登入CHAPTER THREE
The transformation happened in hours, but it felt like a whole lifetime.
As the stylists moved around, rolling, stretching, curling, painting and pluckering, I could feel Ellesmere disappearing by each hand movement.
Piece by piece, I was erased.
When I stared in the mirror, it felt like looking at my sister through disturbed waters.
Wrong.
It felt wrong.
Arla stepped beside me. And for the first time since we reconnected, she looked…satisfied.
“Hello, Arla Holland,” she whispered.
Cold licked my spine.
“Arla…”
“You'll be fine,” she continued. “The staff do not speak unless spoken to. And I'll be in your ear to ease your entry. Mrs Timothy is the housekeeper. Dinner is served by seven, I hope you haven't forgotten the table etiquette lessons at Lois high.”
Nervous tension licked my bones. The last time I used cutlery was six years ago.
At a dinner date.
“I don't miss dinner, even when I'm not hungry. Don't overexplain yourself to the staff. I never explain myself,” she continued. “Carlton calls twice a day whenever he's on his trip.”
Carlton.
That name left me with a queasy feeling.
“Arla…”
“Here,” she pressed a phone and earpods in my hands. I looked down. “Carlton calls this line and the house phone. You should leave now, my driver is waiting downstairs.”
“Arla, wait…”
“My flight leaves in an hour,” she said, consulting her wristwatch.
Just like that.
No hesitation. No guilt. No consideration.
“I don't think this….”
“Well, don't,” she interrupted me sharply. “I'll call you,” she said pushing me towards the door.
Oh God!
“Ellesmere,” she called her voice colder than I'd ever heard it. I turned, she raised the envelope that was in my bag. “Try not to mess this up.”
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The ride from the hotel to the mansion was hell. If I was nervous before, I was a wreck now. I sat rigidly in the sleek black Bentley that had been waiting at the entrance the moment I stepped out of the hotel.
The driver had stood beside it with an umbrella, and had moved to lead me the moment he saw me.
My palm felt damp against the cream cotton dress that didn't belong to me. Nothing did. Not the diamonds that clad my earlobes, or pressed cold against the skin of my neck, and wrist.
Nor the designer bag that sat beside me. Nor the life I had been shoved into.
By the time the car rode into the mansion grounds, I was tethering at death's door.
The Holland estate looked like something carved right out of some powerful architecture textbook.
Massive stone walls. Towering windows glowing amber. Black wrought iron balconies. Water cascading from marble fountains.
We drove through an endless stretch of manicured gardens, and the towering stone architecture beneath rain-dark skies.
“Stay calm,” Arla's voice swept through the earpods.
“Oh my God!” I whispered too stunned to pretend this was anything near normal.
“Don't say that inside. It sounds provincial.”
“You live here?” I whispered.
“It's a dream, isn't it?”
It was more.
Staff lined the entrance neatly.
The Bentley rolled to a stop, and the entrance opened as though on cue.
My pulse hammered violently.
The driver, whose name I didn't know, helped me out of the car, his grip steady against my quivering hands.
Cold air kissed my skin.
A woman with silver streaked hair approached me.
“Good evening, Mrs Holland.”
“That's Mrs Timo…oh shoot!”
My heart skipped a bit. Dread crawled up my back.
“I'm sorry, I have to go!”
NO!
I turned away sharply.
“Wait, what?!”
The line went dead.
Jesus!
“Mrs Holland?”
My heart drummed relentlessly. This psychopathic woman!
I took a deep breath, and turned offering a little smile. The woman frowned.
“I'm sorry, I'm just feeling a little under the weather,” I said, unable to disguise the shaky notes in my voice.
The woman's brow twitched slightly. I watched the staff share a look of confusion.
One staff member stepped forward, I almost backtracked, then she reached for my bag, taking it.
Stay calm, Ellesmere.
I followed behind quickly. Arla didn't give me a proper house navigation, so I didn't even know where her room was actually located.
I tried not to look around too much, but it was impossible not to stare.
God damn it!
Everything whispered wealth.
Crystal chandeliers glimmered overhead. Dark oil paintings lined the walls. Marble floors polished to mirrors. Fresh lilies perfuming the air.
Everything looked expensive enough to belong behind a museum glass.
Everything whispered power.
And somehow, Arla lived here.
“Would you like your tea upstairs, ma'am?”
I continued further.
“Mrs Holland?”
The maid before me stopped, turning back suddenly. I frowned.
Why did she stop?
Then it hit me.
I was “Mrs Holland”.
Shit!
“Yes?” I smiled, turning to the silver haired woman.
Sharp eyes assessed my features, and panic nearly strangled me.
I have been discovered, haven't I?
“I was asking if you'd like your tea upstairs as usual,” she said calmly.
Arla's instructions from the hotel rang in my head.
“Yes, please,” I said softly.
“Be assertive!”
“Bring it up in fifteen minutes,” I added, correcting my tone.
Mrs Timothy nodded immediately.
“Yes, ma'am.”
My God.
It's working!
The maid led me upstairs, stopping short before an enormous door. She handed me the handbag, took a bow and stepped aside.
Didn't Arla allow the staff inside her room?
That's for the best, right?
I pushed the door open, and stepped in.
Holy cow!
Her room alone was larger than my entire apartment.
Floor-to-ceiling windows overlooked endless gardens below. A fireplace crackled softly near a sitting area upholstered in ivory. The bed looked untouched, enormous beneath charcoal silk sheets.
There wasn't a single personal photograph anywhere.
Strange.
