FAZER LOGINThree months passed.
Seraphina flew back and forth between London and New York every two weeks. Luna started asking for her mummy the second the plane landed at Heathrow and crying every time Seraphina left. Seraphina held her tight each time and promised the same thing, over and over.
"Mummy is going to be home soon for good. I promise."
She did not know if it was true.
In New York, the Thursday dinners became a rhythm. Then twice a week. Then three times. Damien never asked for more than she offered. He asked for her opinion on a new building he was renovating. He asked about her collection. He told her about his week. He showed her photos of a painting he had bought at auction. He did not mention Luna. He did not mention the past. He did not ask when she was going to let him meet his daughter.
He waited.
His patience was starting to unmake her.
On a Tuesday in May, Elena called.
"The annual Cross Corporation gala is in three weeks. Same venue. The Met."
"Elena."
"I am not telling you to come. I am telling you it is happening."
"Why are you telling me."
"Because last year, a woman in a red dress walked into that gala and ended everything. I thought you might want to walk into this year's wearing whatever you want to wear."
"I do not know if I am ready."
"Aria."
"Elena."
"You are ready. You have been ready for six months. You are just waiting for permission."
Seraphina did not answer.
"Wear white," Elena said. "If you come."
She hung up.
Seraphina sat at her desk at The Plaza and stared at the wall for a very long time.
She did not tell Damien she was coming.
She did not tell anyone.
On the night of the gala, she dressed in her suite alone. Not white. White had been for the luncheon. For the vanishing of Vanessa. White had been the funeral of the woman Aria used to be.
Tonight, she wore gold.
Soft gold. Like champagne. A silk dress with a thin gold chain at the waist. Low neckline. Open back. Her hair loose. No jewelry at all except a small gold ring on her right hand that she had been wearing since she was twenty one. The ring her mother had given her. The only thing she had saved from the old apartment before Damien had locked her out.
She looked at herself in the mirror.
For the first time in three years, she did not look like a weapon.
She looked like Aria.
She sat down at the vanity and took a long breath. Thought about her mother. Thought about what her mother would have said, if her mother had still been alive, about a daughter walking back into a ballroom to face the man who had destroyed her.
Her mother would have said, go. Go and hold your head up. Go and let him see what he threw away.
Seraphina closed her eyes and listened, for one second, to the voice she had not heard in fifteen years.
Then she picked up her clutch and left.
She arrived at the Met at 9:47 p.m. Fashionably late. The room was already crowded. The orchestra was already playing. Seven hundred guests were already moving in their practiced waltz of air kisses and champagne.
She climbed the staircase slowly.
At the top, she paused.
The room noticed her, one table at a time. Heads turned. Conversations died.
She descended.
Across the room, by the north wall, a man in a black tuxedo turned his head.
Damien.
He saw her.
He dropped his glass.
It shattered on the marble. A thousand small shards scattered across the floor around his feet and he did not move. He did not even look down. He just stared at her as if he had forgotten how to do anything else.
She crossed the room.
People parted for her. Not because she was famous tonight. Because something was happening, and everyone in the room could feel it.
She stopped two feet from him.
"Damien."
"Aria."
"I am here as myself."
His eyes filled.
"I know."
"Dance with me."
He held out his hand.
She took it.
And for the first time in three years, Aria Sinclair and Damien Cross stood in the middle of a ballroom in New York with their hands clasped and looked at each other like people who had finally stopped running.
The orchestra played.
They moved.
Slowly. Carefully. Both of them like they were learning something for the first time.
His hand was on the small of her back.
Her hand was on his shoulder.
Neither of them spoke.
Seven hundred people were watching. Cameras were flashing. Somewhere in the crowd, Elena was sitting at a table pretending to talk to a senator while watching her son dance with his wife for the first time in three years. Somewhere else, three different journalists were typing into their phones. Tomorrow morning, every newspaper in New York would have a photograph of this moment on the front page.
Seraphina did not care.
For thirty seconds, she did not care about anything but the sound of the music and the pressure of his hand and the warmth of his shoulder under her palm.
There was nothing to say yet.
