INICIAR SESIÓNKael I had never been in my own clinic after midnight without a patient on the table. It felt like a church. Or like the aftermath of one.I'd drawn the blinds and left on one lamp, the green-shaded one over the reception desk. The chairs in their row, the corkboard, the child's drawing of a horse. I'd always liked that drawing. Tonight it looked like a witness.It was strange being the only light on in the street. I kept thinking someone would notice and knock, and I'd have to explain to a doctor sitting alone in a dark clinic with the blinds down and a box of other people's secrets.Jo Vance arrived at ten past, carrying a shoebox in a carrier bag and wearing the expression of a woman who'd come to a wedding to object."Doctor.""Ms. Vance.""I'd say it's nice to meet you, but I'd rather not lie in a room we're about to put on the record.""Fair enough." I held the door. "Tea?""God, no. If I drink anything I'll be sick."She set the shoebox on the desk and stood with her arms cros
Marlowe The dress was Thorne's idea. Dark green silk, long sleeves, a high neckline that sat politely against my collarbone. For the board, he said. Something that says capable and calm. He looked rather pleased with himself when he said it. A man dressing a woman for the occasion he's planned to bury her at.Jo got us the fitting by ringing the dressmaker herself. That was the only reason it happened at all. Thorne has a habit of approving things so he can seem gracious, and Jo had worked it out before I did.The shop was three rooms above a florist, all pale carpet and pins. Sable took the chair outside the fitting room with a magazine. The dressmaker, a tiny silent woman with a pincushion strapped to her wrist, handed Jo a mouthful of pins and a piece of chalk, said something about fetching her tape, and drew the curtain across on her way out. I didn't think she'd left by accident.Sable looked up when the curtain closed. Then she looked down again, and turned a page. In the gap b
Marlowe He came to me at half past eleven. I'd been waiting for it since breakfast, and it still sounded like a dropped coin when his shoe touched the landing, small and bright and wrong.I was in the armchair by the window with a blanket round my legs and a novel face-down on my knee, and I hadn't turned on the lamp. The moon laid a long pale rectangle on the carpet. I kept my feet out of it.Thorne's mother had gone to bed at ten, as she always does, with her door shut and her little night-light on. Beatrix's room is at the back, over the kitchen. Sable sleeps two doors down from mine. I'd counted all of them on my fingers before I sat down, like a child before a test, and then I'd sat in the dark and waited to find out which answers I'd got wrong.He didn't knock. He never does when he's been drinking.I should explain that. Thorne doesn't drink. It isn't principle. He just dislikes anything that makes a man's face move without his permission. In three years I'd seen him finish ha
Marlowe I kept the breathing going for forty minutes after his door clicked shut. Four in, five out, the little catch at the end. I'd practised that catch in the dark for weeks and never needed it so badly, and I still don't know what gave me away. A hair on the pillow. A stillness that was too tidy. He knows my sleep better than I do. That was always the trouble with Thorne. He'd read the manual.At six I let myself stop. My jaw ached from not clenching.By eight I was downstairs in the pale blue cardigan, the one I wear when I want to look breakable. Thorne was already at the table with the coffee he wouldn't drink and a face like a freshly ironed shirt. His mother sat at the far end with her toast cut into four triangles, the way she has every morning since before I met her."You slept," Thorne said."Like a stone.""Good." He turned a page of the paper he wasn't reading. "I've some news that will please you."Nothing he calls good news has ever pleased me."Dr. Kael has been work
ThorneI knelt on the dressing-room carpet and picked up the pieces one at a time.It was a good tumbler, heavy cut crystal, one of a pair. Marlowe had bought them on our honeymoon, in a shop in a city whose name I've since stopped using. She had held one up to the light and said, Look, it throws the whole room back at you, and I had thought: yes. That's exactly what she does. I'd kept them both on the shelf above the washstand. Now there was one. The other lay in four clean wedges and a scatter of crystal dust, and I gathered each piece into my handkerchief and folded the corners over, the way you'd wrap something that might still be warm."Oh dear," I said, to the empty room.I like the sound of my own voice at moments like this. It's very even. It reminds me that I haven't done anything.I'd thrown it at the wall because I'd needed to hear something break. That was all. A small, quick, clean release, like a window opened in a hot room. It had worked, too, for a few seconds. And the
Marlowe"No," Kael said."You haven't heard it yet.""I've heard enough." He was standing at the far end of the greenhouse with his back against the potting bench and his arms folded, which I'd learned was how he held himself when he was trying not to reach for something. It was noon. Thorne had gone to the city again and Beatrix was at one of her luncheons, and for ninety minutes the glass house belonged to us. "You want to let him see us.""I want to let him see something.""That's the same sentence, Marlowe.""It's a very different sentence." I turned the little torch in my hands. I'd been turning it for ten minutes. "Think about what he is. For three years I've watched him. He doesn't lose his temper. He doesn't raise his voice. He manages. Every crisis in that house, he's the one who stays calm, and people trust him for it, and they take his word over mine. And the only time I've ever seen the calm slip is when he thinks something might be taken from him.""Such as?""My name on







