Chapter 5

I can't imagine my life without my parents. But what I can't imagine the most is that I'll be the one to abandon them first. When my doctor said to me that there was very little chance or worst impossible to conduct a heart transplant. Too risky because of my other infection. It was as if heaven and earth had fallen on me then. I lost hope in my life that I would be okay too. Just a few years later, we were told that l...

My days are numbered.

Never in my life I felt miserable ... But that time, I did. I am not afraid for what will happen to me. I was afraid to leave my family. I don't want to know and see that they are hurting because of me. I do not want. The only way I can think of to reassure them is to show them I'm okay. I do everything to make the most of every day left in my life with the ones I love. I don't want them to feel miserable as I do.

I wiped away my tears and adjusted the wearing of the robe on my body. I squeezed it tighter and then hugged myself. I could only hear the sound of the wind blowing from here on the balcony of our hotel room. At four o'clock I woke up because of a bad dream. I couldn't sleep again so I hung out here while waiting for the sun to shine.

I think I've had a few sighs since before. I just remained standing and stunned at the absence from the balcony. This feeling is unusual and I hate it.

"Hey... I'm telling you to-" I turned to the speaker. He stopped talking when he saw me. He was already close to me. His hair was messy and then he hugged hisself too when the wind blew. Obviously just woke up because of his sleepy eyes are.

"Did I wake you up?" I said, doubting if if I did. I couldn’t hide the sadness in my voice.

He then turned to me. "I've been telling you to close the door," Auden said. I turned to the balcony door. I forgot to close it.

"But too late, I've lost sleep," he continued, disappointed.

"I'm sorry... I didn't hear you," I replied. He didn't answer. The silence that intervenes us can't even shatter dishes. I didn’t feel like talking so I turned my gaze away. It was pretty bright anyway and I knew any time the sun would appear. It's sad to think that I don't know how long I'll be able to watch it.

I thought Auden had left my side and was back in bed. But when I turned around he was staring at me. I was stunned by him and we stared at each other for a few seconds.

He averted his eyes first. He took a deep breath and seemed hesitant to speak.

"C'mon, let's have our breakfast." He turned around and went inside. I was stunned for a moment. I just followed because I was a little hungry too. I changed into my clothes to a white dress that reached up to my heels and the fabric was quite thin.

He was talking on the phone but I didn't ask why and who it was. He seems to be sane now. Not like he usually treats me. I just hope what he shows is true. He even thought of inviting me to breakfast. Arriving at the seashore, we headed to the bridge-like part of the beach. I was amazed at what I saw. It's like a hut floating over the sea. It wasn't very pompous but the view was beautiful so it was definitely nice to hang out there.

"Do you mean, we will have our breakfast here?" I asked him while still looking at the floating hut or whatever you call it. I looked around, the other huts lined up as well. The receptionist told us, it's only exclusive for VIPs. So that's why there are only a few people is here.

"Woah! It's so nice here!" I said and couldn't help but cover my mouth. When we arrived at the hut there was a table and two chairs in the middle. There is also a waiter standing on the side. There are variety of mouth watering food ready on the table.

"If you need something sir, just ring this bell," the receptionist said while pointing her hand to the bell on the table. We thanked and they left. I bit my lip and held back a smile. This is so romantic!

"Did you plan this?" I asked Auden, still can't believe to what's happening. We sat down and started eating. The sun is completely rose which has added more romanticism.

"Tsk. I'm just hungry," he answered. I just nodded and blew up. He averted his gaze.

"Fine ... You look bothered and sad earlier. So I thought I'd invite you to eat here. It's included in the resort's deals for VIP's. Don't be assuming." I blinked a few times when what he said sinks into me. I couldn’t help but smile on my lips. So I just sniffed to hide the thrill I was feeling. Is this true or am I just dreaming? Auden? He's worried about me?

He still remembers to really lighten my spirits. It was as if I forgot to act elegant because of the thrill. I took a big bite of the bread. I almost choked. I don't know what kind of air Auden inhaled and suddenly became kind to me. Even if he denies more, he is still worried!

After finishing our breakfast, I said goodbye to go for a restroom. I felt a bit sore in my stomach so it took a while because nature called me. I hurried out and looked for Auden. I looked around and hoped to see him. I've come quite a long way. I can go back but my feet brought me here. There were large chunks of rock and there was a really huge cliff. It's like you can go inside it because there's like a cave under it. I smiled when I saw what I was looking for. I ran closer to Auden.

The white beach dress I was wearing was long so air can easily blew it up. Even my natural wavy hair that I try to pull out is blocking my face due to the force of the wind. He slowly faced me. He was holding a camera and kept taking pictures. Maybe he went back to our hotel room to get the camera because he hadn't brought a camera before.

"You also love photography, I thought reading book is the only thing you like," I said when I approached him. He didn't answer so I was surprised. He was just looking at the camera probably looking at his shots.

I tried to reach him and peeked in as well. I was surprised when he took it away from me.

"Just look," I said and then snorted.

"No," he replied sparingly.

"Why didn't you bring your own camera?" he added. He turned around and took another picture.

"I have my phone anyway..." I answered. "But... I left in our room." He just smirked and ignored me. He's such an ill-tempered!