That night, after Luna was asleep, Lucas came to Seraphina's sitting room with a bottle of wine and two glasses."We need to talk.""I was afraid you were going to say that."He sat across from her. Poured. Handed her a glass. She took it."Sera.""Lucas.""Are you going to go back to him?"She did not answer right away.She sipped the wine. She looked at the window. She thought about how to say it."I do not know.""That is not a no.""I know.""A month ago, it would have been a no.""I know."He set his glass down. He leaned forward, forearms on his knees, and looked at the carpet for a long time."Can I say something?""Yes.""I am not going to try to talk you out of it."She looked at him."What?""I have thought about it. For three years. I have thought about what I would say to you if this moment ever came. And the answer I keep arriving at is that I am not going to try to talk you out of it. Because that would be for me, not for you. And I have not loved you well for three year
Sunday afternoon came cold and bright.Seraphina pushed Luna on the swing at the playground near the house in Notting Hill. Luna wore a red coat and a matching beanie. She laughed every time the swing came up. She was missing her front tooth, and the gap made her smile look like a jack-o'-lantern.Lucas sat on a bench nearby, reading a book he was not actually reading. He had asked to come. Seraphina had said yes because she needed him there. She did not know if she needed him as a friend or a bodyguard or a witness, but she needed him."Mummy. Higher.""Hold on tight.""I am tight."She pushed.Luna squealed.At the far gate, a figure appeared.Damien. In jeans and a charcoal coat. His hands in his pockets. He had not shaved. His hair was a little wind-blown. He looked, she realized, exactly like a father at a playground. Not a billionaire. Not a CEO. Just a man.He saw her. He did not wave. He did not smile. He just stood there, waiting for permission to come closer.She nodded once
She woke at 6 a.m.He was still there.She had not believed he would still be there. Some part of her had expected to open her eyes and find the bed cold, find a note, find herself alone again, the way she had been alone for three years. That was the story she knew how to live inside.Instead, he was asleep next to her. On his back. One arm flung above his head. His breathing slow. His face was softer than she had seen it in a very long time.She looked at him for a while.Then she got out of bed, wrapped herself in the hotel robe, and walked to the window.The sun was coming up over the park. The city was still quiet. Below her, a few runners moved along the paths. A garbage truck worked its way up Fifth Avenue. New York, waking up.She thought about Luna.Luna would be getting up soon in London. Breakfast time there. The nanny would be making her toast with jam. Luna would ask for her mother, because she always asked for her mother in the mornings, and the nanny would say Mummy is w
The song ended.Neither of them let go.The orchestra started another song. Slower. A ballad she did not recognize. Damien's hand on her back felt like a thing she had been missing for so long she had forgotten it was missing."Aria.""Yes.""I want to take you home."She closed her eyes.She had been waiting for this sentence for three months. She had rehearsed her answer a hundred times. I am not ready. We said no. Rules. Boundaries. Self respect.What came out of her mouth was none of those things."Not your home," she said."Not mine.""My hotel.""Yes.""Damien.""Yes.""If we do this, I need you to understand something. This is not forgiveness. This is not a reunion. This is one night. And tomorrow I am going to have to look at you across a table and figure out whether I still respect myself. Do you understand?""I understand.""Do you really.""I understand that you are going to use me tonight to punish me for something I deserve to be punished for, and that I am going to let y
Three months passed.Seraphina flew back and forth between London and New York every two weeks. Luna started asking for her mummy the second the plane landed at Heathrow and crying every time Seraphina left. Seraphina held her tight each time and promised the same thing, over and over."Mummy is going to be home soon for good. I promise."She did not know if it was true.In New York, the Thursday dinners became a rhythm. Then twice a week. Then three times. Damien never asked for more than she offered. He asked for her opinion on a new building he was renovating. He asked about her collection. He told her about his week. He showed her photos of a painting he had bought at auction. He did not mention Luna. He did not mention the past. He did not ask when she was going to let him meet his daughter.He waited.His patience was starting to unmake her.On a Tuesday in May, Elena called."The annual Cross Corporation gala is in three weeks. Same venue. The Met.""Elena.""I am not telling y
The first Thursday dinner lasted fourteen minutes.She arrived at La Rouge. She sat down. She looked at the menu. Damien ordered a bottle of wine. She ordered nothing. She asked him one question, which was how his week had been. He started to answer. He said the word "Vanessa" in his second sentence. She stood up, put her napkin on the table, and walked out.He did not chase her.She liked that he did not chase her.The second Thursday, she stayed for forty-seven minutes.They did not talk about Vanessa. They did not talk about the past. They talked about a book. The Remains of the Day, which she had been rereading because it was the only novel she had brought with her from London. He had read it. He had hated the ending. She had loved the ending. They argued about it for forty minutes, and by the time dessert came, she was laughing once. Not a real laugh. A half one. But it escaped her mouth before she could stop it, and Damien looked at her like a man watching the sunrise after a lo







