Semua Bab Dared to love: Bab 101 - Bab 110

"I'm sorry, what?!" Lorraine exclaimed"Talk to him, Lorraine. Talk to DeAngelo" she repeated and Lorraine was astonished"I know you, Lorraine, you are not good with holding grudges or with conflict. You are not going to be able to do this without talking out and settling your issue with DeAngelo, and like you said this will set your career curve on the right path, so obviously this art convention is that important to you as well. You shouldn't give that up because of some boy trouble, it is after all what you went to Italy to do.", As Maia spoke, Lorraine agreed with all the reasons she shouldn't give up the convention.There was still the issue of what she'd do about Clay. She knew there was no way she was going to work with DeAngelo without Clay finding out the unflattering details of their relationship, and she did not want to keep this a secret from him either.Slowly, Maia's voice began to distort into an echoing backdrop as Lorraine fell deep into a trance of her thoughts."L

Lorraine walked around still feeling mushy over her steamy moment with Clay. Recollecting the recent memories, she felt a sudden chill run down her body and shuddered at the thought of it.'Remember what happened last time you felt this way Lorraine', she muttered to herself and then shook her head dismissively, walked towards a couch and gently lowered herself into it.'It's not like you can get more pregnant' She thought and then again quickly shook her head, and pulled out her phone to distract herself from these intrusive thoughts.She logged on to the hotel's website and checked that her reservation was still active.As she quickly navigated the company's website, Lorraine heard the clocking of shoes on the marble floors, slowly approaching her, she lifted her gaze and was dazzled when she saw Clay dressed in a tuxedo.To say he was handsome would be an understatement. Dressed in a seal blue tuxedo with red bottom Italian shoes, with his hair ruffled to perfection, Clay was the e

Clay adjusted in his seat with a puzzled look on his face and asked"What is it?" Lorraine drew a deep breath and heaved a sighThis was the point of the evening she had dreaded most, and almost wished that she didn't have to tell him. But it was what was right for their marriage and didn't want it to blow up into a huge problem that might cause them to drift apart later on.She took another sip of her apple juice and suddenly, the atmosphere of the room seemed sullen and dreadful"Lorraine?" Clay said with a raised eyebrow"Okay," she said and leaned forward"But I need you to promise me that you will not freak out or get mad. Okay?" She askedClay was getting more anxious by the minute"What is it, Lorraine?" He repeated more assertively this time"Remember the guy you saw at the hospital and then at the school?" Lorraine asked and immediately, Clay could feel his heart beating faster and his eyebrows creased He suddenly became tensed but still managed to keep his composure"Well,

"...You are incredibly talented and I know I've said that a lot, but I don't think you believe it. Probably because I'm not an artist like you" Clay said and joked"That is why I want you to do this, to go to this Art Convention and blow their minds with your piece. Maybe then you'll believe everything I've been telling you about how great an artist you are", he said endearingly and Lorraine felt her stomach fill with butterflies Without thinking much about it, she leaned in and kissed him on the cheek"Listen. I know neither of us prepared for this pregnancy, but I want you to know that I'm going to be here, every step of the way. It's okay to feel scared about it, I am too. I'm worried that I might not be a good father, I'm not even sure I am a good husband" he said in a low tone and Lorraine immediately interjected"You're going to be a great dad Clay," she said with a smile"Although you could work on your husband skills", "Really? You gifted Maia a Mercedes but not me?" she joke

After Clay left for work, Lorraine felt more anxious about meeting with Caterina. Although she knew it was high time they put their grievances behind them, she was more worried about how their friendship was supposed to progress from here on. Were they supposed to act like nothing ever happened and resume their friendship on the same note?These thoughts occupied her mind for long and soon she contemplated canceling their meeting.This was all new to her. When it came to fight or flight, she always picked flight. It was easier to just move past things than to spend her time trying to fix broken relationships.At this point, she began to wonder when this became her fundamental viewpoint and traced it back to her high school. Back when Lorraine was in high school, she was having a tough time breaking out of her shell and it didn't help that she already felt like a nomad. She would skip school to go paint in the abandoned attic and after several complaints from teachers and detention,