Luca There she is. Seeing Laura approaching our table makes my heart beat faster, and I love the thrill of it. I stand when she finally reaches me, and she looks at me with wide and uncertain eyes. I put a hand on her shoulder and kiss her lightly on the cheek. She shivers when I graze my lips against her cheek. A seemingly innocent action. She steps back carefully and takes a seat. Her cheeks are now the color of her lips, and it pleases me to see her react this way. One would assume that a fiery woman like her wouldn't blush when kissed by a man, much less on the cheek, but Laura is a box full of surprises. She's the most interesting person that I've ever met. She intertwines her fingers and looks everywhere but at me. I take the opportunity to stare at her while she isn't looking directly at me. She looks perfectly fine, and it helps me shake the guilt I feel for leaving her alone last night off. I can't forget the haunted look on her face when she saw her sister standing at t
"There's no fucking way that this happened," Brett says dramatically. He covers his mouth with his hand as he stares at me with wide eyes. It's like he's waiting for me to say that what I told him is one big lie, but it isn't. I wish it were. Rather, I don't. I don't regret kissing Luca at all. Victoria is even more shocked than he is, yet she tells me, "You sly bitch! I knew you had feelings for him! Didn't we know, Brett?"He doesn't answer her. "I didn't have feelings for him initially," I say, then pinch the bridge of my nose. "It's complicated. Things just changed one day and I didn't know how to feel anymore. I just started looking at him differently. I didn't want to accept it, though. I kept ignoring how I felt. And then, last night, he came over and it happened. We kissed.""You're not making any sense," Victoria says. "The last thing I heard from you was that you were angry that your sister was in love with him because you felt your mother was forcing her to marry him for
Mom doesn't take her eyes off me as I sit down. I catch myself over analyzing her demeanor and facial expressions. She looks exhausted; she didn't sleep last night. If she did, she slept very little. Negative emotions begin brewing within me. I don't like where this is going and she hasn't said a single word to me yet. The smoke from her cigarette tickles the back of my throat. I ignore it as I sit down, even though my eyes sting and water. She gives me a level look and I try to match it. I opted not to ignore her but that doesn't mean that I will let her pin all the blame on me as she has tried to so many times before. I meant what I told her last night. This is her fault. If not entirely, then partly. She should never have spread those rumors. She should never have assured Mary that she would marry Luca. She finishes her cigarette and lights another before she speaks. I sit watching her patiently. I tell myself to be calm. Finally, she looks at me and says, "Your sister isn't we
Honestly, I didn't think that I would end up here. The last few 'events' were awful for me. I was so concerned with avoiding Luca that I didn't allow myself to have any fun whatsoever. It was torture, being there and knowing that I wasn't wanted by my family, and it was even worse when mom bought me that plain dress and got Mary a designer one. This event is a little different, though. For starters, none of my relatives are here. Dad is still away on his business trip. He should have been back by now, but something unexpected happened and he had to stay longer. I spoke to him the other day and we didn't talk about Luca at all, but I could tell that he wanted to ask me how things were. I kind of wish he had because then I'd know that he's worried about me. This is a silly thought, though, and I know it. My dad doesn't have Italian roots so he would rather not meddle in things that he doesn't understand. Of course if he knew all the details of my situation with Mary, he'd intervene,
Luca The evening couldn't have been more perfect, even with Priscilla lingering around like the shadow of an old memory. If I knew that she would be here, I wouldn't have brought Laura. Rather, I wouldn't have come at all. I know what my mother is trying to do and I don't appreciate it whatsoever. She knows what I think about Priscilla. Yes, she was my first love, but whatever transpired between us is in the past. She has no business being here, trying to disrupt my future. I needed her several years ago. I have no use for her now. I glance at Laura. She's listening to something my father is saying attentively. Her hair is down and tucked behind her ear which is adorned by a pearl earring. She looks lovely tonight. Absolutely stunning. I can't stop looking at her, and I'm sure this feeling that I have is never going to go away. I'm waiting for her to finish her dessert so we can get out of here. Although I loved having her here tonight, I wish the circumstances had been different.
I open my eyes and yawn. I had a good night's sleep, and quite frankly, I haven't been this happy in the morning for a long, long time. There's a permanent smile on my face and it's all because of Luca. I can't think about last night without blushing. I never thought that I'd feel this way about him. The change within me is drastic but, frankly, I don't regret it. I'm glad that I changed my mind about him. I keep asking myself how things would have been if I had chosen to ignore his advances. I wouldn't be feeling this way, and it feels almost ludicrous to not feel like this. "Luca," I whisper his name, then touch my lips with my fingertips. I can't begin to describe the way his kiss made me feel. It was like he was prepared to devour me whole. I've never been kissed that way before. And he kissed me without having to touch me anywhere else, and yet that kiss was enough. How would it feel to have his hands all over my body? The thought makes me shudder. I wanted him to touch me, th
A sound of disappointment leaves my lips. I shove my phone back under my pillow and lay my head on it but sleep doesn't come to me. I can't sleep with this feeling burning my chest and ripping me apart. This is the third day that I wake up to absolutely no news from Luca. It's been three whole days since we've last seen each other, and talked for that matter. I knew that something was off that day, but I didn't know just how bad things would get. There has to be a reason. Before, I thought that he needed some time and anyway, we couldn't see each other everyday. He was a busy man, after all. He had things to do. Having lunch with me probably wasn't on his list of top priorities. This made me sad, but it's the truth. We're adults. We have busy lives. I don't, but he has. But he hasn't texted or called. I haven't heard any news from him whatsoever. It's discouraging. Sure, we're not teenagers anymore who constantly text each other and ask how our days went and if we had something to
I can't help but glance at him for the twelfth time. He hadn't said much to me in the car and it reminds me of the last time. Deep inside of me, I can't help but wonder if this is the real Luca and whether all the other versions of him I saw were fake and designed to lure me in. If so, he didn't finish the job. I'm enchanted with him but I could extract myself from this situation if I decide that it's the best decision for me. I won't stay in a toxic pre-relationship simply because I can't admit the facts to myself. The fact is that he has changed. Drastically so. I don't even recognize the man that's sitting beside me in the car. It doesn't feel like he's the same man I danced with and kissed that night a hundred years ago.I give up glancing at him and stare out the window instead. The view of the city is much more pleasant and less confusing. I purse my lips and try to keep my anger superficial. If he wants to see me, it's for a good reason. I tell myself this so I don't freak ou