SAFFA
The evening had settled in deeper, and it didn’t look like the party was slowing down anytime soon. But we thrived on late nights with family, friends, and good food and wine. The latter was definitely doing the conga through our bloodstream. But even though people were having a great time, and the noise was deafening, we all heard it when Aunt Rosa held up her fifth glass of wine and shouted, “Saúde!” Everyone cheered before touching their drinks together and saying in unison, “Tchim-tchim,” as their glasses clinked. But everything started fading into the background. Because all I could think about was what Frankie had said earlier. The air felt heavier, quieter around me, as I obsessed over the image of taking Frankie’s cock in my mouth and sucking him off. But he’d wandered off after leaving me standing there with my mouth gaping open in shock after he said the dirtiest things I'd ever heard. And I hadn’t seen him since. I left the great room and stepped into the hallway. The entryway had a warm, white glow from the lit fake Christmas tree my mother used as decoration. My heartbeat had yet to settle from earlier, the moment by the window playing on a loop in my mind. My brother’s Best friend. Frankie. His name was like a curse on my lips, a forbidden sin that would send me straight to hell. But thinking of him felt like an anchor I couldn’t break free from. I rounded the corner and headed toward the kitchen but detoured when I heard my cousins in there playing drinking games. Finally, I found myself in my father’s study, one that was thankfully empty and quiet. I snuck a glass of my dad’s expensive port wine he kept for special occasions, and I sat on his leather couch, staring out at the backyard and watching the snow fall. The time ticked by slowly as I sipped my port and settled deeper into the soft, aged leather. I didn’t know how long I sat there, but I felt the effects of the wine settle into me and grew sleepy. My mind finally clearing of anything but how cozy I was. But that all changed in an instant when Ifeltsomeone’s presence. I felt him. I didn’t see him at first, but I knew Frankie was there. The familiar weight of his closeness—of him watching me—slid over every inch of me. It wrapped around me like a comforting, cherished blanket that I’d never get tired of feeling. “Why are you in here all alone, Saffa?” His voice was so deep, so commanding. My breath hitched as I glanced toward the doorway and saw Frankie standing there, watching me. He was so big and muscular that he filled the entire entryway and made me acutely aware of how feminine I was in comparison. Although his eyes were bright and blue, his gaze was dark, and it was locked on mine. He was always so unwavering and unapologetic. “Frankie,” I whispered, the image of his cock being shoved in my mouth playing on repeat in my head once again. He pushed off of the doorframe and stepped inside, but with deliberate movements, he shut the door and slid the lock in place. My pulse quickened, and every nerve in my body came alive as he closed the distance between us. Each step he took held this undeniable dominance that made me want to drop to my knees and submit in whatever way he wanted me to. “What are you doing all alone in here?” he asked again, his voice low and smooth, like the rich flavor of the port on my tongue. “Why did you lock the door?” I countered, though my voice lacked any real inquisition. I should’ve demanded he open the study and leave. He was my brother, and thinking about having Frankie fuck me was so far on the side of wrong that I should have instantly been given a one-way ticket to the underworld. But I said nothing, just waited to see if he’d answer. And all I could do was look up at him like I was a moth and he was a flame, luring me in as if hypnotized. He stopped just inches from me, and the heat of his body radiated outward and past the small space that separated us. I took an involuntary breath in. It was sharp and crisp, and the scent of Frankie saturated everything. His aroma was rich and distinctlyhim. It made me feel drunker than I actually was. Before I knew what was happening, he reached out, his fingers brushing lightly against my cheek as he pushed a strand of hair away from my face. That light touch left a trail of fire in its wake. “What are we doing here, Saffa?” he asked in a voice that was softer but laced with something I had only ever fantasized about. Raw, forbidden need. My mouth opened, but then I shut it and pursed my lips, not sure how to even respond. Because admitting I wanted my older brother to fuck me was too taboo to speak out loud. “Answer me like a good girl, sweetheart,” he murmured, his tone carrying that hint of something deeper, darker than I’d ever heard before. I couldn't breathe. God, the air was being sucked from the room. “I’m just sitting here, minding my own business. I’m not doing anything,” I whispered. “Wearen’t doing anything.” If I were being truthful, denying all of these feelings and the tension turned me on, because the look in Frankie’s eyes told me he was fully aware I was lying through my teeth. My throat felt tight, my skin tingling under his touch. Frankie’s lips curved into a small, knowing smile, but there was no amusement in it. Only heat. And hunger. For his best friend’s sister.Chris cooked a fantastic meal. He made steaks with mashed potatoes and chopped broccoli. I tried to help by cleaning areas after he was done, but he insisted I sit at the island bar and relax. We sipped wine and talked about anything and everything that came to mind.I found myself enjoying simply staring at his back while he cooked and talked. I liked hearing the passion in his voice as he talked about White Oak Construction.He also mentioned that his sculptures sometimes get displayed in nearby galleries. I had no idea. I was even more impressed.We sat at the bar and ate. I couldn’t stop staring at him. I’d thought about the last time he’d touched me and how I was spending the night in his bed.I was nervous, but the anticipation was starting to wear at me.Forget the food and fuck me, please.Once we finished dinner, Chris put everything in the sink and rinsed the dishes. He stood on the other side of the bar and kept up the small talk for a while, and it seemed like he was tryin
