The aftermath of the kiss was a silent, internal tsunami. They navigated the succeeding days like specters, going through their professional obligations with a mechanical competence that was a poor imitation of their former skill. The mood between them during meetings was thick with unspoken words, with furtive glances hastily shut down, with tension that was brand new and very real.The media storm, thankfully, had begun to die down for lack of new fuel. But the reprieve seemed precarious. Both of them knew that it would only take one slip, one caught instance of unguarded familiarity, and the entire dam would give way.It was Brian who ended the standoff. He stood in the doorway of Davidson's office on a Thursday evening late, his expression unreadable.Pack a bag, he told him, his voice gentle. "For a week. Casual. Warm stuff."Davidson looked at him, confused. "What? Where?""Maine," Brian answered flatly. "I have a cabin there. No one knows it. It's. off the grid."It wasn't aske
Morning after the kiss shattered with not the clarity, but with a hangover of monumental proportions. It was not the throbbing dullness of the booze; it was a whole body, soul-deep vibration, a psychic aftershock that left both men reeling in its wake.Davidson woke up in his own bed, in the loft, the first light of dawn slicing through the blinds like accusing fingers. The bed next to him was cold and empty. Melissa had started sleeping in Sarah's room, a silent rebuke stronger than any words. For a moment, he was just a man waking. Then the memory hit him. It had not been a soft memory. It had been a flashback of the gut that made all the air leave his body. The pressure of Brian's lips on his. The rasp of stubble. The taste of him. The encompassing, life-altering rightness of it, followed in the very next moment by the soul-killing wrongness. A wave of sickness, hot and sour, started to swell up in his throat. He'd kissed a man. He'd kissed Joe Brian. The truth of it, in the gray,
Their distance on the balcony was taken up with the naked, unvarnished truth. The city's noise was a distant hum, light years from the soundless, seismic realignment occurring over it. The appeal for honesty from Davidson hung in the air, and Brian's reply—a revelation of raw, unadulterated fear—had changed everything.The dynamic had collapsed. CEO and employee, mentor and protégé, no longer existed. It was just two men, stripped of their roles and their facade, standing at the precipice.Davidson could see the war being waged in Brian's eyes. Fear of exposure to waging a lifetime of control. Having to protect what they had waged fighting with the abhorrent need for something more. He had placed his cards on the table, gambled everything, and now he stood poised, his future, his heart, hanging in the balance.Brian looked at him, and for the first time, Davidson saw no scheme, no strategy. He saw merely a profound, weary surrender. The fences were down. The castle was open."You want
The tension had been building for weeks, a tectonic pressure barely below the surface of their well-constructed professional facade. The paparazzi photograph had been the earthquake, and the aftershocks—Melissa's chilly reserve, the anxious phone calls from acquaintances, the constant, embarrassing scrutiny—had left Davidson exposed and raw. He was living in a house of cards, and any one gust of wind would bring the whole thing crashing down.The wind came in the form of another late night. The Dubai deal was signed, sealed, and delivered, a huge victory that should have been a celebration. It was instead the penthouse, cutting up the next purchase, the next problem. Brian was on home ground, pacing, talking, his vitality cold and calculating, as if the inner angst raging around them was mere static on a radio.Davidson couldn't focus. The words on the screen blurred together. All he could see was the tired, hurt look in Melissa's face that morning. All he could hear was his friend Ma
The entry to his brother had opened a door that Joe Brian had closed up tight for forty years. Behind the door was not only the recollection of Daniel, but the ghost of the man he once was—the man who had been able to trust, to be open, to love without it being an act.And the ghost brought with it the shadows of regret.They descended upon him during the quiet hours. In his enormous, empty bed, the silence was no longer soothing; it was accusatory. The image of Davidson laughing with the analyst had stirred something primitive and repressed. It was not jealousy; it was a paralyzing reverberation.He saw Daniel in all places. In the faraway, reflective look Davidson occasionally wore before finally arriving at a hard-won solution. In his occasional, emotionally made moral positions that could not be distilled to pure reason. In the manner he had, against all probability, gained the trust of Joe that he felt had been lost with Daniel.The parallels were unmissable, and they stunned him
The weight of the jealousy, a strange and embarrassing emotion, grew within Joe Brian. It was a crack in his foundation, a sign of the weakness he thought he had overcome years ago. He could not confront Davidson; to do so would be an admission of the authority the younger man held over him, a crushing reversal of their positions. He couldn't fire the analyst; it would be a juvenile, petty act that would only go to fuel the same rumors that he wanted to kill.He needed an outlet. A pressure valve. And there was only one man on earth who had ever seen him be vulnerable and had not used it as ammunition.His brother, Michael.Michael Brian was the exact opposite of Joe. He had inherited a small, early windfall from a great-aunt and bought a Sonoma vineyard. He was sun-weathered, affable, and possessed a simple, rustic happiness that Joe found both mystifying and, in his darkest moments, wildly envious. They didn't communicate much, the distance between their worlds too great to bridge w