登入Harper couldn't answer. The question just hung there while Noah stood with one hand still half raised from grabbing her, and Sasha's smug expression finally slipped off her face entirely.
A few minutes earlier, Harper would have begged everyone to just stop. Now she only felt empty.
Luca stepped further into the room. "Take your hand off her."
Noah scoffed. "Or what?"
"Or I stop asking."
"Seriously?" Sasha said, arms crossed. "You're picking a fight over her?"
He didn't even look at her. "Wasn't talking to you."
"You've got girls throwing themselves at you every day, Hayes," Noah said. "Why play Captain Save-the-Day now?"
"Because she's crying."
Harper wiped fast at her cheeks. "I'm not."
"You are." She hated that he'd noticed. He always noticed.
"You don't even know what happened," Noah said.
"I know enough. I saw enough." Luca's eyes moved to the crumpled letter on the floor, then to the tear marks on her face, then back to Noah. "You made her cry."
"Girls cry."
"Not because of me."
"Maybe they should."
Luca's jaw went tight, and Harper recognised the look from years back, from a hallway in middle school where an older kid had shoved a freshman down a flight of stairs. Luca had gotten detention that day. Not for starting it. For finishing it.
"What are you going to do?" Noah asked.
Luca glanced around the room, spotted a bucket of baseballs sitting beside the batting cage, and walked over without any hurry at all. He picked one up, tossed it once, and caught it again.
Harper's eyes went wide. "Luca."
He looked at her. "Close your eyes."
"What?"
"Trust me."
Before she could say anything else, he threw it.
The crack of it echoed through the whole room. Noah stumbled backward with both hands over his face, blood already running through his fingers.
"You psycho!"
The ball rolled off across the floor. Sasha screamed.
Luca looked completely unbothered. "I missed."
"...Missed?"
"I was aiming lower."
Noah cursed, blood dripping onto his collar. "You broke my nose!"
"You'll live."
"You animal!"
"You grabbed a girl after she told you to let go."
"You hit me over the arse, nerd?"
Luca took one slow step toward him. "I hit you because you hurt her."
Silence dropped over the room like a blanket. Harper stared at him. Nobody had ever done that for her before, not like this, not without first asking what she'd done to deserve it.
Noah pointed a shaking finger. "You've lost your mind."
"I've heard that before," Luca said, almost smiling.
Sasha grabbed his arm. "We're going to the nurse." She dragged him toward the door while he shouted something about regret, and he looked back at Harper one last time. "You'll come crawling back."
She laughed, bitter and short. "I'd rather date a cactus."
The door slammed shut behind them, and the room went quiet. Luca bent down and picked the baseball back up.
"Nice one," Harper said.
"You actually threw that at his face."
"He had it coming."
"You could get suspended."
"Worth it."
A small laugh got out of her before she could stop it, and he caught it instantly. "There she is."
"What?"
"You laugh weird. You snort a little."
"I absolutely don't."
"You did just now."
"I was choking."
"Sure."
The quiet came back, softer this time. She looked down at the floor. "I feel stupid. I ignored every warning there was. I actually thought he liked me."
"He liked what you did for him."
"I know." Her voice cracked on it. "I wrote him that stupid letter. I actually believed we'd." She couldn't get the rest of it out.
Luca leaned against the wall next to her. "When we were ten, remember when you cut my hair?"
Her eyes went wide despite everything. "You deserved that."
"You tied it into five tiny ponytails while I was asleep."
"You'd hidden my science project the week before."
"I was eight."
"You still deserved it," she said, and he laughed.
"You marched straight into my house afterward and told me real rivals never attack from behind. Made me promise we'd always fight face-to-face."
She smiled through what was left of the tears. "I remember."
"That's why this bothers me. He didn't fight fair."
Harper swallowed hard. "He made me doubt myself. Maybe he was right. Maybe I really am just ordinary."
Luca actually looked offended by that. "Who told you that?"
"Nobody. Everybody." She laughed without any humour behind it. "You heard what Sasha said."
"Forget Sasha. Look at me. No, I mean actually look."
He held her eyes for several long seconds, long enough that it made her uncomfortable in a way she couldn't name.
"You have no idea what people notice about you," he said. "You answer questions nobody else can. You remember every single birthday. You volunteer when nobody even asks you to. You make teachers laugh in the middle of class. You beat me on every chemistry exam we've ever taken."
"I hate losing," she said.
"I know you do. You never once pretend to be someone else." His voice dropped. "You've always been the bravest girl I know."
Harper just stared at him. Nobody had ever described her like that, not once in her life, and her throat tightened around the words she wanted to say back.
"No guy would actually choose me," she whispered.
Luca looked at her for a long moment, then reached out and took her hand. Not as a joke, not to tease her, just held it like it mattered.
