Talia POV.Stupid brain, stupid heart, stupid lungs, stupid stupid stupid Talia!!!"Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!" I screamed into my pillow, I'm so stupid. I got myself into this, what happened with me was a panic attack, where fear got hold of the best of me. I didn't die, thankfully but I did raise the HR attention toward me, they says now I'm instable. They are going to revaluate my performance, you don't work in a bdsm company if you're a kink-phobic. We accept everyone and every kink, no shaming, no disgust, every employee goes through a mental check up once a year. Mine came early, if I'm not stable, if I'll have random panic attacks, if I get an anxiety attack every time I have to deal with a dom. Then this job isn't made for me, they'll give me some financial settlement before kicking me out. What am I gonna do now! I decided to call my momma, she always knows what to do that if she remembers who I am. She had me late in life, she called me her little miracle, it was a miracle she c
Talia POV.It's been a full week since my evaluation, no one would tell me anything, not even Felix. The other trainers would just smile kindly at me when we crossed road or they needed anything from me. The work is back to normal, Marco and a little are sitting at my desk right now, the little wants his contract determined, while Marco was listening for reasons and I was taking notes. Apparently this little dom took his favorite stuffy for a wash and never brought him back, he's accusing his dom of neglect, Marco wasn't taking this very lightly either. He was extremely mad, he asked the littles more details about his relationship, he asked about his aftercare, sexual relation, and punishment. The little said all about being loved and cared for, but the missing stuffy was a big red flag for him, he wants his stuffy back and he's not staying with any stuffy murderer. Marco thanked the little and gave him a lollipop for acting so well, he got the dom on the phone putting him on spea
Talia POV.After I was done crying, I cried a bit some more, had a giant tub of ice cream, cried again before going to sleep, my night was filled with nightmares, I saw them again. I remembered the beginning of our weekend when it was fun and exciting, until the first slap came, I had my face as hard limit. It came from Athena, I didn't obey the order fast enough, that earned me a slap on the face, my first red flag, I should've known things would go down from there. But stupid me though it's gonna be okay, a quick hug and being called a good girl had me staying, being stupid, I should add it to my cv. I couldn't sleep anymore, I don't have work tomorrow, so I sat up and got my contract they explained a bit to me about it but I wasn't really paying any attention to what's being said. So now I have to sit down and read it from the start, the first part of this contract was the same as my old one. It all said about swearing secrecy, never talking badly about the company, no kink shami
Talia POV. Time passes quickly just when you not expecting it to, when you want it to go slow it'll jump, run, fly, it'll do anything to just pass and leave you asking where the last forty-eight hours went. Now I had to make this decision, I go to work and sign, or I go and resign and start searching for a new job. What to do, what to do? I ask myself again and again!! Ahhhhhh! Okay, decision made, I got ready as I usually do and walked outside my door, I'm not gonna be late, even if this is my last day there I refuse to leave a bad impression. I walked in, scared, this felt like my first day here in this work, I'm scared, nervous, and don't know what's waiting for me. I didn't go to my desk right away, instead, I went to HR, same as the first day, they welcomed me and asked for my answer. I either sign my contract or sign my resignation letter, they had both options for me and I had to decide, I closed my eyes took a deep breath, and finally took my decision. I signed the paper a
Marco POV.We had someone new in the company, she's a little thing, but she doesn't like being called little, her job is mostly to help us all with the paperwork. I had my eye on her, I knew a little when I saw one, I saw how she blushed when she got praised on her, even fussy sometimes. I had my eye on her, I wanted to invite her to try being a little with me, but it was never a good time, I knew when to ask and when to give someone their space. It was all going well until she skipped work for a full week, she took a vacation saying she's too sick to come. I asked Felix about her, he's the head of our little department, he's in charge of everyone while I'm in charge of my trainers, all nine of them are my students. We teach both littles and dom, help them adapt to the lifestyle, show them what's it's all about, we recruit new littles and dom. We knew something was wrong with her, she came back scared, looking behind her shoulder, I knew from Felix who happens to be a very good frie
Talia POV.It's been what almost a week now? I'm trying to set back a routine, well everyone else is, Felix says I need one to help me, that the stability would help me and help with my nightmares. I agreed with him on having a routine, it really did help, I have to spend time with Marco, I have to get back to my old work routine. It's not the work, it's not my usual tasks, it's everyone else and the way they are treating me, I was used to the trainers being nice to me. But now they are just taking it to a next level, making sure I'm okay, the help with my work, just spending some time with me, getting treats from them randomly.My time with Marco is still on the light side, I saw other littles, I saw how they treat them but not me, all Marco does is talk to me, he'll make me help him in his work or just sit down and we watch the cartoon together. "Talia in my office please," Felix says calling me to his office, I move from my desk and into his office. "Close the door and take a se
Talia POV.Okay so I trust Felix and agreed on a date with Marco, I had my eyes on him I won't lie, I was shocked to hear that most the trainers wanted me. Well that explains their care and attention while I'm at work, but I knew I have to give the HR an answer to who's my dominant soon. I decided to call my mama, she answered right away, it was one of the rare moment where she knew who I was. "How's my baby girl?" Momma asked me."I'm good momma I miss you" I tell her with tears in my eyes. "I miss you too baby" she says."Momma I have a date tonight" I say wanting to hear her opinion."That's great baby, I wish I was there to see him and tell him to take good care of my baby. You're a princess Talia don't allow anyone to treat you any other way" she says, well she's right, I'm a princess, it's what my momma said. "Okay momma I will love you" I say."Love you too princess" she says before ending the call. I was so happy, and excited in the same time, I went and got ready for my
Talia POV.Decision made, I've been making a lot of those lately, I wish I could just stop. Also, another decision made, I'm not Vanilla, who am I lying to? Myself, it seems like it, since everyone else knows exactly what I am except me, I'm a submissive, but am I a little? Marco and Felix have been in this lifestyle and work for so long, I'm sure they know what they are talking about. I'm trusting them and the whole little department judgment, from what I saw, and lived for the last week being a little at work isn't that hard or bad. It could be fun, to just sit and watch cartoons or take a quick power nap before lunch on Marco's sofa, I don't think he'll keep allowing me to use the sofa but so far it's really comfortable. I got to work and went straight to Felix, he knew I was up to something the second I got in his office, he just had this giant smile on his face and said we should open an apple juice box for celebration, I don't expect real champagne. He called Marco to his offi