My heart, which had been rattling around my ribcage like a panicked bird, gradually calmed.The constant, low-grade hum of anxiety about Soraya, about Nicky, about Benji’s bones, just… faded into the white noise of the mist. I felt myself go soft. The tension that lived in my shoulders, my jaw, my spine, began to melt away without any conscious effort.I took a deep, clean breath of the damp air and let it out slowly.I leaned over the edge of the boat, the polished wood cool against my palms, and put out a hand to trail my fingers in the water.It was chilly, a sharp, bracing cold that seemed to cut through the last of the mental fog. It felt clean. Purifying, even.I stared at my own reflection in the rippling, dark surface. It kept shifting, breaking up into fragments, then slowly reforming. It was mesmerising.When was the last time I just sat and did nothing? I wondered, watching my watery doppelgänger. When did I last feel safe enough to not be constantly worrying, scheming, or l
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