Constantly on my mind

- Jason -

I’d been tossing and turning all night. I’d been dating Amy for almost three months and things weren’t bad between us. She was tall and slim with dark hair much like Joelle’s. The first time I saw her from behind I’d thought it was her in fact. That’s how we had met in the first place. I’d approached her thinking it was her in spite of knowing Joelle was some 3500KM away. Then I’d apologized when I realized it wasn’t her and moved on. I saw her again the following Saturday and we got talking again. Her friend started dating Matthew and I started seeing more and more of her until eventually we too started dating. We met mostly on Saturdays with the occasional meet up during the week. While I was attracted to her and enjoyed spending time with her, I didn’t see this relationship going anywhere, nor did I envision a future with her.

Then last night she mentioned something along the lines of thinking we should meet up more often and hinted commitment. She freaked me out. It was