Chapter One Hundred Fifteen

Emily.

Sometimes you have everything in life and have nothing to worry about, but that’s bullshit. There’s always something deep down that always keeps you awake at night even when you try to act fine in front of other people.

That worry is your nightmare and that nightmare haunts you every single night of your fucking life.

Ian is my nightmare.

When I first saw him I thought he would be my savior, be the one to bring me out of my dark place. He did that for the first year we were together; he was sweet, kind, caring, and very passionate. And like I fool, I thought he was the one. I thought he would be my prince in shining armor but I was wrong. Ian started showing his bad side the second year of being together and his attitude did worry me but there was nothing I could do. But then he started pushing his behavior to Riley and that was something I could not handle anymore, so I knew I had to leave—we had to leave.

And though we left, he still wasn’t making it easy for me….for us.