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“This is insane.” I muttered under my breath, even more sober now that I was finally handed a bouquet of flowers, standing in what used to be my bedroom years ago. We landed in Sicily two hours earlier, where I met a swarm of stylists ready to glam me up for the wedding at Papa’s mansion. Mamma made me wash myself two times to get off ‘the stink’, and my skin felt raw from too much scrubbing. Brushed thrice as well. Oh, and also concealed some of my tattoos with a foundation. My wedding dress was a bit loose on my body, the shoes too. Mamma had me wearing Felicia’s clothes, threatening every step of the preparation. She blamed me for the bones on my body, cussed me for taking drugs so much. But I only started because of them. Because they took my ‘bastard’ away from me, they took my love away from me… Where Felicia was the perfect, gorgeous daughter with brown bouncy curls, hazel green eyes and tempting curves, I was… me. Jet black hair, crazy blue eyes and a skinny frame which made my full chest look out of place. I stared at myself in the mirror, wondering how the hell my day had turned into this. Mamma knew despite how much I loved comfort, I’d rather sleep on the streets then do anything for them. So she’d gone ahead to threaten me with the only thing in this world I couldn’t afford to lose. “Your husband is at the church already. Put a smile on that face Lottie, or I’m going to slap one on it.” Mama practically growled at me from the door. I didn’t take my eyes off the mirror, watching my lips curve in the most awkward smile. “Where’s Papa?” I asked the question that’s been bothering me without glancing at her still. “He’s at the church. Now come.” Mamma’s grip on my arm was tight as fuck as she dragged me out. Only loosened her grip when we stepped outside the house. The heat in Sicily was insane, a huge contrast from the chilly weather just this morning in London. There was a crowd outside the gate, lights flashed and journalists barked questions at us, extending their mic like I’d touch that spit-infested stick. I felt mamma pinch my skin and speak tightly against my ear, “Smile.” My lips curved to mimic a smile as I hurried to get into a waiting SUV. The church wasn’t bustling with people like I expected. Papa stood outside, relief clear on his face. Mamma ran up to him and he pecked her cheek, patting her back with his eyes on me. He spoke to her while I walked up to them. His eyes met mine and he walked briskly towards me. “Tell me you’re ready.” He growled. When I didn’t answer, tipping my chin up as I glared at him, he continued, “I’ll make sure you regret it if you mess this up for me, Charlotte. It’s a pity you had to step in. Be on your best behavior for the duration of this marriage...” He walked closer to me, bent his arm so I could entangle mine with it. I slipped my arm around his, and he leaned in to whisper against my ear, “… because if you cause me any trouble, if Igor even thinks about returning you… I’ll know, and I’ll gladly leave a bullet in that bastard’s brain. Now smile.” If I had a dollar for everytime I was reminded to smile today… My palms filled with cold sweat, my mind with rage, but I forced a smile regardless. I finally noticed the flashing of lights again as I started walking through the double doors, down the aisle. I smiled shakily, knowing Papa meant every single word he said. The decor was oppressively white in here, with thousands of imported white lilies and orchids draped over the pews. This place smelt more like a funeral parlor than a wedding. Instead of a joyful choir, a small group of classical opera singers stood in the loft, singing with high sopranos. This was really boring… Squinting my eyes, I searched for my husband. Almost choked on my saliva when I finally found him—a man who looked like he was in his late sixties or early seventies, seated in a wheelchair. Oh hell no… I turned to Papa, opening my mouth to ask him a question but his gaze was straight ahead, and he totally ignored me. My fist clenched and unclenched. I needed a fix. This was all too much for a sober mind to take in. I could see the disappointment in the faces of our guests as I made my way down the aisle. They’d obviously expected Felicia to walk down the aisle with Papa. Tough luck, bitches. Igor, or whatever his name was, watched me keenly, like he was trying to figure something out. My heart hammered against my ribs, and the frantic rhythm didn’t quite match the funeral-march pace Papa was forcing on me. Every step forward felt like sinking into quicksand. I kept my eyes locked on the old man in the wheelchair, wondering why exactly he was here, getting married to me of all women. He looked like he was quite a sight in his youth, but he was old and worn out now—with gnarly hands, a wrinkled face and saliva hanging at the side of his mouth. He looked awfully familiar too. For some reason, it felt like I’d met him already somehow. The air seemed to thin, the closer we got to selling me off to him. We reached the altar, and Papa didn't as much as spare me another glance before he practically shoved me toward the old man. I stumbled, my oversized heels clicking loudly against the marble. The priest began to drone on in Latin seconds later, his voice a low hum that blurred with the thumping in my ears. I felt like a prize pony being traded for a debt I didn't even rack up. Pricked me the wrong way, but I’d followed them to this church instead of stabbing my fingers in Sandro’s eyes, right? "Igor," the priest said, gesturing toward the groom. The old man didn’t move, didn't even blink. He just stared at me with milky, clouded eyes. Shit, that was a whole lot of cataract. My skin crawled. I looked back at Mamma in the front row. She was smiling, but it was as fake as her entire personality. "The rings," the priest prompted. A man stepped forward with a box, opened it and my jaw dropped slightly. I could sell the diamonds in there for a fortune! “Take a ring and put it on.” The priest instructed. I did as he said, and then he motioned to Igor. “Put his on too.” My fingers trembled as I took the ring. I reached out, my hand hovering over Igor’s cold, papery skin. When I slipped the wedding band onto his finger, he didn't even flinch. It felt like putting jewelry on a corpse. "I now pronounce you man and wife," the priest declared, skipping the 'you may kiss the bride' part entirely. Probably because even he had some shred of dignity left. A flash went off from a photographer near the altar, sealing our fate. We were taken to a table seconds later, and we both signed the documents that legalized our marriage. Igor also had to answer some questions by a medical doctor for a cognitive test of something of the sorts. “Get him to the car,” Papa barked at two of Igor's ripped guards, as soon as we were done. They nodded, then one of them grabbed the handles of the wheelchair and spun him around, his head lolling slightly to the side. I stood there, clutching my bouquet of dying lilies, realizing the months Mamma promised might actually be days. Good for me, I guess.LOTTIE“What do you mean you shot Luca?”Viktor raised his hands. “Lottie, calm down.”