She's gone

 She is gone, I could not believe it, it has been 8 months since she left

I wake up one morning searching for her in my bed and it only took one night for me to become addicted to her. One night of taking her innocence, of teaching her how to take me. 

The way she felt the first time I was inside her

I saw her crying hysterically that morning after saying all those harsh words to her again, she was gone the next day, After she left, did I realize how much I love her, I could not believe it, but the pain says otherwise, I didn't mean to say those words to her, I never meant that, I was just scared of loving her, scarred of letting her in into my heart, scared of having a weak spot or any soft spot for her, scared of been in a relationship, but she crushed my heart with no effort without her knowing

Making my way from my master bedroom to the kitchen, I look at the bed one last time, like I do every morning, my mi