~KivaBeing back home feels good.But my feelings of doubt about Caspian have chased me all the way back here.You’re a Princess. Don’t forget your duty.I grit my teeth as my fathers voice echo’s through my mind, collapsing onto my stomach, unable to hold my weight up any longer.Ark crouches down beside me, flicking my forehead. “You’re not focusing.”“It’s hard to with your grating voice in the background,” I snap, pressing my check against the floor as if I can feel the frozen ground beneath.“I hardly speak during training.” I can hear the frown in his voice.Heaving myself up into standing position, I collect my throwing knives, flipping one over in my hand.“I’m just feeling light headed, okay?” I mutter. And I’m tired, and not climaxing daily really is starting to bother me, although Ark doesn’t need to know that detail.“Drink water.”“I have been,” I grumble. I drink water, I eat food. It’s Caspian that has muddled my head, and most importantly, it’s the weight of my obliga
~KivaI stare at my bedroom door as I settle into bed, knowing who is behind it.How I’m still not used to Ark’s guard after all these weeks is beyond me. Only one wall between us isn’t enough.Rolling over, I switch my lamp off, bathing the room in darkness.I’m only blessed with a few moments of unbothered rest before the sound of my window scraping open has me sitting up in the darkness.Panic seizes me first. Is it my mate? Or worse…With shaking fingers I switch my lamp on, bathing a portion of my room with enough light to reveal the meek state of my only true friend."Louis, what are you doing?" I whisper frantically, glancing at the door Ark stands behind.Louis ruffles a hand through his hair, pointing at the window. "That is quite the climb.""Keep your voice down,” I whisper, pulling myself from the bed. "Everything okay?"He steps towards me, the weight of him causing the floorboards to creak. I wince, hoping Ark is excusing the sound as me getting up to use the bathroom.
~KivaI stare down at the folded piece of paper on my vanity, narrowing my eyes suspiciously.How exactly this got here, I don’t even want to know. I suspect I know who wrote it, as I carefully pick it up, laying it flat to examine the hurried print.I need to see you, Kiva.I’ve been a terrible disappointment to you. The last thing I desire is to kill you, or to hurt you.I need you to trust me.Meet me tonight, across the river.Your mate.My blood goes as cold as the snow falling outside.I’m going to see him again.I’m not sure if I should be excited or scared. Last time I met up with him, a terrible thing transpired between us and a tree he was pressing me against.That won’t be repeating itself. Not if I can help it.“Kiva.”I jump, turning to see my father standing in my doorway.I rest my palm over my chest. “Dad. You scared me.”He steps into the room, looking around it. If he’s good with anything, it’s privacy. He doesn’t often come in here, nor does he inquire too deeply ab
~KivaWell. I’m fucked.“Ark…what-““You’re sneaking out. Why?” He demands, his deadly calm tone and expression unsettling. There’s a wrath deep within him that I may just become well accustomed with tonight.I gesture stupidly at the door he now stands in front of. “I need some fresh air.”If anything, my stuttering is going to give me away.His gaze sweeps over me. “You’re all dressed up.”I look down at myself, at the nice coat and boots I’ve chosen to wear out into the snow. It’s a conscious choice, admittedly, to try look nice for my mate.I don’t know why I bother, considering he’s going to be wearing all black and a hood.“Please just let me go," I sigh, defeated.“You really think I’m going to allow you to go into the night, completely alone?” He folds his arms over his chest, tapping his fingers against his bicep impatiently.I reach out, playfully pushing his shoulder. “I know you don’t trust me, but I swear I’m not in too much danger.”He just stares at me, unimpressed.“Ki
~KivaI'm going to get in trouble for this in the morning, I already know it.Thankfully a maid owed me a favour, so I convinced her to slip what I insisted was just a crushed up vitamin into Ark's drink tonight.She wasn't convinced on the vitamin excuse, but she did it anyway.Nothing can come between me and meeting my mate tonight. And nothing does, as I step over Ark's unconscious form lying against the wall beside my door.I'm tempted to kick him in the ribs for all the brutal training sessions he's inflicted upon me, but him waking in the morning with a bruise won't bode well for me.It takes me minutes to get out of the house and into the dark, snowy labyrinth of the forest.Once I reach our previous meeting spot, I stand and wait, leaning against the frozen trunk of the tree.He doesn’t come.I’m not sure how long I wait, pacing incessantly until my boots have worn a perfect line in the snow.Eventually I tire, trekking back toward the manor, guided only by the silvery moonlig
~KivaIt’s a clear, beautiful night tonight.The moon is full, shining its milky light over the snow lying peacefully over the lawn. I could stare down at the sight of it for all eternity I’ve decided, leaning my cheek against the cold window sill.A figure shifts distantly, right at the edge of the forest.I straighten, squinting my eyes through the darkness.It’s impossible to decipher who it is, but deep down, I know I’m looking at my mate.Scrambling up, I throw a coat over my shoulders, shove some boots on my feet and lace them up as quickly as my numb fingers allow before I consider how I’m going to get down to him.Ark is outside my door…I could scale down the trellis below my window, but it’s high off the ground, caked with ice and laced with sharp brambles.But what choice do I have?Gritting my teeth, I flip the latch and slide the window up as silently as possible, wincing at the cool blast of icy winter air as it hits my face.Of all Territories my ancient relatives deci
~KivaI shift from foot to foot as I allow Ark and all his wrath to examine my weeping arm wound.“Don’t be mad.” I give him a weak smile, swinging my arm around as if to prove that it really isn’t as bad as it probably looks.“You’re injured,” he says slowly.His lack of explosive anger is unsettling. That quiet rage that echoes in his eyes will haunt me, and will be the subject of my attention when facing whatever punishment he subjects me too.“I tried to scale the wall back into my room and fell,” I admit meekly, motioning down to the sorry state of my wet clothing.My pride is wounded the most…and the breath that was knocked from my lungs will be missed, considering how painful it was trying to get some more back.Ark doesn’t say a word, winding his fingers tightly around my uninjured arm before yanking me to follow him.“Woah, where are we going?”“To the infirmary.”I practically dig the tips of my boots into the wooden floor. A hideous scraping sound followed by me nearly trip
(Previously His Desire)~KivaSomething feels different about tonight.I feel like causing trouble.As usual, Ark is on guard tonight outside my door. It’s as if I can feel his physical presence, and no matter how much I toss and turn I can’t get him out of my head.I shove a pillow over my face, groaning. This has to be because of Ark’s torturous rule that I can’t touch myself.It’s not like I think we will have sex…I just want to talk, to have him entertain me for an hour or so.Biting my lower lip, I look around my room for a way to innocently get his attention. It needs to be enough that he will come into my room without asking my permission.Gently, I press my bare feet to the floor and stand, making my way to my dresser.“You’re going to regret this, Kiva,” I murmur to myself as I sift through my drawer for my prettiest night dress.Quietly, I change into a blush pink one. I doubt the colour will impress him much, but it’s faintly sheer nature might.And then, after drawing in a