Mag-log inI am Marcel Deveraux, the king of the lycan kingdom. In less than a week, my castle will be full of every unmated lycan in the country and their parents. In less than a week, it will be full of men and women seeking their mates.
This is a yearly occurrence for all lycans once they turn eighteen. The emergence of one’s lycan and the ability to find the other half of our souls is a big deal to our kind. At least it is for most lycans.
For me, it is just another year of simpering females hoping to become the queen of all lycans. I am over a hundred years old, and I have become jaded from not finding my mate. Every year that passes and I don’t find her, I lose a little more of my sanity.
I dread this gala and everything it signifies. I dread all the match-making mamas trying to shove their daughters in my face. The social-climbing vipers. All they want is the chance to have their daughters become my queen.
That won’t happen.
Not now.
Not ever.
The only woman who will become my queen will me my true mate. Not some forced or arranged marriage for the sake of an heir. That is what my advisors have been trying to get me to do for the last five years. All for the sake of the kingdom.
However, this year feels different for some reason. The closer it gets to the day of the gala, the more unsettled my lycan, Luc, is becoming. It is as if he knows something that I don’t, and every time I ask him what has him so on edge, he retreats to the back of my mind and refuses to speak to me.
It is the first time in my life that he has ever done this. We have been pretty much perfectly in sync since he awoke when I was sixteen. He is so much a part of who I am, and to have him so agitated like this makes me agitated too.
I stand up from my desk chair, then walk the few steps to the large floor to ceiling window behind my desk. This past week has been taxing, and I can’t wait for the night of the gala to be here already so that I can move on to more important things. I run a hand through my thick black hair in frustration as a knock on my office door breaks me out of my thoughts.
“Enter,” I call out to my secretary, Elias, who is probably waiting nervously on the other side of the door.
Elias, who was also my father’s most trusted confidant, became my secretary when I ascended the throne. He is a nervous nelly sort of man, but he means well. Most of the time, at least.
The door opens and I watch as Elias enters my office. His salt and pepper gray hair is cut short but always seems to stick up in patches, as if he is constantly pulling at it with his nervous energy. His blues connect with mine, and by the grim look on his face, I know instantly that I will not like what he came to tell me.
“What is it, Elias?”
He fidgets with something in his hand, then looks down at what I can now see in his hands. It is a plain brown envelope. A sense of unease slithers down my spine as Elias crosses the room to where I am standing.
“This was in the mail today. There is no scent on it, and it is addressed to you. I opened it, of course, and there is nothing threatening on the paper itself. It is the message within that is the problem.”
“Give it to me, and I will determine if it is a threat or not.” I hold my hand out and wait for him to place the envelope in my waiting hand.
Elias nods his head, then hands me the envelope. The sense of dread I had when Elias entered my office intensifies as my fingers close over the smooth envelope. It is such a light object, and it feels odd to have such a heavy feeling go through me.
“You may leave now, Elias.”
“But, your highness…”
I cut him off by holding my free hand up to indicate that I want him to stop talking. Then I flick my hand in a dismissive gesture. He nods his head, then rushes out of the room. Once the door closes behind him, I walk back to my desk, toss the envelope onto the glossy surface, then sit down and just stare at it.
This isn’t the first time that I have gotten threatening letters over the years. It is, however, the first time I have gotten one that is so light and nondescript. Whatever was in that letter spooked Elias, well, more so than normal.
Before I can open it, there is another knock on my office door. I sigh in frustration, then irritation as I look up at the door when it opens without invitation. I glare at the uninvited guest, but she just smiles at me and sashays across the room until she is standing in front of my desk.
Camille, my sister Aimee’s best friend, made her intentions clear years ago that she wanted to be my queen. I told her then, like I do almost every year since she first set sights on me, that the only way she would be my queen is she turned out to be my true mate. She turns eighteen in a few days, and I hope that we are not mates.
She is hoping that I am.
I can’t stand her.
“Marcel,” she practically purrs as she sits on the edge of my desk. She leans forward and flashes me her barely concealed cleavage.
Camille is dressed in a pale pink, skin-tight dress that is too short and exposes way too much of her cleavage. Her pale blonde hair is curled to perfection, at least that is what Aimee always tells me when she has her hair done up the same way. Camille’s makeup is too much for my taste.
She is trying too hard to impress me. News flash, her efforts only disgust me. One would think she would have gotten the message by now. Sadly for me, she is more persistent than anyone I have ever met.
“What have I told you about my office, Camille?” I growl at her as she reaches a manicured hand out to touch mine.
She bats her mascara-coated eyelashes at me and ignores my question. “My birthday is in a few days, baby. You know what that means, right? I want to go over the details of my coronation ceremony with you.”
Luc growls loudly in my head, causing me to wince in pain. That is the loudest he has ever reacted to her before. My lycan dislikes Camille just as much as I do.
“There will be no coronation for you, Camille.”
“We are mates, Marcel, I can feel it.”
