Liam-I almost felt bad for Damien when he lost his shit in a full blow emotional breakdown. But the key word is almost.He needs to see that he fucked up and I think as much as I hate to say this because D is my best friend and sister from another mamma and mister, she too needs to get away from them and think for herself.Ever since they walked into her life she has been under their control, like a little doll being molded to their liking. She has been groomed to be their obedient little plaything and has lost her own free will.I envy Indigo Santiago and the dynamic she has with her men. I don’t envy it for myself but for Durani.My relationship with Nathanial is similar to Indigo’s. it’s a we are all in it together and make our own minds up not follow orders type or thing.For example, is I want to be the one to take someone out or be the one to go into the cells and get information out of someone, Nate says be careful, have fun and hell see me later or hell tell me hell come with
Durani-Two weeks have passed by and I feel nothing but a small amount of sadness because I’m not with my guys.Should I feel guilty for leaving them like I did?Should I feel something other than relief?Indigo said I was doing the right thing by taking time to myself. I agree with her that this was one apart from Damien, Dante and Damitri, is what’s best for me right now but I don’t know how to feel about it.I miss them so much hurst but at the same time I feel as if my life has been calmer and less stressful since I’ve been here.Liam asked his mom for the keys to their summer home on some lake I can never remember the name of and I’ve loved every second I’ve been here.In the mornings I wake up make myself some tea and I go sit outside on the back porch and look out over the lake and the vast forest of tall trees that surrounded me. I’m not completely alone which according to Liam and indigo is for the best. In this new world I’ve been sucked into I will never truly be alone aga
Damitri-I’ll never admit this out loud and if someone did find out id deny it… but I’m glad my dad found someone he can be transparent with. I’ve seen a brighter side to him since he started dating Liam. Well, I guess by mafia law they are married but still I’m glad that he has someone by his side who keeps him grounded.Seeing Liam sitting on my dad’s lap like some sort of glittery glammed out and possible docile cat makes me miss the fuck out of my baby and want nothing more then to blow the fucking place down around me just to get to her.“She’s not here” Liam says, making me snap my head towards him.“What the hell do you mean she’s not here” Dante asks, beating me to the punch.Liam shrugs and wiggles himself further into my dad’s chest as if it was possible to climb into his actual skin.“It’s like I said, she’s not here. You can search the whole house if you want but you’re not going to find her here” Liam says on a yawn.“Call Roman” I tell Dante.“She’s not there either” Lia
Dante-A fucking week.Seven days.One-hundred and sixty-eight hours.Ten-thousand and eighty seconds.I’ve called her phone and get nothing but the voicemail, my dad won’t pass the phone to her when I call and the last time I showed up at his and Liams new place I was told to leave of Liam would shoot my dick off.All I know is that she’s safe, that should be enough for me but it’s not.Hence why I’m sneaking into my own dad’s house. Covered by the shadows of the night I creep along the bushes and walls like a fucking shadow. I use my learned skills to my advantage and find a way into the house.Now that I’m inside I have to try to figure out what room she’s in and if she’s even fucking here.“Miss Indigo is scary dude; I’m not going in there again” I hear one of the guards tell another and I have to not only stifle my laugh but control myself from rolling my eyes.If Indi’s here, then I’m completely fucked on getting to see my girl.Id chop off my left fucking nut and eat it for the
Damien-I watch as the cars pull away and disappear down the hill back to the city. I stay glued to my spot as I watch my girl drive away to only Liam and my dad know where.Will she talk to my brothers or have I fucked it up for all three of us. Will she be mad at them too for not coming with us as her buffers or will she curl up between them and seek them out for the comfort from the pain I’ve caused her.I’m a cowered a little bitch just as my dad said. What kind of fucking mafia boss acts like I’ve been acting, sulking over the fact that my girl trusted a friend with her problems when we refused to share shit that had to do with our world with our queen.The drive home feels like it takes hours. I know what’s waiting for me when I walk through the door, and I take it all.Both Dante and Damitri are standing at the front door, the first punch I take the second I try to shield myself from but stop myself from fighting back. I know that the beating I’m about to get will be one I dese
Damien-The pure aggression from her anger filled rant had me taken a back, she’s always been so mellow and submissive and if it weren’t for the situation I’m currently sitting in, phone in one hand with my brothers listening to our girl, our wife to be and our everything ripping me to shreds as she specks her peace id stuff my cock down her fucking throat to shut her the hell up then fuck her into a coma with how turned on I am at this moment.“Are you done” was the wrong thing to ask as she stops to take a few calming breaths because she turns on me so fast the sting of her slap was so unexpected I make the move to draw my gun but stop as it registers that she just slapped the fucking shit out of me.“You are a fucking asshole, I’m done fuck you” she yells and quickly gets out of the car slamming the door behind her causing the whole car to shake with the force her little body used to slam the fucking door.“What the fuck just happened” I say out loud to know one in particular.“Dud
Durani-The silence in the car is louder then the traffic of the freeway below. He huffs out another heavy sigh and turns to look at me. His eyes soften hen they had been the whole day and I feel a small relief.The little beans move around in my belly as if to soothe me from the inside and remind me that they are with me and love me. As a reminder of the men I love who are waiting for me at home and the man that’s been cold and distant but love know matter what, that’s sitting in the drivers seat beside me.“I’m fucking pissed” he finally says “I’m hurt, angry no I’m fucking livid to the point I see nothing but black at the way you ran to someone who could one day become our enemies. You ran off and trusted the wrong person with our personal shit” he says, his voice getting harsher and louder as he specks.“Indigo might be in the same fucked up situation as you or at least was but she is the soon to be wife of two of the strongest mafia leaders in our fucking area, those two have the
Durani It’s been a few days since we’ve been home and the air feels think with tension between Damien and myself, it’s kind of making me feel uncomfortable in a way I’d never thought possible with him.Damitri has starts to stick by my side more than he usually does. He’s never been the cuddly one out of the three of them and it makes me fear what Evers about to happen between Damien and me when the glass finally breaks and its contents spill out.“Are you hungry baby” Damitri asks as he enters Dante’s room, where I’ve been hiding all day. “A little” I says softly as I run the tips of my fingers over my swollen stomach and watch in awe as the little loves kick back as if remembering me that the proof of our commitment is still there and always will be.“Up” Damitri says as he holds his hand out for me to take “Go put on some shoes and we’ll go get something to eat while Dante finishes up a meeting.Dante was send out early this morning for a collection on a debt owed and hasn’t been
DamienI've got to say im actually fucking impressed with the way Dante handled the meeting wiht Romen and his right hand man Geo.The issue still remains if things betweent he two familiys are actually going to remain peacful. I mean I cant promise that I won't shoot Indigo in the fucking head if she pops of at the mouth again like she had when she was telling us off when we first arrived.im glad that Durani has found a friend that she can trust whos from our world but I dont like how Indigo seems to think that becouse shes the heir to the santiago empire she can go off on a man in a mans world. It's this exact reson that im glad Durani is as submissive as she is, shes easier to control and it makes it easier for us to to keep her in her place.its sovanistic of me to think and I know that but in a world run byt thugs who traffic women, kids and even the odd guy off the streets and place them into the hands of sick fucks, we need to keep our wives on a lesh and at out backs at all