088. Viktor is back.

Raven

This should be the last of it. I stared at my new apartment. I moved in just yesterday. Not to my taste but I can make do with this for now till I'm done with my internship and figure out what to do with my life.

My parents hadn't returned to Phoenix,yet. They had asked me to go with them. For the first time in years, my mother asked me to come back to the family and she only did so because Killian broke off our marriage. They both kept ringing in my ears that it would be better if the wedding were cancelled and that I was finally free from the family. They wanted to drag me to Phoenix to live out the remaining miserable years of my life with this child. So they were lurking around in a hotel till I changed my mind which isn't going to happen any time soon.

I don't even want to think about that now.

I won't lie, I had contemplated an abortion. I can't carry Nero's child. If he knows that the child was his then he'll come for me. I don't want him anywhere near me, especially now that Killian and I are broken apart.

I shook my head, patting myself on the cheek. I should remain calm. Everything will be fine. The only thing I regret right now is not taking Killian's credit card. So now I have only my internship paycheck to live on. And with this baby, the money isn't enough.

I slumped on the bed and looked around the room. How did my life turn out to be this way?

I felt caged,I hate this studio apartment. I feel like I can't breathe. There's no running water except for evenings, and the room is as small as the bathroom in Killian's house. There's no air conditioning or a bathtub.

Sigh.

I can't live like this.

I fell on the bed, my eyes fixated on the clock. I should be in the hospital but I'm scared I'll run into him. I can't look him in the eye, I can't look anybody in that hospital in the eye.

They probably know by now that the wedding is cancelled because Killian had been so excited that he had sent out invitations to nearly all his employees.

I screamed into my pillow. How do I face this humiliation? Don't even get me started on how I've been dragged on the internet. Just yesterday, there were a lot of insults directed at me.

Raven Lopez, who got cheated on by her ex-husband was discovered to be pregnant with another man's baby a day before her wedding to her ex-husband's brother. And the father? The first son of the Markovs.

What's her deal with the Markov brothers?

They've all fucked her and fortunately, Nero Alexie Markov made the goal.

She's a whore who's after the Markovs fortune.

She just needs a roof over her head and dicks of the same blood to fuck.

She's disgusting.

Does her legs ever close?

Maybe if old man Markov were still alive, she would fuck him too.

I had switched off my phone since then. I don't want to get depressed any more than I already am. I finally gathered the courage to go to the hospital. One way or the other, I have to fend for myself.

So I got dressed and headed for the hospital.

As I stood in the elevator, I fidgeted with my fingers. My shoulders were tense and shivering. Just waking past the reception, I nearly toppled to the floor in shame. The amount of dirty looks I got from the employees and even my fellow interns?

Jesus Christ!

You'll never know your enemy until you're stuck in the mud.

I even saw Mary. She refused to make eye contact and I won't blame her, Scarlett must have done something to her.

I walked down the hallway and increased my pace after I heard one of the nurses say the boss is coming to check up on the patients in paediatrics.

I hastened my steps. He shouldn't see me, I don't think I'm worthy enough to stand before him. In my attempt to rush out of the paediatrics ward, I bumped into someone.

You know who, right?

“ Look who it is? The latest talk of the town!" Scarlett purred, flipping her hair over her shoulder.“ I can't believe you still work here.”

I didn't say a word, mostly because his tensed stare kept me in place. He still has that disgusted and angry look on his face. He still hates me.

" Transfer her to another hospital…she's repeating her internship!" Killian gnarled, then walked past me.

It took a moment for his statement to sink in.“ Wait..what?”

Scarlett chuckled.“ In the end, you're the one getting kicked out!” She parted my shoulders and walked past me briskly.

I remained standing, my lips trembling as tears gathered around my orbit.

Repeating?

I can handle getting transferred but repeating my internship when I have just one more month to go is not something I can do.

It's utterly unreasonable and wicked.

I clenched my fists as pain shot through my chest heavily. Killian can't do this to me. I know he's still angry but making me start all over again is way out of line.

Without a second thought, I turned on my heels and went after him.“ Killian, wait!” I yelled and he paused in his tracks.

I circled him till I was standing in front of his face.“ You can transfer me, I'll accept that but you can't make me repeat a whole year! I worked hard for this!" I breathed, fighting the tears that lingered in my eyes.

He didn't even glance at me.“ You work under me…if I deem you not worthy enough to get your license then I can always make you start over and…….”

“ But I've been working and doing my job!" I interrupted, disbelief in my eyes. He's taking this too far.

He snapped at me and I flinched." Don't interrupt me…and no you're not worthy. You've been taking advantage of the fact that we were previously engaged to slack off. Only my woman is allowed to slack off and you're not here. So if you want that license then work hard for it!" He spat then brushed past me.

My shoulders slumped as I stared at his back. I don't know if I should feel anger or hurt but right now, it feels like I couldn't breathe. Any moment from now I could pass out.

Am I repeating?

Killian is making me repeat! That means I'm paying all my registration fees all over again. The first tear slid down my cheeks as I swallowed the hurt and pain.

He's punishing me!

I wiped the tear off my face and went back to the nurses' room. What's the use of working if I am getting transferred?

So I left the hospital and returned home. On the way I had a phone call from an unknown number which I recognised. I hesitated ,what does he want now?

Maybe he wants to mock me since I had it worse than him.

I don't know why I picked up and placed the phone in my ear.“ Raven…..hey. How are you?” Viktor started on the phone.

I took a deep, frustrated breath.“ What is it?"

“Hey calm down …I'm just worried about you. I saw the news. Where are you….Can I come see you?” He asked and I went quiet, mostly because another tear had broken free from my eyelid.

I'm pathetic.

“Please, Raven….I know you're not doing okay right now so at least let me just see you .” He pleaded.“ I'll bring the kids along to keep you company if it's okay with you."

When I whispered an affirmation, I realised that I'm gone. I'm pathetic and stupid and worthless. In the end, Viktor is coming back. After all the vows I made.

I started crying inside the taxi as I sent my address. I'm crying because it hurts and because my heart was heavy.

I want Killian back but he hates me. I want him back so bad. I want our wedding to push through,I want him by my side. I want him back.

By the time I was done crying, I had arrived at my apartment and guess what? Viktor was already standing in front of the building, leaning on his car.

I laughed at myself inwardly. The man that I was trying to destroy and get revenge on was doing better than I was.

He saw me and the next moment, wrapped me in a hug. I didn't push him away as I should have. I just stayed there and cried in his embrace.

I'm pathetic, aren't I?