I felt intimidated by the sight of sheer wealth.
Call Arla!
I lifted the phone I had clutched like a lifeline. The only access to a manual through this whole madness.
I had just tapped on her number, when a sudden movement caught my eye somewhere around the room. I turned slowly, my heart thumping.
Steam drifted outward first.
Then, a man stepped out, dripping wet, and wearing nothing but a white towel low around his waist.
My entire body froze.
He crossed into the room slowly.
Broad shoulders. Dark wet hair pushed back casually.
Sharp jawline, shadowed faintly with a stubble.
His gaze found mine, and….
Dear God!
Cold grey eyes.
Devastating recognition. This was the first time I had seen him in real life, but I'd recognise that face anywhere.
Carlton Holland.
CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVEEight days after they opened my mother's chest and rerouted the traffic around the blocked artery, the hospital finally let her go home.I'd spent the past week learning exactly how slowly "recovering well" actually moved. The careful laps down the hallway with a nurse at her elbow, the morning she managed the bathroom on her own and cried about it afterward when she thought I wasn't listening. By the eighth morning she was dressed in the clothes I'd brought for her, instead of the hospital gown, arguing with the discharge nurse about whether she truly needed the wheelchair just to reach the parking lot.I left her to continue an argument she would keep losing, and went to sign the last of the paperwork at the station down the hall. Carlton found me there, in the quiet stretch of corridor near the family consultation rooms.“I heard she was being discharged today,” he began casually, as if the last time we'd spoken hadn't ended with me screaming at him to get out
CHAPTER THIRTY-FOURI was discharged a little after ten, papers in one hand, a pamphlet on prenatal vitamins in the other that I hadn't asked for.I had worn the clothes Carlton sent via a nurse, only because my nightie made me a little self conscious…considering everything.But the food I couldn't bear to touch. I couldn't put anything from Carlton in my stomach. The one lodging there was more than enough.True to what Adrian had said, my mother had been transferred to a VIP room in recovery, two floors up, sedated and recovering, blessedly unaware of anything that had happened to me overnight.I told the nurse I'd be back that evening. I meant it. I just didn't know yet how much of me would be left to bring.I ignored Liam, whom Carlton had done whatever he was good at, to bring here, and called a cab.&
CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE The silence after the door closed was a special kind of cruelty. It stretched between Carlton and me, filling the room with everything neither of us could say at the moment. I had been stupid. Not only had I slept with my twin sister's husband, I had gotten pregnant by him too. Twelve weeks.Why didn't it ever occur to me, once in that entire mansion to take contraceptives? Why hadn't I thought far enough ahead when Carlton was apparently doing it without a condom, night after night, like consequences were something that happened to other people? Why did I have to be so stupid?“This changes everything,” Carlton spoke first. His voice seared through the maze of numerous thoughts. I looked up, unsure I'd heard him right. He was looking at me. “What?” “Naturally, this development changes whatever plans we had before now.”My hand drifted, unbidden, toward my stomach, though there was nothing to feel yet. Nothing that made sense. Nothing that could possibl
CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO The first thing I recognized when I came to, was the ceiling. High, recessed lighting instead of the flat fluorescent panels I pushed patients under every day. No exposed pipe chase. No water stain.Wrong room. That was my second, slower thought. A window with drapes, instead of a shared curtain. An actual armchair in the corner instead of a folding one. Whatever this was, it wasn't the recovery ward.The third thing I realized was that I wasn't alone.I turned my head slowly, everything moving through water, and found him sitting in the chair beside my bed. Alone. Grey suit, tie loosened, elbows on his knees like he'd been there a while and had run out of ways to sit comfortably.I decided, immediately, that I was hallucinating. Low blood sugar. Grief. Whatever cocktail of exhaustion and terror produces a man who shouldn't be within four states of you, sitting exactly where he shouldn't be, watching you wake up like it was the only thing on his schedule.I m
CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE It was almost two hours before the doors opened again. This time, it was the surgeon, cap still on, mask pulled down around his neck."She did well," he said, and something in my chest finally let go. "The graft looks good. We're moving her to recovery now, and if everything holds overnight, she'll be in a regular room by morning.""Can I see her?""Ten minutes. Not more.” “Thank you.” He hesitated, the particular hesitation of a man about to say something he needed to say carefully. "I want to be honest with you, Ms. Morrison. Her heart's been compensating for a long time — years, probably, based on what we found in there. This surgery buys her real time. It doesn't undo the years already spent."My heartbeat quickened again. “How much time?” “Good time, if she rests, takes her medication, and avoids lifting or straining. She's going to need a lot of care for a while yet.""That's fine," I said. "That's what I do.”They let me in a little after five in the mo
CHAPTER THIRTY I don't know how long I sat there, but, it was long enough for the vending machine, two rows over, cycled through its hourly hum twice before I actually registered the sound.An older man in the chair across from mine, someone else's crisis unfolding at his own pace, offered me half a granola bar without a word, like it was the only currency either of us had left to spend on kindness that night. I didn't eat it. I could barely put anything in my mouth. But I held onto it, and it kept me from noticing that my hands were still trembling.The doors opened after an unbearably long wait. One of the doctors I knew stepped out, her expression was wary, with a rehearsed calm doctors learned for situations like this. The moment her gaze landed on mine, my heart skipped. "Ms. Morrison?"I stood so fast the room tilted. The granola bar hit the floor. "How is—""She's stable." She led with the thing a person needed to hear before their legs give out. "But there's significant bl