I stand up from my seat, then slam my hands down on the desktop. “Get this through your head, Camille. You and I are nothing to each other until the Moon Goddess says otherwise. This is the last time you will come into my office or any of my private rooms uninvited. The next time you do, I will have you locked in the dungeons for a month, or better yet, I will have you banished from the castle altogether!” I thunder out at her.
She flinches back, and her eyes instantly fill with tears. I am not fazed by this at all. This has become a monthly occurrence in the last year, and I am immune to her tears now. I pray to the Moon Goddess that this little fool is not my mate.
She is NOT our mate, Luc growls. If she were, we would have felt it by now.
How do you know that?
I just know. She feels wrong and I have never liked her. If she were our mate, I would feel it. She isn’t, and you know it, Luc states in a matter-of-fact tone.
“You will act differently once you learn the truth that I already know. We are mates, Marcel, and the sooner you accept that, the better.” She screams at me as her tears ruin her overdone makeup.
“I am the fucking king here and you will listen to what I have to say. Get out of my office and do not let me see you again until the gala. If I do, you will not like the consequences you will face.”
I mindlink the guard who should have been on duty at my office door to get his ass in here to escort her out. A second later the door opens, and a young man enters looking sheepish. I give him a stern look as he walks up behind Camille.
“Get her out of my office. As of now, she is banned from this floor and as well as the royal living quarters. As for you, you are on patrol duty for the next three months.”
“But Marcel, I have a lunch date with Aimee later, you can’t ban me from her rooms!” Camille whines.
“I just did, and you better be grateful that I am not banning you from the castle altogether. Now get the fuck out of my fucking office right now!” I yell at her.
She bursts into tears as the young guard drags her out of my office.
Once they are both gone, I call my sister through our family mindlink. Get to my office now. It is time we have a long overdue chat about Camille.
What happened? Aimee asks quietly.
Just get to my office immediately. I tell her sternly.
My sister Aimee is much younger than me. She just turned nineteen last year. My mother thought she was no longer fertile after all these years of me being an only child. Lycans remain fertile until we reach the last fifty years of our lifespan. My parents are close to that point. So, my sister was a total surprise baby.
My father had his heir and didn’t want more children, so he was giving my very unsuspecting mother something in her morning and evening tea to prevent pregnancy. That was until my mother suspected something was wrong and went to the royal physician to have some tests done.
She stopped drinking the tea my father gave her after she got the test results back, and a few months later got pregnant with my sister. My father was shocked, but when she told him she knew about the tea, he had nothing more to say.
They now sleep in separate bedrooms and are mates in name only. He helped her raise my sister, and they put on the loving couple act for my sister until she was old enough to know what was really going on between them. Now, they are just two strangers living in the same place but are not together.
My father has a mistress and is as discrete about is as possible, even though he knows that my mother is aware of it. She has a companion too, and doesn’t care that my father knows. She told me once that all the love she felt for my father died on the day she found out that he was drugging her to prevent more pregnancies.
I give my sister leeway on all her bad behavior because of our parents, but I am done with that now. She needs to stop scheming with Camille to make her my queen. The two of them are becoming a menace, and I am done with it.
My sister is a princess, and I can’t ban her from the castle, but I will make sure that Camille no longer has access to the royal floors. I make a note on a piece of paper to have the elevator codes changed for those floors and the one for my private quarters and offices.
I look up from my desk when I hear a timid knock on my door. “Come in, Aimee.”
The door opens, and my sister cautiously walks into my office. Her blue eyes are wide as she closes the door behind her. I don’t blame her for being scared. I am beyond pissed off that Camille came to my office again today, and I know Aimee let her in the elevator.
The two of them have been conspiring for the last year to get me to want Camille the way she wants me. It hasn’t worked yet and it never will.
“Sit,” I command Aimee.
She walks to one of the two chairs in front of my desk and takes a seat. She looks down at her lap, and the motion causes her raven-black hair, a trait we both get from our mother, to fall over part of her face like a curtain. Guilt and fear are coming off her in waves.
“Today is the last day that I will deal with you and Camille scheming to make her my queen. She is banned from the royal quarters, my private floors, and this office from now on. If I catch her, or if any of the guards or servants catch her in any of those locations again, she will be permanently banned from the castle and grounds. This is the end of your shit, do you understand me, Aimee?”
“She just wants you to love her like she loves you. Why do you have to be so mean to her?” Aimee asks as she bravely lifts her head to look me in the eye.
I let out a frustrated growl. “We have been over this before, Aimee. I will take no mate but my true mate. Camille is not my mate.”
“How do you know? She isn’t even eighteen yet and hasn’t gotten her lycan. Maybe she is your mate, and you are just too stubborn to see it.”
Before I can stop him, Luc pushes to the front of my mind and speaks through me. “That disgusting woman is not my mate. I know this and have known this since she arrived at the castle years ago. Heed me well on this little girl, I will not take this disrespect anymore!” he roars at Aimee, then he recedes to the back of my mind.
Once in control again, I watch Aimee’s eyes go wide in horror. I know Luc would never hurt her, but I can feel his irritation like a living thing in my mind, beating at me like a force I have never felt from him.