SAVI was exhausted in a new way as we headed back to Carswell. Last night had been an emotional rollercoaster, and today filled me with excitement and wonderment over the idea of developing a new skill. Chris made me feel better about the disaster at the restaurant, and I felt understood in a way I hadn’t experienced before.The feeling inspired memories of the last time we were close. Chris used to pick me up from school and take me out for pizza and milkshakes before taking me home. In college, I called him at least a few times a week to hear his voice while lulling myself to sleep.All the memories inspired a sense of comfort I’d been missing since that stupid drunken night that had put distance between us, but I was also terrified about what it all meant. The distance over the years hadn’t lessened my true feelings for him. If anything, they’d grown stronger, and our new relationship was already beginning to feel . . . permanent.I only hoped I was right. I wasn’t sure I’d surviv
“Hey,” I said, reaching out and grabbing her hand. I squeezed it, and she squeezed back. “It was an unusual set of circumstances. I mean, there was no way to predict she would be there. Or that they’d have such clumsy waiters who couldn’t even hang on to a damn plate, right?” I teased.She snorted and shook her head.“We got out of there without setting the place ablaze or committing any other crimes. I’m counting it as a win. Maybe we should even celebrate it, you think?”Her grin slowly grew. “You’re amazing, you know that?”“You are too, baby,” I said, closing the distance to kiss her again.Her gaze was soft when I pulled away, looking at me with that adoration I’d always loved seeing in her expression. I hadn’t understood what it was when we were younger, but it was clear now. I wanted to soak myself in the feeling and never let go, but we needed to get going. She needed a good mental health day, a day of nothing but fun, and I was there to give it to her.“Come on. Let’s get up
CHRISMy first realdate with Sav had been a shitshow. I’d texted Sav after I dropped her off, promising that next time would be better, but she hadn’t replied.I still couldn’t believe that Katelyn happened to work at the new restaurant I took her to. Last I’d heard, she lived in Denver. Not a tiny town super close to Carswell.I hadn’t realized how shaken Sav was until she got up to leave. After the fiasco with the server and the spills, she hadn’t been hungry anymore and wanted to go home.I looked at her hands, worried she’d really burned herself, but she said it had been too fast to do any damage.I didn’t want the night to end that way.I didn’t want her to, I wanted to go somewhere else and start over, but she’d clearly been thrown by Katelyn and embarrassed by what happened after. There was no saving the date after that, and I didn’t want to make her feel worse by acting too disappointed.I’d dropped her at home. She hadn’t even kissed me goodnight.I needed to do something to
This time Chris laughed with me. We helped Penny collect her things, and then I locked up. I said goodbye to my best friend, and she waved before climbing into her car and driving away. Chris opened my door for me, and then we were off. He drove me out of town to a restaurant called Mario’s. It was new in a town where we didn’t venture too often, farther down the lake and closer to the city. Chris held my hand for most of the drive as we talked, catching up on what happened over the last week or so we hadn’t had a chance to discuss. Suddenly, I felt silly for putting distance between us after Grampa’s hospital visit. I’d been so afraid of a repeat from four years ago that I quickly shut everything down, blaming myself for messing things up again. I didn’t give him a chance to explain, and I thought it was impossible that he would ever feel even close to the same as I did. I’d been standing in my own way. He parked in the lot and opened my door again, holding his arm out for me
SAV“I’m soglad you texted me,” Penny said, placing her duffle bag on my loveseat and zipping it open. We were in my living room, and I was preparing for my date with Chris. She started digging around in the bag. “I haven’t been anywhere but work and home for a few weeks now.”After Chris officially asked me on a date, I texted her as soon as possible, asking for her help to get ready. I also filled her in on what happened between us the night before, including me admitting to being a virgin. We agreed that it was highly likely I was a few short hours away from sharing that special moment with the man I’d always fantasized about.She placed a curling iron on the table, a pair of sky-blue heels, and her makeup kit. Then she turned and sat on the edge of the couch, arranging the items and side-eying me. “I haven’t been getting any invites to come over for drinks. Seems like you’ve been too preoccupied dating multiple guys.”My cheeks heated as I looked away. “Oh, shut up. One dinner wit