- KILLIAN -My class ended. Students are walking out of the class. I scanned the crowd for a second looking for someone. She's not here. This is the third class this week she hasn't attended. Why do I have the feeling that she's avoiding my class? And on purpose. I raised a brow as I glanced at Kate. She's sat in her usual spot but there's no Hazel. Why do I care? Kate winked at me. She's trying so hard not to be so obvious. I grinned back at her and watched her leave. I don't, I replied my thoughts. Hazel is just a student that I'm aware of. Of course her absence will bug me. I sighed and picked up my tablet from the desk. If anything, this is interesting. I'll be sure not to do any make up tests or activities for a student to catch up. I walked out of the classroom while checking my schedule on my tablet. A smile formed on my face when I saw my schedule. I have none. Never in my life did I think I would be glad not to do something. I hate teaching and it is surprising because
- HAZEL -I shut my eyes closed and stretched my arms. My shoulders are killing me and I'm not even done writing down this journal.What kind of people are these lecturers? Do they think we are fucking robots? What happened to just printing out pages from certain sources? I groaned and rolled my eyes in exhaustion. One major problem I've had with skipping certain classes is I've arrived late to two other classes twice. Now I'm suffering from it. I dipped a salmon bagel in my mouth and took a bite. This is the third snack I've had from this cafe. I'm not hungry, but something about having to sit outside and study in a café raises the food cravings. I sipped out my glass, half filled with diet coke. My eyes are still glued to this page. I've read and reread it countless times and there are so many things that need to be corrected and rewritten but I'm highlighting every line that I think needs to be rephrased. Once I'm done with this written project, I'll type it out on my laptop with
- HAZEL -Do I open it or do I not? I thought, staring at the letter Killian left for me at the café. I don't even know if he left it on purpose or it slipped out of his pocket accidentally and just happened to fall on the table I sat in in the café. I want to believe the latter happened and ignore this. Why would he write to me anyway? Not like he knew I was going to be there. I cleared my throat. I'm done with my assignments. At least, I've written them all down, all that's left is to type them in my laptop and print them for the lecturers tomorrow and I need to do that early in the morning. I need to prove that I'm a student worthy enough for a second chance to take their courses seriously. Or my parents will kill me. They will literally kill me. I stared at the letter. That's more reason why I shouldn't open it and hand it over to him tomorrow after I've completed everything I need to do. Killian is a distraction. One I can't afford and one I should not even try to afford. I
- HAZEL - I drew the sleeve of my sweater forward to cover my fingers. I had no idea how short what I'm wearing is till I walked out of my dorm and let the breeze rest on my skin for a while. It's cold and my legs are tingling. Why did I even come out in the first place? What sort of curiosity made me not put on a pair of jeans or something long enough to cover my legs? My lips shivered. Well, I can't back out now, I need to find him. That is if he's even here. I stopped in front of the library and looked around. It's so dark and difficult to see even with the faint light at a far corner in between the library's sub-division illuminating the environment a bit. The library is meant to be open twentyfour - seven so it's quite a shocker that the power supply is out. That never happens. "Are you here?" I whisper yelled, examining the environment. "K.." I don't even know if I have the right to call him by his name. "Killian?"I stared at the messy envelope and card in my hand when I go
- KILLIAN -How could she meet me while dressed that way? I let my mind wander back to when I saw her. In her cute sweater and baggy pink shorts which stopped just a bit below her ass. She wasn't provocatively dressed, but just seeing her thighs made me crave things I shouldn't. It made me want to have her. Worship her feet and that body. Like I did once. I took a sip from my tumbler. It's half filled with whiskey. A smile formed on my face as I scoffed, still holding my tumbler in the air. It'll take more than one sip to get her out of my mind. My eyelids came clashing down and I exhaled. Even with my eyes closed, she's all I see in my head. All I can think about. It's crazy how I've fucked a lot of women but never felt this way before. It would be bullshit to say 'because they're not her' because I've had a lot of good sex, but with her, it was different. I found myself questioning a lot of things, my morality included. I found myself wanting to be gentle. I've never done it t
- HAZEL - A sad smile formed on my lips as I stared at the door knob leading to my room. I want to go in but at the same time, I don't want to. I just want to sit outside for as long as I can and relax while enjoying the midnight breeze. While trying to get my mind off everything and anything. Probably listening to music as well. A sigh escaped my lips. I really just want to be alone with my thoughts. My fingers wrapped the door knob, well, here's to hoping they're all asleep. I bent the knob but nothing happened. The door is locked. Shit. I forgot that I didn't take my key along with me. Ugh! Now I have to wake someone up. I knocked on the door gently so as not to disturb other people in other rooms, mainly those who are asleep. No one answered the door. Are they asleep or not in the room? I don't know why the thought made me feel weird and think about something else. I've met a lot of people and gotten over them, some quicker than others but why then can't I Get over Killian?
- HAZEL - I went to his class alright and submitted all my assignments to my lecturers after his period. My lecturers seemed rather pleased to see me with the complete assignments but told me to wait for a week for feedback. That kept me on my toes but it's only natural to follow protocol after skipping lectures. I would hate it if this reflects badly on my grade so for the meantime, patience is my middle name!I sighed and stared ahead at the lady teaching. My mind has been everywhere else but on her and whatever she's doing and that is seriously worrying but I think my mind is too stressed to pay attention to anything. Thankfully, this is the last period for the day and I'll have two days of rest. For now, I just have to try not to doze off and pretend to be following the things she says. It's annoying but I don't have a choice. My arm is resting on the edge of my seat and two fingers are supporting my head to stay straight. I checked the time on my phone and raised a brow, tired
- KILLIAN - It's getting late. All the work I have to do later tonight will be a pain in the ass once I finish up here, drop Kate off and get back home but I can't complain. It's part of the duties of a loyal fiancé. I took a bite from the steak on our table. Right now, we're in a grill house. I still find it odd that she drinks but I can't possibly stop her since she's past the age for drinking. Unless it gets unbearable. I almost puked when the taste sunk in my teeth. It's raw. I leaned over to grap some serviettes and spat the piece of meat in there and folded the serviette. Kate can't cook. She didn't even grill this properly. This will definitely be a reminder never to let her in my kitchen once we start living together. I made a face. I can still taste the raw spices and steak in my mouth. I glanced at the table. It's a good thing there's beer. Putting all the pieces of steak back on the grill, I fed myself a lot of beer just to get the taste out of my mouth. I hate beer