My lycan has had enough of their shit, and he wants them to know it.
The house my parents are now living in is bigger than I expected. Remi said that Marcel gave it to them as part of my father accepting the position on the king’s council. The house looks like a small mansion, and that isn’t what I expected from Marcel at all. A short woman with grey hair is standing on the front stairs, waiting for us when Remi pulls into the driveway. Her hands are in her apron pocket. Her hair is coming out of the updo she had it in, and she looks frazzled. Remi parks his car, and papa is the first to get out. He helps me out of the back and then the three of us walk toward her. Opal’s eyes move from papa to Remi, and then they land on me, and she frowns. “Mister Remi didn’t say you would be having guests. I didn’t prepare a room for her.” “Opal, this is my daughter, Syndra.” Papa introduces me. “Oh my, this is Syndra? Please forgive me, sir. I can have a room prepared in just a few minutes. Oh, Miss Lisette will be so happy.” I glance up at Papa’s face and
With great reluctance, I lead Mathieu away from Etienne’s office. Every single instinct I have wants me to stay in that room and comfort my mate. Luc growls in my mind as I walk away. I don’t deserve to comfort her since I am the cause of all her pain. “So, what have you done over the years to find the people or person behind all this?” Mathieu asks as quietly as we walk. “Let me show you something. I will explain more once we are there.” “Lead the way then.” I take him to my council chamber. I nod to the two guards that are outside the door and tell them not to let anyone in unless it is Lazare or his brother Frewick. They both nod. I enter the room and head straight to the small alcove behind the chair I usually sit it. It used to hold a small stone statue when I was younger, but now it is empty. Well, except for the hanging plant my mother put in there a year ago. I press on what looks like just a normal part of the wall but is actually the trigger for the secret door. The
My father is standing behind his desk with a ledger in his hands and a shocked, yet pained, expression on his face. I can’t move. His silver eyes are glittering with unshed tears, and I am rooted in place. “Syndra?” His voice is the same, yet so much else has changed. His dark brown hair is now sprinkled with gray. There are more worry lines on his face than there used to be. He also looks thinner than I have ever seen him before. My father has always been a large, muscular man. “Syndra, ma 'tite fille, is that really you?” At the simple little phrase, my feet finally move, and I am in my father’s arms. The second his arms wrap around me, I am sobbing and clinging to him like my life depends on it. The sense of coming home that I felt with Remi is nothing compared to what I feel with having my father hold me just like he did when I was his little girl. “Papa...” I sob. “Shhh, there now, Syndra, papa’s got you.” I am so lost in my father’s embrace that I don’t sense Remi enter
The first face I search for when I step out of the jet and onto the metal stairs is Remi’s. I feel him before I see him. When our eyes collide, it is the best feeling I have had in seven years. I feel safe. Remi’s feet move at the same time mine do, and we race toward each other. I am sobbing his name as we reach each other, and he wraps his arms around me. His scent hits me, and my knees buckle. “I've got you, Syn,” Remi whispers against the top of my head as he presses my head to his chest. I can feel his entire body shaking against mine as we both cry. We cry for the lost years and everything we missed in each other’s lives. We cry because we are finally two pieces made one again. I can feel Dyna reaching for Helios. Their joy is equal to ours. We will have to find somewhere hidden, somewhere no one can see us, and let our lycans be free to be close to each other like we are now. Remi pulls back and looks at me. His eyes roam over my face, and I take the chance to do the same.
I hated leaving Syndra behind in France, but Aimee wanted to go home, and I couldn’t explain the situation I found myself in. My sister only knows what I let the rest of the kingdom know. I found my mate, and she was killed. My sister is an intelligent woman, but she is still so young, and I don’t want her involved in this. There is no need to tell her the truth until we find the assholes behind the threats. So, I caved to her temper tantrum and flew home earlier than planned. Now, a few days after I left my mate in Paris, I am pacing the small private airport lobby waiting for Mathieu’s jet to land. I hate the fact that Syndra is with him right now. Even though I know there is nothing between them, Luc is driving me insane with his jealousy. Syndra’s brother Remi is pacing in front of the doorway. When I lied and told him how I found his sister and that she would be coming home for a visit with her second chance mate, I felt guilty. He deserves to know the truth about what I did.
(Syndra) It took three days for the witch, Gianna, to call Mathieu back. It took another two days for her to make preparations for the spell needed to mask Marcel’s scent from my body, then another day for her to cast it and recover. I used most of that time packing and avoiding Marcel. That man has had a one-track mind since the day he told me the truth about what happened that night. He got my address from Mathieu and just showed up at my front door. All the sorrow and regret he felt was right there for me to see in those ice-blue eyes of his. I slammed the door in his face. Marcel showed up again the next morning with breakfast from the bistro down the street from my flat. I love the place and eat there at least three times a week. I took the breakfast from his outstretched hands, then slammed the door in his face. Again. The next morning, he was waiting for me on the sidewalk right outside my door. He had coffee in one hand and a croissant in the other. I grabbed both and w