"I've been choosing you for years."
Her breath caught somewhere in her chest. "What?"
Before he could say anything else, a voice cut through the hallway outside.
"Luca! I know you're in there!"
Fiona Reed.
He muttered something under his breath that sounded a lot like a curse.
By the end of my first university year, Luca had learned which station exit I would choose even when the signs suggested another one was more efficient. He waited beside the steps with two drinks, one of them still warm because he had finally learned to check the bus's arrival before buying it. I took mine and accused him of becoming suspiciously competent. He kissed me before answering, then took the heavier bag after asking whether it contained books again. It did. Some habits survived distance, better planning and repeated evidence that I owned more paper than any reasonable person needed.I had completed the fellowship year and met the progression requirements for my degree. The research placement had ended with a presentation I was proud of and several questions I still wanted to investigate. Support for the following year had been confirmed through an academic award and the funding arrangements I had applied for during the winter. I also had a small campus job lined up, with hou
Coming home for the winter break was stranger than arriving at university had been. I knew where the cups were, which stair creaked and how to make the front door latch without lifting it too sharply. I still opened the wrong drawer for a spoon because the residence kitchen had taught my hands another arrangement. My mother watched me hesitate and said she hadn't moved anything simply to test my loyalty. I laughed, then hugged her again because the first hug at the station hadn't seemed sufficient once we reached the house. My bag remained by the door while she put food on the table.Luca arrived after his shift, wearing the coat I had missed and carrying a bag of groceries his mother had asked him to deliver. Our parents continued exchanging food with an efficiency we had never achieved in our own travel arrangements. He set the bag down before kissing me, which my mother appreciated loudly. I told him he smelt faintly of the clinic's hand soap. He said romance had become very specif
Luca's bus was twenty minutes late, giving me enough time to inspect every arriving vehicle and become irritated with a timetable that had never promised to control traffic. I stood beneath the station sign with a coffee I had bought for him before remembering that late buses made early drinks a poor investment. When he finally stepped down, he looked around with his bag on one shoulder and found me before I waved. The smile on his face made the waiting disappear for approximately three seconds. Then he reached me, took the cold coffee and said I had clearly spared no expense on freshness.I hugged him before answering. He held me close enough that the strap of his bag pressed against my arm, then moved it aside without letting go completely. Seeing him on a screen hadn't prepared me for the ordinary physical fact of him being there: his coat beneath my hands, his laugh near my ear, the warmth of his cheek when he kissed me. I had imagined saying something memorable at the station. In
Three weeks into university, I missed Luca's call because I was in a room where phones had to remain in our bags and the session ran forty minutes late. That explanation was clear to me. It was less clear to him, waiting after a shift with a meal going cold because we had agreed to talk before he ate. By the time I checked the screen, he had sent a message saying he needed to go out and would speak later. I read the words while hurrying across campus and heard disappointment before I considered how much of it I was adding.I replied with an apology and the explanation, then asked whether he was annoyed. He didn't answer immediately. I knew he had said he was going out, yet I checked twice before reaching the residence. Nessa held the door while I struggled with my bag and asked whether I wanted to join a few people making dinner. I said maybe, which usually meant I wanted somebody to keep the invitation open while I decided whether I was allowed to have an evening. She told me they we
The suitcase closed only after I removed two books and admitted that paper was heavier than optimism. My mother sat on the edge to help while I pulled the zip, then warned me that opening it again before departure would be a personal insult. Luca stood in the doorway holding the books I had surrendered. He asked whether I expected the university to have a library. I told him the question was unhelpful and handed him the folder that absolutely had to remain in my smaller bag. He took it without argument, recognising the difference between packing excess and genuine panic.The last weeks had gone quickly once every afternoon acquired an ending. Priya's placement kept her busy, Luca's shifts settled into a routine, and I spent more time filling forms than imagining a dramatic departure. Now the bus was booked, the room allocated and my mother is coming with me for the journey and the first night nearby. Luca had work and an induction session of his own. We had agreed he would come to the
My mother pinned the loose edge of my gown while telling me to stand still, a request that had been part of every important morning since childhood. The fabric refused to sit properly over my shoulders. I said nobody would notice, and she gave me the look reserved for claims made by people who weren't holding the pin. On the table behind us, the confirmation of my final results lay beside the fellowship letter. I had met the conditions. After weeks of exams, checking dates and waiting for the last administrative message, the place was confirmed rather than something I could still lose by misreading a question.Luca had met his entry conditions too. He told me the day before, first through a message and then in person because he wanted to celebrate somewhere other than a screen. His academic place and bursary were now proceeding on the confirmed basis set out in the letters. The clinic shifts had started, and he already had opinions about people who arrived late and insisted the appoin







