In Love and Hate With My Stepbrothers のすべてのチャプター: チャプター 81 - チャプター 90

"Bee," Harry says in a tiny voice, "I haven't been with anyone but you in almost two months. I thought I had this issue under control but I don't. I need someone else." What the fuck is going on? "And I said yes. I said go and get her," she repeats, slower this time, "But you can't force me to stay here and let you fuck someone else in our house, too. You've cheated on me in every other corner of this earth, except here. I can’t believe you’re even stooping this low." "Shh," Aiden says and puts a hand over my mouth because, apparently, I'm crying. I don't even know why, don't ask. "I hear what I’m saying and I fucking hate myself too, but I'm losing my mind. I have a problem," Harry admits in a raw voice, "I can't fuck you as much as I need or in the way that I need right now, you wouldn't like it. I wouldn't like it, either." Agh, fuck, I really don't want to hear this. I think Aiden knows, because he moves both of his hands to cover my ears. Uselessly, though, because

"Mm, no. I can’t believe that you're not angry," I say, remembering Aiden's words, "You're just pretending to be okay just to get your r..." "No, no, I'm not pretending. It's you, Lily," he says, as if that explains anything, "You could stab me in the chest ten times, you could slash my neck wide open and I would jerk off while I die. I would love to die because you killed me passionately. That would honestly be such a good death.” "Oh my god, you're sick," I let out, worried. I try to move away from him, but he slides closer, "You said you're not that bad anymore. Are you still taking meds?" "Yes, but not even that many because I AM better," he repeats. I don't believe him, "And I'm half-joking, okay? Or more like, being poetic and romantic. You wanna know how good I am now?" I sigh, but nod. "I considered for one second... using your feelings to get what I want. When I started crying and your face got so open and guilty, I thought I could use your guilt and exploit it unti

"What are you scheming?" she asks, biting down on her lip. I wish I could as for what I really want, but I know it's not the moment, “I won’t sleep with you.” "I never said I wanted to fuck you, baby. I just want to talk," I say, Lily gives me a look of disbelief, "I mean, I always want to fuck you, but right now… I mostly just want you to talk to me like you used to talk to Aiden. Fucking hours and hours, every night. I don’t know how you didn’t get bored.” "Because Aiden is so smart and he has an opinion on everything, but it’s always objective and he can somehow put himself in everyone’s shoes, so talking to him gave me a bigger outlook of any situation,” she says, actually responding to my rude comment while she lays down next to me. I just roll my eyes but I give her a pillow so she’s comfy, “You also felt left out of our conversations while you stalked us?" "I never paid that much attention to the actual conversation, I hate Aiden’s conversations BECAUSE he has an opinion

"I always thought it was so cute when you were jealous but tried to hide it. It's kind of exciting to see you..." I start to say, but Aiden turns to give me the most murderous eyes he has ever given me, "... doing it again." "You don't know what the fuck you're talking about," he growls and opens his door but points at my face with a finger before walking in, "Stay outside, you're not welcome here." "Aiden," I say with a soft voice, losing the amused smile. It is fascinating to see him acting so rattled and emotional, but I think it is because he's hurt. And I never want to hurt him, "You're the most important man in my life. You know that already, right? Since you know everything.” The way he takes a deep breath makes his chest and shoulders look even bigger. He holds his breath for a few seconds before letting it out. "No, I didn’t know, because that's not what you've shown me," he mutters, voice deep and shoulders tense, "So let's just g–“ "But it's the truth," I push, b

My mom drives away and we're both in tense silence the whole time. I wanted to have a deep talk with her today, but I'm honestly exhausted. That shit-show back in the house was insane in a lot of ways. I feel like I lived two years and it was just two hours. Damon being in love with me is the biggest shock, though. The biggest plot twist of my life. Him being so nice when I was in his bed is messing with my head. And that kiss he gave me was so fucking good. It really got me by surprise. He made it sweet and sensual… then I made it deeper, because I wanted more. I wanted to feel him. Damon's lips are going to be branded into my brain forever, his words too. And the fact that he basically defended me from Aiden during that fight. Damon, my biggest bully, defended me from the former most important man of my life (He has been removed from the position because of what he said to me). Don’t get me wrong, I still think that Damon is not to be trusted, but… he’s just so fucking