56

ROSE

“You can't just sit back and do nothing. “

Anna had been hammering on my need to fix all of the problems at the moment, in a way she felt disgusted after what I had shared to her.

Truth be told I hated the possibility of being wrong as well, it was a bit ridiculous all of this that was happening at the moment, at some point I felt that she was coming on a bit more stronger than she had intended.

“Are you even on the pill?"

The truth of what she just said to me and I wondered how right she was about all of this. I wondered if one of these days I was going into her pregnancy and in a disturbing way kind of hoped that I did.

Perhaps, a part of my soul wanted an irrevocable tie to all that was happening, or maybe I saw it as a way that would make him desire me again just like it should be …I wanted to carry his child and at the same time to do all kinds of fucked-up shit so he'd knew he was mine.

She looked straight at me and it felt like she could read my mind, she had just fini