Chapter 55

I take a deep breath then speak, scared about how these conversation might end, scared about what I’ll realize from this conversation, it would change everything. Gathering enough courage I speak out, “when you said you were going to give our marriage a chance did you mean it”, I heave a sigh of relief at getting it off my chest.

I wait for Nek to respond, but no response; feeling impatient, I turn to face him, he’s still awake. He looks lost in thought as he ponders on the question.

“Nek” I softly say, I’m growing restless as the second passes, he still hasn’t responded, and my heart feels like it’s about to jump out of my chest; it almost feels like I’m confessing my love to someone.

I wait a bit more for a response; but nothing, he hasn't said a word after my question.

Feeling extremely anxious, I decide to withdraw the question, “don’t bother…” I say. I turn to face my side of the bed, as I try to force myself to sleep, different thoughts come to mind but I try and keep them down