MY FIRST KISS

My mom needs an artificial leg, if I can have my high school certificate, work and study when I finally graduated I can get her an artificial leg rather than have her sit on a wheel all her entire life, o know how tiring that is.

Going back to Mexico is a total new life, how do I even know life will be better back in the village.

After all if I don’t tell anyone they won’t know, that was thought.

The following day, I went to school and when I met with Dean, we said “ I am sorry in chorused and laugh it off”.

After school hours I went home and when it was time for my tutorial I went to him.

DEAN

When I tried to apologize, I thought she was going to say so much words but she apologized instead.

Then at evening I though she would never show up in my house then she did, I was surprised she did then my sexual urge arouse again seeing her in her dress, it not like she dressed so different this time infact she dress less attractive but then I can get that fact out of my head that I still want her in my bed.

When she arrived , we began the tutorial but I couldn’t even concentrate then slowly, I look into her eyes and held her chin, I told her a kiss won’t hurt.

She didn’t argue with me and I was surprised she didn’t complain.

Slowly I place my lips on her lips, I was the was kissing her, she didn’t try at first and later when she tried to, she struggled with the kisses.

I pull away and look into her eyes.

“ Listen you need to calm yourself” I said to her and slowly I place my palm on her neck and captured her lower lips , then the upper and slowly I pulled away.

I tried to look into her eyes to see if she was enjoying what I was doing to her but I couldn’t read the emotions on her face.

I slowly did the same thing again and this time I dived deep into her mouth trying to make our tongue dance together but she is yet to know how to do it.

I stopped and told her we are done for today.

I was happy that at least she give in to what I wanted.

STEPHANIE.

When he turn me around to him and try to kiss me I didn’t protest, I just let him have his way with me.

I have never kissed a man all my life so I didn’t know how to do it but damn it he was such a good kisser even though I am doing this for my education and good life purpose, I admit he is a good kisser that wants me to ask for more.

He took me home and it was a kind of awkward moment between us because we didn’t talk , I had to look out of the window of the car till he took me back home.

I don’t know why I feel ashamed of myself, I couldn’t look to myself then when he pulled up at my house, I got out of the car and look at the house and I believed I have saved the house and everyone with whatever I had gotten myself into.

I walked into the house and I greeted my mom coldly, I feel quilts of myself like they knew I was letting Dean take advantage of our situation even those is more of a mutual thing between us now.

My mom who was seated with a tray on her laps trying to dive some carrots called me back from the kitchen, I walked to her, she looked me in the face and she could see I wasn’t happy then from the way she looked at me, I realized she noticed I wasn’t happy.

“Are you okay? She asked, i try to give a force smile.

“ Yes” I said giving her a faint smile.

“ You are not fine dear? Is something eating you up that you need to share with someone? She asked.

I kept quiet for a while and then I shake my head to say no.

“ I guess I am just exhausted from my final exam that is coming in few weeks” I lied.

My mom looked into my eyes not convinced.

“ Are you sure that is the problem? She asked.

“ Yes” I said and went to my room.

I shut the door and undress I walked into the shower then I began to imagine his kisses in my head and I was like if that was what kisses feels like?

After taking a shower, I joined my mom to cook in the kitchen.