Chapter 4

I don't know what time it was but I heard something and it startled me. I looked in the living room window and saw that my dad had gone to bed. I guess he forgot I was outside. I turned around to see if I could see where the noise was coming from but it was too dark on that side of our house. I was about to go inside when I heard "cutie" I said Brooks? He stepped out from behind a tree and said he was sorry for scaring me. I told him it was ok and asked what he was doing. He said he couldn't sleep and was sitting out back when he decided he would come down here and see if I was ok. I told him I was fine and said thank you for being concerned since obviously my dad wasn't when he decided to go to bed.

He asked if he could sit with me for a little while and I said that was fine but we had to be quiet. He sat down on the ground on my pallet and I sat in the chair with a blanket covering me. He scooted my chair closer to him so we wouldn't have to talk as loud. He asked me what I liked to do for fun and I told him I really wasn't into anything besides writing and I sing.

He smiled and said,

“sing me a little something cutie."

I shook my head and covered my face. He said,

“why not? Are you shy singing around other people?"

I nodded my head with my face still covered. He pulled my hands away from my face and his face was really close to mine. I wanted to lean in and kiss him but I was too scared to move so I turned my head. He said,

“look at me cutie."

I turned my head and he smiled at me. He said,

“quit covering your face Crystal. There is nothing to be shy or embarrassed about. Why are you so shy around me?"

I looked at him and said because you are the first guy to ever show any attention to me. Usually, I get laughed at or Ignored. That's why I stay to myself. He got closer to me and for a second I thought he was going to kiss me but he pulled me close to him and hugged me. He said,

“I am sorry you have to deal with immature jackasses like that but I don't understand why they are laughing at you and Ignoring you because you are beautiful Crystal."

I said you don't have to say that to make me feel better Brooks. I have dealt with this since I first started to like boys at 12 years old. It's nothing new for me so you don't have to say I'm beautiful when I'm not. I was a little annoyed at this point with him because I don't need someone telling me crap like that when I know I'm not beautiful. Beautiful is the cheerleaders who have blonde hair and are really skinny with big boobs and a butt and I am over here with light brown hair skinny and I wear a 32 b bra and have no butt. I put my head down.

He lifted my chin and said,

“don't do that to yourself cutie. You are very beautiful."

I shook my head and he leaned in and before I knew what was happening Brooks crashed his lips into mine. I pulled back and sat there staring at him in shock. He backed up and said,

“oh sh*t Crystal. I'm so sorry. I don't know what possessed me to do that. Please don't freak out on me."

I started to cry and he kept apologizing to me. I said that was my first kiss. He said,

“was it really?"

I nodded and he said he was sorry for stealing my first kiss. I wiped the tears that were rolling down my cheek and said I'm ok quit apologizing to me you didn't know. He asked me not to tell anyone he did that and I told him I would keep it between us.

I started blushing and he asked what was on my mind. I said honestly I was thinking about doing this and I leaned forward and kissed him. This time he was the one who pulled back and was staring at me. I said I'm sorry I shouldn't have done that Brooks. I don't know what is going on with me but when I am around you, it's like I get this little boost of confidence and I act like a different person.

He smiled at me and said,

“Crystal, it's ok. I understand like I said earlier you are attracted to me and it's hard to fight those urges. I will be honest with you, I have the urge to kiss you again and not just a peck either but I know I have to go soon and I don't want to start something I can't finish and leave you thinking you did something wrong so I am going to behave but just so you know I do have urges when it comes to you as well."

He left not too long after that and I laid back down and tried to get some sleep but the taste of his lips was still fresh and I couldn't stop smiling and blushing.

When I woke up, I gathered my things and when I picked my journal up, there was a piece of paper under it. I unfolded the paper and read,

*** {"Hey cutie, just wanted to say I enjoyed hanging out with you. I couldn't stop smiling when I got home and I woke up in a good mood. I promise I didn't read anything in your journal I just tore a piece of paper out and I put it back. By the way, you are beautiful when you sleep too. Sorry I know that sounded creepy but I couldn't help it. Lol, see you later hopefully. ~Brooks"} ***

I smiled and put the note in my journal and headed inside.