every day not to go to you and spend time with you.” Alex responds “So, what are we going to do now?” I asked. “John, Elise, can you guys give us some time to talk?” Alex asked. “Sure, but I swear to God Alex, if you hurt her, I will skin you alive! Brother or not!” Elise says to him while giving him a glare and poking his chest with her index finger. “Elise, I would never hurt Bells!” Alex glares right back at her. “Yeah, I have heard that before, but then what happened after graduation? Becau
Third Person POV The two sit down and start discussing what will happen moving foward. They decide to move into Bella’s Brownstone since it is closer to both of their jobs and they can be at work in 5 minutes. Bella is adamant that they will not be sharing rooms and he can stay in one of her guest rooms. Alex understands. They also set up to take 2 weeks off of work in order to be able to get to know each other better. Bella does not know what to do or think. She understands why he did what he did. What she does not understand is how he could change his ways so quickly. Can someone really change overnight? Can he really be the person he was? Can he be a one woman man after having women after women? She feels like everything is moving too fast and she has no control over the situation and does not know what to do. She agreed to stay married, but she also told him that it doesn’t mean it will work out. She is scared of getting hurt again. She does not have the strength to be able
Alex and Bella have to now returned to work. The last 2 weeks were amazing. Alex feels like everything is finally falling into place in his life. He has always loved Bella, but now he feels like he is falling head over heels in love with her. He can’t even explain the feeling. He is content for the first time in a long time. He has not turned on his phone yet as Bella and him decided to not turn it on until they get to the office. Bella is also happy. She is still in love with Alex and the last two weeks have fortified their bond. It was like she was back with her best friend but now they are married. He kisses her forehead every morning and night before they go to bed or live the house. The way he hugs her makes her feel like she is safe and protected. She feels like she is finally where she needed to be. She feels like she is home in his arms. She is still a little hesitant about sharing a bed with him and sleeping together. She has deep rooted insecurities and she knows that sh
The week has flown by and Alex and Bella are making great progress in their relationship. They have been focused on work and have kept their word. They get home early every evening and sometimes they have to bring work home with them but they work together to solve some of their work issues. They are happy they have each other to bounce ideas off each other. They make a great team. They enjoy being with each other and cuddling. Even kisses. It is Saturday morning and Alex wakes up first. He looks over at Bella sleeping in his arms and he is the happiest man alive. He gets to wake up every morning and admires his wife. She is a sight. She is beautiful. He loves her golden brown hair. She always goes to bed with a messy bun, but wakes up with her hair all over the place. She still looks beautiful. Her tanned skin that is so soft that all he wants to do is keep touching her and never letting go. He wants to pleasure her in so many ways, but he will wait until she is ready and comf
The Gala was now over and the couple had returned home. Bella was impressed with how Alex had handled Michelle. Not only did he state he was married, but he also called her the love of his life. Even though the situation was not the best to be in, especially as a newlywed, she also has a past, even though she had never slept with someone, she had dated and anyone there was Matteo. She knew some of the men were obsessed with her as well. She is well aware that Matteo is going to try to come back to her, but she hopes he knows better than to do that. She is married. Alex, on the other hand, is worried that Bella will distance herself from him because of the Michelle situation. He cannot believe that Michelle would think that it was okay to come up to him like that knowing that he is married. There is no way I will ever go to her. She must’ve been out of her mind. He wants to make sure that he reassures her that she is the only one for him and that he has changed his ways. He was