“Calm down? You just told me you shot my father! Is he dead?”“No.”“Then what happened? Where is he? Did you leave him somewhere? Viktor, what have you done?”He reached for my hands, but I pulled away.“Answer me!”“He’s alive, Lottie. I told you he would be fine.”“You said you shot him!”“And I did.”I stared at him, my mouth falling open.“Why would you do that? What if you killed him? What if—”“He’s not dead. I had him taken to a hospital, and a doctor has seen him. He’s going to recover.”I pressed both hands against my chest.“Goodness, Viktor! You can’t just shoot someone and tell me about it as if you went out to buy groceries!”“He was lucky I didn’t do worse.”“Viktor!”“What? He took your daughter, Lottie. He had men keeping her away from you, and he thought he could keep doing whatever he wanted without facing the consequences.”I looked toward Nevaeh, who sat on the couch with the ha
LOTTIE“Please, Papa. Just give her back to me.”I clutched the pillow against my chest, my tears soaking the fabric as I stared at the empty space beside me.It had been weeks since Papa and Mamma were thrown out of the house, but I still had no idea where Nevaeh was. Viktor had men searching for her, and each time he came into the room, I asked if they had found her.Each time, his answer was the same.Not yet.I had barely left my bed since that day. I cried for my baby, for Nevaeh, and for the mother I thought I had. Some days, I could not eat, and on others, I only got out of bed to take a bath before returning to the same spot.A knock came at the door.“Lottie?”I wiped my face with the back of my hand.“Come in.”The door opened, and Viktor stepped inside.“Have you eaten anything?”I shook my head and pulled the blanket over my legs.“Lottie, you need to eat something. You can’t keep going like this.”“I don’t feel hungry.”He walked toward the bed, then stopped near the foot
VIKTOR“Lottie, open the door.”I knocked again, and this time the door opened. She rushed into my arms, bursting into tears as I caught her.“Viktor!”“I’m here.” I held her against my chest, rubbing her back. “What’s happened?”“They know, Viktor. Mamma knows where Nevaeh is. She has been lying to me all along.”I pulled back to look at her face. Her cheeks were wet, and she was struggling to speak.“Tell me what happened.”“Papa showed them a video of Nevaeh. Felicia was hitting her because she kept crying for her Mom and Dad. Mamma knew about it, Viktor. She knew where my daughter was, and she watched them hurt her.”“Where is Nevaeh now?”“I don’t know. Papa won’t tell me. He said I would only see her if I did what he wanted.”I cupped her face. “Did he touch you?”She shook her head, then covered her mouth as another sob escaped.“And my baby…” she whispered. “He asked me what I thought happened to my baby, and Mamma smiled. She was the one who did it, Viktor. She put something
LOTTIEIt was a small smile, but I saw it, and the tears that had been gathering in my eyes spilled down my cheeks.“No,” I whispered, shaking my head as I took a step away from her. “No, Mamma. Please tell me he is lying. Tell me you don’t know what happened to my baby.”She said nothing.“Mamma, look at me!” I cried, reaching for her as my knees began to weaken. “You were there when I started bleeding. You took care of me that morning. You made my breakfast, and you brought me my tea. You sat beside my bed and held my hand when I came back from the hospital, and you told me everything would be all right. Please tell me you didn’t do this to me!”Her smile faded, but she still refused to deny it.I covered my mouth as a sob escaped me, my whole body shaking as I looked at the woman I had trusted with my life, the woman I had defended when Viktor questioned whether she should stay in the Morozov mansion.“You killed my baby,” I cried. “My own mother killed my baby!”“Do not raise your
LOTTIEI stepped out of the corner, my heart beating fast as I barked, “What the hell is going on here?”The three of them turned toward me, and Mamma’s face changed the moment she saw me standing at the entrance. Papa, on the other hand, showed no sign of surprise as he slipped his phone into his pocket, while Felicia rose from the couch and folded her arms across her chest.“What are you doing here?” Mamma asked.I stared at her, unable to believe she was the same woman who had cried in my arms and claimed Papa had hurt her, the same woman I had welcomed into the Morozov mansion because I thought she needed my protection.“I should be asking you that question, Mamma. You told me Papa hurt you, and I believed you. You told me you had nowhere else to go, and I opened my doors to you. Meanwhile, you have been sitting here with him, planning God knows what behind my back. What is going on?”“Lower your voice,” Papa ordered.“No! You don’t get to tell me what to do after everything you h
LOTTIE“Darling, you should have told me you were coming today, because I would have prepared something special for you before your arrival.”I stopped outside the sitting room when I heard Mamma’s voice, my hand resting on the tray I had been carrying upstairs.A moment later, I heard her laugh, followed by the sound of a kiss, and when I glanced through the open doorway, I saw her holding Papa’s face between her hands before settling beside him on the sofa.“It’s good to see you too, sweetheart,” Papa replied, brushing his lips against her cheek before reaching into his jacket. “I brought something for you and Felicia to see, and I believe you’ll find it rather interesting.”Mamma leaned against his shoulder, watching him take out his phone, while Felicia put down her wineglass and moved closer.“Is that her?” Felicia asked.Papa nodded and opened a video.“MOM! DAD! Please come and get me! I want my Mom and Dad!”The tray slipped from my hands and crashed against the floor, but I b







