Alone

Yet, even amidst the pain of rejection, I felt that there was something intimate between the two of us as we kissed. There was a wanting that was greater than just desire. There was a delicious energy when we touched that invaded me. I know it was like that for him too, but something was holding him back. There was a wall around him that was impassable. Someone put it there and he let it or he built it himself.... I needed to know the reason for the rejection, because he would also be happy and feel the same emotions as me when I found a way around his fears.

"Why?" I asked with bitterness in my voice. My grief was too great at that moment, but it was not like any grief I had ever been through. It was something much deeper.

"You didn't want to let me go. It was the only way I could find..." He answered after a while as if he hadn't understood the question.

"Wow, you are very persuasive. I'm impressed with your determination." I said wiping away tears. It was better to