"Hmm... how many children do you want?" he suddenly asked.I don't know if it's still early for planning or talking about this kind of thing. I shifted on my seat to face him. Okay. He was serious. I sighed and shrugged."Since I was an only child, wanted to have a big family. I like to have a big and happy family."I grew up lonely. I wasn't like the other kids who stay most often outside their house. Playing with other kids. I stayed mostly at our house. Playing alone. I don't have someone to tell my secrets to. Don't have someone to share my toys with.Kian was also an only child, but we are totally different. He's friendly.People like to be friends with him. He gets along well with others. While I prefer to be alone. I just don't want to be judged.Childhood memories and trauma made me this way. I fear socializing. I don't want people to be nice to me while I'm in front of them, then, later on, will say ill things behind my back. So, why bother to be nice and to please people if
"Beth, are you coming?" my classmate Macy asked.I smiled timidly at her. I know she understands what I mean by it. The hope in her eyes faded. She sighed and nodded her head later on.Our group had the highest score so they were happy and decided to celebrate. There is a KTV bar near here and they plan to there. I don't like to go out so I refused. And besides, I already I am already married. It’s not nice to see me outside and having fun while I have a husband waiting at home.I left the room to go to the canteen. Kian texted me that he was already there. When I arrived at the canteen, their group grabbed my attention. They're having fun.When Kian noticed me he immediately stood up. He put his arm around me and kissed my cheek. His friend's eyes are on us. I raised an eyebrow at them. Kian guided me to sit next to him. He already ordered food for us. Their silence made me confused. Until I had eaten my meal half of it, they cleared their throats simultaneously."Beth." One of his f
I raised an eyebrow at Kian's friend. Again? I looked at Kian."It's okay if you don't want me to go," Kian said.While his friend made puppy eyes at me so that I could let Kian go to his birthday party."Who's birthday it will be next month?" I asked them. Like last time, almost all of them have the same reactions— scratching their napes and having this look on me. Last year, they didn't invite Kian and Kian also refused to go. I sighed."Where are you going?" I asked another question. I remember Raul's birthday last time. They say it will only take place at Raul's house but I found out from Macy that they went to a bar."Just at home. All boys just like Raul's birthday," Kian replied while his eyes are busy roaming around. He can't look straight in my eyes 'cause I'm staring hard at him. Liar! I know where these guys went."Please, allow him. It's our last year in college. When we graduate we might not be able to meet again."I sighed once again. "Okay. Make sure you don't take my h
I woke up alone in bed. It's only six-thirty in the morning. It's Saturday so we don't have to go to the university.I stayed still before being forced to get up and look for Kian. I found him in the kitchen. There is a frying pan on the stove. Looks like he just started cooking.The kitchen was a bit messy. There are ingredients and foods on the countertop. When he notices my presence he glances at me. I leaned against the kitchen door and looked at him with a smile."I guess you got up early and cook." He just smiled sparingly. He turned down the heat on the stove before taking a few steps toward me. He kissed me on the lips."Sorry about last night. I came home late due to traffic," he explained seriously. I nodded."It's okay. I just hope you have texted me. Your wife was so worried." I sighed."Sorry." He kissed me again. It lasted for just a few seconds because if he doesn't stop, the pan will burn."While I'm cooking, pack our clothes good for two days," he said."Why?" I asked
Kian and I never talk in the morning because my class was an hour earlier than his. I just heated up the food I cooked last night. The cake I baked was just in the fridge.After I got dressed, he woke up. He was quiet and I knew he was watching me. I have a lot to say and I have things I want to ask him but I don’t want to start this day with a fight. With the annoyance I felt last night and until now I am sure it will lead to a quarrel.As much as possible I want to be calm. I don’t want to mess up my mind especially since we have quizzes that I have to prepare for this week.My chest tightens. I hardly slept. I was irritated as I listened to her snore. He was under the influence of alcohol so he slept very soundly.He didn't know or it is more correct to say that he doesn't care about his wife who is irritated and resentful towards him."I'm going," I coldly said goodbye to him.He stood up immediately and approached me. He kissed my head."Remember, Moo, I love you. See you later."
Lunch break came, Macy and I never talk again. I knew she was looking at me from time to time but because of the intensity of the emotion I was feeling, I tried to ignore her.Or maybe because when I see the pity in her eyes I'll just burst into tears. She witnessed what happened. She witnessed Kian's grip on temptation. I don’t want to cry. Even if it's just a kiss or make-out, it's painful.But what if it wasn’t just a kiss? What if there was more than that? No!Whether it's just a smack or whatever, it's still an act of cheating.At lunch break, Kian picked me up out of my room. He smiled. He immediately hugged and kissed me. I sighed and smiled lazily at him.I don’t know what I should feel. My emotions are already turbulent. My heart was not yet calm. But we are inside the university. We should not be seen by others fighting. I don’t want Jewel to see or know that we have a misunderstanding. It will satisfy her and that is the last thing I don't want to happen."Beth, " his frien
"Go ahead, just cry. It will lessen the pain," Macy said while driving. I wiped away the tears that wanted to fall.It really hurts deep inside me. I wanted to cry to reduce the weight I felt on my chest but also didn’t want to shed any tears. I asked her to drop me off at the mall a few meters away from our house."Be careful. If you need someone to talk to, I am just here," she said before stopping the car. I just nodded at her and thanked her.Kian called my number several times a while ago so I blocked his number. Even on my social media accounts. I don't want to talk to him. As much as possible I also don't want to see his face. But we go to the same school. We go home to the same house. I don't know what to do now.I walked around the mall until late at night. I don't feel hungry. Nothing comes into my mind. I don’t know what to do and still thought of what had happened.As far as I know, he lied and deceived me. I really want to reprove him. But I don't want to utter hurtful wo
It took a few seconds before Kian notice our presence. He looks stunned. I have not been able to move where I have been since we got here. I don't even know what to do or what to think. All I know is that I am badly hurt. He hurt me again. What's his excuse this time?"M-Moo..." he called me stammering. My vision began to blur. He called me Moo without thinking about the meaning of that endearment that he kept on calling me. Moo. My only one.Really, Kian? You are not a man of your words."Babe," Jewel called Kian causing my chest to tighten even more. I shooked. Kian's eyes were begging. He stepped closer to me so I also stepped back a few times. It was like we were the only three people here because those with us were quiet. Watching or maybe they are shocked as hell too."L-Let me explain." He continue to step forward but I kept on moving backward. I don't want to hear any of his excuses again. I turned around and glared at his friends. I shuddered in extreme frustration. If only I