54. ~Aurora~

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In the past three months, Rowan and I had done great job in convincing each and every one of our friends and family that we were actually giving our relationship a try, so much so that Gaby, Eric and Zoe who knew the truth had also started to believe that we had worked things out and were blissfully happy.

No one knew that this was far from the truth.

I paced my room as I waited for the rest of my family and friends to get here. We were announcing the pregnancy to them tonight.

I sighed.

I had let Rowan move back to the main bedroom. I mean, what was the point in separate bedrooms when I was letting him do as he pleases anyway?

I was so ashamed of myself for being so spineless. But the fact remained that, as Cristina Yang said, being aware of your crap and actually getting over that crap were two completely different things.

I was absolutely aware of my crap, yes, but I still refused to get over it.

I needed to have more self-respect.

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