RavenWalking in, I throw down my keys, my hand reaching up and swinging the cupboard open. Pausing, I stand confused, where did the alcohol go? The cupboard was full. Moving, I search the fridge, but it’s the same, empty of any alcohol.“Raven.” I turn and face Dave. “You won’t find anything in there.”“What? Why are you here?”“I have watched Raven, every night you come back drunk, barely able to walk. It ends now.” I laugh at his words.“You can’t stop me! I’m doing nothing wrong!” It’s not like I’m an angry drunk or a drunk who throws up down themselves.“Raven, look at you. Make no wonder why things went bad if this is how you acted. It stops now, I don’t care what I have to do.” He grabs my keys and walks to the door. He thinks things went bad because I drank? He has no fucking idea.“So what? You’re going to follow me around and make sure I don’t drink? You can’t follow me for life!” I scream and watch him walk out and lock the door, wait, no!“I won’t be unlocking the door, Ra

RavenI wake for what feels like the tenth thousand time and I’m in Grayson’s arms still. I vaguely remember constantly waking up screaming after the nightmares, Grayson telling me I was fine, and then I was running to the toilet. Last night wasn’t as bad though, I had nightmares twice, but I wasn’t sick. Somehow it wasn’t as bad as the first night.“How do you feel?” He looks at me waiting.How do I feel? “Lost.” That is all I feel right now.“Do you think you could eat, even something small?” He looks at me and I nod. “Okay, I got Ashton to bring in some of your stuff, so if you have the energy, get a shower, change clothes and such.” He points to the chair and walks out.Moving slowly, I get out of bed and walk to the chair, grabbing the things I go into his bathroom. I feel weak, too weak. Getting showered I dry and get dressed, brushing my teeth and hair. I feel more like me, the me before I drank to hide things, and it’s scary.Standing I look in the mirror and fight back the te

RavenI have already noticed Ashton reads my signs, so I used them to trick him and it worked. He looks so shocked that I won again. I can’t help but laugh.“At least you didn’t lose entirely Ashton.” I grin at him and turn to Grayson. Okay, so now a dare for him? After Ashton had me dance on Grayson, Grayson got his own back and had me dance for Ashton. He clearly thought it would taunt him but Ashton like a champ relaxed back and just enjoyed it.“Well, come on?” Grayson looks at me waiting.“I dare you to strip…” My words are stopped when he says fine. “Woah, slow down there, I wasn’t finished. I want you to strip while dancing for me, by strip I mean everything.” He stands shocked, he was about to pull off his top and is now standing still. I think I won, he won’t agree, so I win.“Fine.” His word shocks me, Ashton and Emmett laugh as the music begins, and they are looking like I fucked up, why? Even if he agrees, he will be embarrassed and unable to. Grayson dances in front of me

RavenI watch the Caddel brothers. Grayson quickly disappeared with Ellie, walking up I watch which room they go in. They can stop me, I can stop them. I stand and consider my move.Not long after, Grayson walks out and fastens his trousers, I watch him walk downstairs. Moving, I walk into the room and see Ellie, turning she looks at me. Her hair is a mess, and her lipstick is smudged. Okay, so make her see nothing happened, but taunt her into fucking a random guy?“I’m sorry if I hurt you, Ellie.” I smile at her and she shrugs.“You didn’t.” Her words are sour.“Clearly, as you two seem to be doing great.” I laugh and she glares. “Look, I know he likes you. I just wanted you to know nothing happened. We didn’t fuck, he only fucks you.”She laughs at my words. “He doesn’t fuck me.”I stare at her confused.“Okay, we do, but rarely. It’s been a month. I get he pushes me away, I get people see us together and will see me as a way to hurt him. Pushing me away is one thing, everything is

I had watched as Raven practically skipped out of that party. She had looked so pleased with herself. Rage burned through me, but I couldn’t do shit, something about her immobilises me, any other woman I would have made pay, but not fucking her. Ellie tried to defend her actions, which made me feel angry. I've not once fucked anyone else while with Ellie, so her claiming she thought I had infuriated me more. Then she claimed I used her, that I took pleasure and never gave anything back. When l asked about what we did this morning, after I chased her and caught up with her, she quickly shut up knowing she had lied to Raven.Still, I was pissed at Raven. Sure I stopped her and Jasper, but that was me being nice. So, after fucking off Ellie, I sent out a warning. She thought I was blocking her before, I had to prove I really could.Then, well, things went downhill and fast. Getting back before Emmett, I walked straight to the gym and began beating the bag.Less than five minutes later, I