I couldn’t stop smiling as I watched Ivana dance with the new choreography teacher. Her every shout makes it so funny, but deep down I was happy, happy that she was spotted by that lady.I shook my head, she was truly clueless, she lost her steps each time, Ava would always hold her up and the reactions on Ivana’s face was so cute. I can’t wait to tell her how badly she has done.The practice ended and I watched her hold her waist and her step changed as she leaned to Kate before walking out, this must be tough.Director Donald and the two female choreography teachers walked out of the hall, followed by the others. I quickly got up when I saw the girl who had set her foot for Ivana to trip and get up to leave.I purposely set my foot and she tripped and fell and this time her forehead hit the hard surface. “Who was that?!” She shouted as she turned around holding her sore forehead, but she became silent when she saw me.“Does it hurt?” I asked indifferently, I was not going to pretend
As I walked out with Hinn Carlos, I turned around to see Robin leave with Ryan, I looked up at Hinn’s face to see him smirking and for a moment I wanted to ignore it, but then I couldn’t.I halted in my step and looked at Hinn Carlos as I left his hands. “I think you are alright,” I told him and for a moment he was speechless and Kate was right behind me watching.“Ivana…”“Don’t you think you are being so mean and insensitive to Robin, you shouldn’t always use his past against him, you should be his friend and not an enemy Hinn.” I spit the words out, not minding if Kate was here watching us with the looks of what-the-heck-are-you-saying-Ivana.Hinn scoffed and put his hands into his pocket. “You act like you know Robin’s past, Ivana,” I was mute as I listened to him. “Don’t tell me you do because you live in his house.” Hinn shook his head. “I have told you this and I am sure Robin has said it to you too, do not get attached to him, you may end up hurt.”“Don’t try to change the top
I returned home and stood by the pillar in the balcony on the second floor close to my room and Ivana’s as I watched the horizon with distant eyes. I looked down at the glass of whiskey I held in my hands. I haven’t opened it yet and haven’t taken a sip of it. I despise alcohol. I have seen how it makes a person who takes it in excess behave. I have seen how my mother behaved after taking this.But I am considering it right now, to take a sip. Just like my mother, it could drown away my sadness and make me happy again. It could relieve me from all the pain I feel down there in my heart.Perhaps after taking a large gulp of this whiskey I would no longer remember the pain I had felt in the past and this aching heart I feel now will stop. I have asked myself multiple times why I let the things that happened to my parents affect me so much, I have tried to pass that test, to stop myself from hiding in the past entanglement, I have tried to associate with people, maybe I may overcome al
“Love is not a poison Robin!” Ivana called out behind me and I turned around to look at her. This was the first person who had said what I thought about love out loud like this.“What do you know about love?” I asked her, my brows were raised, she was saying what I have believed for years was not true.“Love can never be poisonous!” She barked as more tears streamed down her eyes and I was shocked, it was as if she said that to make the things that had clouded it for years vanish.She stepped closer to me, her blue eyes locked with mine as her lips moved. “I will show you, I will show you that love isn’t a poison.”I scoffed at her bravery. “And how do you propose to do so?” My lips twitched, I thought she would teach me how to love, but seeing her walk away with Hinn Carlos made me drop those hopes. I didn’t want to have them anymore.“I will cover your heart and the pains in them with flowers.” She said softly and I blinked. Was this girl sick, what the heck was she saying now?“I d
"I'm fine mom.” I flashed a smile to make her believe I was really fine, I wouldn’t want to bother my mother.“If you say so.” My mother said after hesitation, I know she doesn’t quite believe in it, but since she didn’t stay with me for those long years, there was no way she could tell I was lying from my poker face.She turned to Ivana and looked her all over. “Why do you look so pale Ivana, did Robin maltreat you while I was away?” She asked Ivana and I scoffed behind them.“Mom, I am not a stepmother or something like that,” I told her as I rolled her luggage into the living room.“You can tell me the truth Ivana, did he treat you badly while I was away?” My mother asked her and I glanced over Ivana.“No he didn’t,” She said softly, but I know she was trying to keep the times I treated her badly from my mother, I smiled where I was, I know I wouldn’t want to treat her badly anymore. “We had a practice yesterday and my whole body aches, that must be the reason.” Ivana finished.MY
“Ordean, it is time for you to let go of the hate you have for your father, it is time for you to forgive him.” Mrs Jane told me and I staggered backwards, shocked to hear her say that.The memories of what my father had done to me, what he had done to my mother flashed in through my mind like a rushing wave and my heart felt like it was filled with thorns as I gazed at my mother as if she was a stranger.“Robin…” She called out to me and tried to reach me with her hands but I stepped backwards. “Why?” I asked her in a hoarse voice. “Why should I? Why would you?” I shook my head at her. “Why would I forgive him after all he did?” I raised my voice as my heart was numb.I watched tears roll down my mother’s cheek again, it hurts me even more that she was still crying because of that man. “Robin, no matter what he did, I don’t want it to destroy us, we have had that hurt in our heart so much and it could consume us if we don’t let it go.” She voiced out and I shook my head.“No, you st
I paced around the sitting room after Mrs Jane called Robin up. I was a bit uneasy since I noticed the look on Mrs Jane’s face when she said she wanted to speak with Robin.I glanced at the wall clock, it was over 30 minutes and they were still upstairs and talking. I heard Robin’s voice and I turned to look upstairs. I wondered what was going on. I could also hear a light sob, that was when I knew something was wrong so I slowly walked upstairs.I wasn’t meant to eavesdrop, but I heard no choice, not when I saw Mrs Jane in tears and Robin in the same expression I saw him when Hinn Carlos had said those words to him.I hide behind the pillar close to the stairs as I heard Mrs Jane tell Robin to forgive his father, tears brimmed in my eyes as I heard all the things Mrs Jane said and also what Robin said about his father, but what made me shocked was when Mrs Jane told Robin that she slept with his father against his father’s will.I clasped my hands to my lips as my tears rolled down a
I drove in circles for a while before driving to the beach. All through the ride, Robin had said nothing and I didn’t ask him anything, if it meant just staying silent with him, at least he wasn’t alone.I couldn’t tell the pain he has gone through as a child, it would be odd if I were to think I understand when I don’t.I looked over at him when I stopped the car, he was still staring outside the window, the sun was almost setting and the beach was only left with few others that were leaving already.Robin gently stepped out of the car and I did too, he walked towards the water before halting. I watched his back for a long time, he was silent, I couldn’t tell what was displayed in his thoughts, it has been hours since he spoke a word and I was a bit worried.I walked over to his side and gazed at his face, he wasn’t looking at me, he was only staring at the water that was bathed with the setting sun.“All my life has been a series of coldness.” He parted his lips to speak and I was a