Xavier slept with me anyway.I turned on my side with my back to him, and his hand naturally came around in a semi-circle, pressing my back against his chest.I couldn't have been more comfortable in this position. With a leaning back and protection in front of me, I felt at ease. Last night I fell asleep with such peace of mind, not having a single messy dream, and slept until dawn.I don't know what happened, but Xavier was holding me naturally last night, and now he's stiff as a robot, and his hands are still hanging in the air, not even close to me.With my eyes closed, I squinted for a while and finally couldn't help but ask, "Aren't your hands tired?I heard a subtle gagging sound from behind me, and then I heard Xavier say, "I'm afraid I'm going to crush your stomach."I thought, "Why wasn't he afraid of pressing against my stomach last night? Suddenly I remembered that I had just told him that I had a hard time being pregnant."Then I'll tu

I waited for Xavier to say more, but who knew that he wasn't going to continue after half a sentence."You're not going to go on, are you?" I looked at him grumblingly."Say what?" He lifted his eyelashes and looked at me with a face full of justification, as if everything had nothing to do with me.How can it be none of my business? Does he think I can still stay out of it now?"What do you mean by 'used to be, not now', say it more clearly."He lowered his eyelashes, and when he raised them again, he snatched the shower out of my hand with a speed I couldn't see and turned his back on me.His voice came along with the sound of the water running."Leila, you just focus on your own business. When you need help, call me. As for other things, you should not get involved."He turned around and I saw that his back was covered with scars. The old scars were from the debris that had cut him when the Sin Pack exploded. The new scars, from a knife cut

The answer I expected was "yes", but unfortunately...Until Xavier left the next day, he didn' t give me a definite answer.He just said, "Whatever you decide, I will take care of you."I couldn' t stop laughing.I don' t want to be taken care of, I don' t have a broken arm or leg, I can' t take care of myself, I want to start a family with him.I want his answer in the affirmative.The next day, it was another appointment for a checkup.I had seven tubes of blood drawn and sent for testing, after which I was so weak I was walking.Xavier tried to help me, but I was too angry to ignore him.When I got back to Xavier' s mom' s office, she opened the door and grabbed me."Xavier, why don' t you just stay there and go down and get her food."Only Xavier' s parents could tell him to do something in such a casual tone, and he had to say, "Okay."He gave me a look before he left, but I was still angry with him for not answering me last night and turned my back on him.Xavier' s mom saw some

At my insistence, Xavier' s mother compromised.She agreed to let me go, but the bottom line was that I had to rest for at least ten days before leaving.I was so anxious that I couldn' t fly there immediately, but I knew that if I insisted, Xavier' s mother might not let me go at all, so I agreed.I don' t know how I made it through those ten days of waiting.I asked Xavier' s mom about it and learned that Xavier had been attacked by an unknown person while on a mission in Sin Pack. The other party came to Sin Pack disguised as a rogue and was arrested, but on his first day at Sin Pack he launched a suicide attack and managed to injure Xavier seriously.Seriously injured, life or death is not known.I begged Xavier' s mother to show me pictures of Xavier' s injuries, but no matter how much I begged her, she refused to show me, perhaps because she was afraid I would break down after seeing them.Occasionally, I opened my phone, but I was the only one talking to myself in the chat wind

However, such a good opportunity for the two to explain alone, Xavier did not take.He remained silent.I was angry and didn' t open my mouth, and he just kept looking at me from all sides.Was he the Xavier I had been thinking about all this time?I thought we would cry together, I thought he would kiss me, I thought he would shed tears, I thought he would at least show his excitement and surprise, but instead... None of it.Instead, there was a false girl - Bonnie - who shouldn' t have been there.Xavier had lost a lot of weight and looked like he was recovering from a serious illness. He is very haggard, but this can not hide the superior natural face, no wonder why some girls do not feed him with their hands, but must spit to him with their mouths.I finally couldn' t stand the silence anymore."Xavier, are you really not going to explain to me what' s going on? Is it useful to play dumb?"Faced with my questioning, Xavier asked me unexpectedly in return."Explain what?"Seriously