I can see clearly that he meant what he said. I can't believe it—that this is how it will end. "Is that what you really want?" I asked in hopes for another dose of positive change. He looked at me and laughed with contempt. "Tell me something Tessy. Has this ever been about what I wanted?" "Excusez-moi", I said. "You're talking like you haven't been enjoying every second of it.""It's been fun," he said casually."Fun? Just Fun?". I can't believe it ."Of course. Fun. A blast. A time of my life," Jon said. "What else do you want from me, Tess." He looked at me with sadness in his eyes, and I noticed he didn't include the 'y' in 'Tessy'. He only calls me 'Tess' during sex. Oh my goodness! Is Jon trying to tell me something? Is this a hint for me to say the "L" word first?"I want you to want me. For more than just fun," I said looking at him with puppy-doe eyes. He sighed and shook his head, "Okay, Tess. I want you. I want you all to myself. Happy now?"Exhaustively, he ran his
I breezed along the wedding plan—adding finishing touches to the wedding plans, cross checking the guest list, surveying the venue, re-doing the same thing over again. And, returning home to Max after having sweaty, intensed sex with his best man. Honestly, I really don't know how to go about my break up with Max so I just occupy myself with the wedding arrangements. In the quest of finding a sign to wed Max or abort mission, I invited the priest who will be wedding Max and I to dinner. I didn't have anything in mind to discuss with him, I just invited him with the mindset that something will turn up and a conversation that will lead to the final conclusion about my wedding will come up, but he cancelled at the last minute. The moment the priest cancelled, I knew that I have to break up with Max, and the sooner I do it, the better for everyone, including him. Because if it isn't a sign from God, then it's a sign from the devil. This will really be a hard hit on Max, worse, he will
I arrived at Jon's apartment and I reached for the door which is slightly opened, he is on a call and I heard something that sounds like, "oh c'mon Alex."Alex? What the actual fuck! That little, tiny, scrawny, cringe worthy, pale looking human with no zero fashion taste called Alex! The Alex that walked in on me naked in my Jon's room, is the same Alex that he is on the phone with? I thought we've settled this issue? I thought we've agreed that I'm calling off the wedding. I mean, Alex isn't worthy to be Jon's other woman! I stormed into the parlor, snatched the ridiculous phone from Jon's hand and said into the phone, "bye Alex. I'm here with my man now!" "Oh c'mon Tess." Jon said casually."You promised me, Jon," I said as I tossed his phone on the couch. "Promised what?""Oh puh. . . . Pleassseee. I'm calling off the wedding. It's you and I from now on." I replied."So, what promise? Tess." He asked again.Suddenly, it dawned on me that there was never a promise. So I decided t
For some days now, I've been feeling less of myself, less of Tessy Johnson. Going to work now, it's like a burden—I wake up so late even when I go to bed early, I'm always dizzy at work especially when I stare at the monitor for too long, I'm always tired and I yawn like someone who hasn't eaten for days."What's up with you, Tessy?" Vanessa asked. She just walked into my office as she normally does when she wants to dish out juicy gossip. "I'm okay," I replied and continued with my work. "You look flush and— . . . "."Is it hot in here? It is, right?" I asked, interrupting her. I took an old magazine on my desk and started fanning myself."No it's not. You sure you're okay? You look red, she asked with a mother-like tone that reminded me of my Aunt Stephanie."Girl, I don't know. A bit tired lately." " You prolly haven't been getting enough sleep," She said. Looking at me inquisitively.Which I know it isn't true because I have been sleeping fine. Max is mostly out of the city fo
Jon kept knocking on the bathroom door. "It's everything alright in there?" he asked in a comforting voice.I came out, holding the test and I stretched out my hands to give it to him. But, he didn't take it. "What's it say?" He asked."Congratulations, Daddy," I squealed."Huh, No way". He looked bewildered."Yes way.""You're kidding. Right?" "Nope. I'm pregnant."Jon walked glumly to his bed and laid on the bed, facing upwards. I laid next to him, took his hands, and waited for more. Perhaps an embrace, a kiss, a gentle touch, a few tears or a *'I'm proud of us'* moment. "Are . . . .you sure. . . it's mine?""Yes," I said. "You know, that question is insulting and it saddens my heart. I haven't had sex with Max since—well, since forever. And you know I'm telling the truth.""Are you really sure about that? What of this month? Not once? This isn't the time to be exaggerating. Tess.""Yes. I'm completely sure," I said firmly. It is the truth. I remembered Andrew, my high school f
I walked into the office complex smiling to myself. The idea of having Jon's baby is so thrilling. I understand the shock he got from this new discovery, perhaps that's his own way of expressing happiness, and I know Jon is one of those guys that can't be controlled, but being pregnant with his child will tighten my grip around his neck. "Look who's smiling."I turned around to see Vanessa walking towards me with a bag filled with *McDonalds* and the other hand carrying two large cups of coke."Who are those for?" I asked smiling."You weren't in a good mood today, so I decided to turn up with your typical *'unhealthy fatty'* foods that cheers you up". Vanessa is really beaming with smiles and that's what I love most about her. Always playing the 'caring mother' in our relationship. I ran and hugged her tightly. "Awwwwww Tessy love. I know planning a wedding is so hard. C'mon let's go. These burgers won't eat themselves, would they?"* * * * * * * * * * * *We found our way to an ab
I woke up very early and strode to my living room in my nightwear. Max moved out of my apartment to his house last night, he just took his clothes and he will be coming back later for the rest of his belongings. I made myself a cup of coffee, went back to my dressing room to pick clothes. I'll be going to inform Sandra that my wedding has been cancelled and as such, she's been relieved of her maid of honor duties till further notice.* * * * * * * * * * * *I arrived at Sandra's apartment on the Park Avenue East. * * * * * * * * * * * * *"What's wrong?" She asked as she answered the door.I suddenly got this wave of comfort as those familiar words of hers soothed me. Sandra is a true friend, and every time she asks me*'what's wrong'*, she's goes Into *mommy bear* mode and follows it up with a *'everything's gonna be alright'*. Sandra can fix anything, which always makes me feel better.I took a deep breath and walked into her orderly, neat and standard apartment. She was rattling ab
"You liar!" I screamed at him as I began to hyperventilate. Honestly, I am accustomed to drama. I invented drama. I thrive on drama. I am the drama. But not this kind. Not the kind of drama that I didn't control from the onset. Max got out of the closet and started dressing calmly, putting one foot and then the other into his jeans, zipping defiantly. There isn't a trace of guilt on his face. It was as if I had only accused him of stealing the covers at night or stealing my Fox's Fabulous Chocolate Cookies that I love to eat with ice cream. "You fucking lied to me!" I shouted again, louder this time."You have got to be kidding me," he said. His baritone voice sounds shockingly low. "Fuck you, Tessy."In all my life as a woman, no man has ever said *that* to me. And, in my years with Max, he has never said those words to me. Those are my words of last resort. Not his. I decided to try again. "You said there was nobody else in the picture! And you're fucking my best friend!" I shou