I just sat on the rock and watched the blue oceans. I closed my eyes as I felt the touch of the wind on my skin. I just waited for Auden to finish taking the photos. Auden doesn't want to lend me his camera. We don't have a picture of the two of us.

And as if he would allow the two of us to take a picture. Haha!

I looked up and looked back. I saw a woman standing while holding a camera. She is beautiful and I easily noticed her nice beach body because she is wearing a one-piece bikini. He smiled as he approached us.

She turned her camera to us. And because Auden was a little bit closer to her than I do, he could see what the woman wanted to show first.

"I can't stop myself from taking a picture earlier. You're so cute!" the woman said vigorously. There was also a thrill in her speech. Auden nodded and returned the camera to the woman.

When I looked at it I was amazed. I can't believe what I see. I glanced at Auden but he avoided my gaze. I was sitting on the rock while Auden stood nearby. But what held my breath was that his camera was focused on me. It's like he's taking a picture of me. I turned to the woman and smiled.

"Can you email me this?" I asked her.

"Of course! Sure! Sure!" she replied while nodding. She pulled out his phone from her sling bag. I gave her my email address where she would send the picture.

"Thank you!"

I wasn't even given a chance to take a picture with him, but someone else did it for us. I'll actually frame it and then put it in the living area.

How about in the bedroom?

"Babe! You're just here! I've been looking for you for a while," said the man on his way to where we were. He walked over to the woman.

"Auden? Bro! It's you!" The man approached Auden. Auden greeted and they fist bumped. I found out that Luis was Auden's colleague and Claire was his girlfriend. They were a bit surprised to learn that Auden was here for our honeymoon.

It was just family and some friends were invited to our wedding. And they weren’t included there so they didn’t know. They just got along and invited us to meet at a bar here at the resort tonight at seven in the evening before they said goodbye.

In the evening, after we had dinner we got ready. I wore an off-shoulder for my top and I partnered it with a floral slit skirt. I have no intention of drinking because it is forbidden. I glanced at Auden, he's wearing a white plain polo and a nude trouser pants. We only wore sandals because it was awkward to wear heels.

Entering the bar, the smell of alcohol immediately entered my nose. Nobody smokes too much. Obviously the people here are rich. You can see it immediately because of their attitude and how they talk.

"Here, Bro!" We both turned to the source of the voice. Luis's hand was raised. We approached them and they had another woman with them.

Claire and Luis kissed me on the cheeks, greeting me. But not the woman with them. My forehead furrowed when he just scolded Auden.

"Shaina, this is Auden and... His wife," Luis said to the woman. She raised an eyebrow at me and looked from head to toe. She smiled hard at me as Auden looked up.

"And this is Shaina, Claire's friend." I was uncomfortable, so I just watched Shaina how she looked at Auden stickily. It was as if at any moment he would grab him and swallow him whole.

She try hard to be cute. She was wearing a revealing clothes that shows her cleavage and she stooping down. Obviously she meant it!

Claire and Luis don't seem to notice Shaina's actions.

"Excuse me? Hello? I'm here. His wife!" I would like to say but only up to imagination. I'm not used to fighting. Psh.

If the lemonade was just intoxicating and I got drunk... I might have the courage to scold that Shaina.

"Congratulations!" Luis and Claire said in unison. We all cheered. They congratulate us on our marriage. I can't read if Auden is really enjoying it or just being forced. His smiles are just frugal.

I smiled broadly to make Shaina jealous. I want her to know that Auden is my husband. She just raised an eyebrow at me once.

Auden's face is turning red, they were already drinking quite a lot. Claire was already bent over. Luis, on the other hand, is very talkative. He was sharing his memories with Auden because I also found out that they're blockmates since his first year of college.

"And... B-bro, do you also remember that I were always on your third wheel of Adeena... I missed being treated!" said Luis then giggled. He drank his wine again.

I glanced at Auden. He was stunned as he held the glass of wine. He seemed in deep thinking.

Adeena ...

"So, Bro... I'm really surprised that you're married to her..." Luis continued, glancing at me at the same time as if I didn't understand what they were talking about.

He didn't seem to think about what came out of his mouth. He doesn’t care if I feel offended or not. I understand because he's drunk but... I can't help but be hurt by he's words.

"Excuse me. I just need to use the restroom." I got up and went to the restroom. I don't want to hear what Luis has to say next. I just stood in front of the mirror. This is the second time I heard that name.

Third wheel? So does that just mean she's Auden's past girlfriend?

I also noticed that every time he heard that name... He was always affected. I just washed my hands and went out to go back to our table. Not far away I seemed to be stuck where I was. My whole body felt cold. Tears streamed from my eyes one after another. Luis and Claire are already bent over on the table while Shaina...

"Auden ..." It was as if my chest was twisting and I couldn't breathe.

He turned to me and stood up. Shaina broke up their kisses. I just stared at them both.

I cried even harder when no words came out of his mouth. He just smirked and stared outside.

"I don't know what I did to make you do this to me. I thought we were okay..." I wiped the tears from my eyes.

"You're wicked!" I turned and left. I ran even though I didn’t know where I was going. It’s my fault maybe because I assumed. Gradually I slowed down because of chest tightness. I couldn't breathe until I just felt my body give up and fall on the sand. I held onto my chest as I caught my breath. Then...

Everything went black.