Chapter 1

My name was Heidi McFarrell. On the way to the campus clinic with my boyfriend, Michael Buckley, the urges overwhelmed me again. It felt like countless snakes wriggling inside me. The itch was unbearable.My eyes glazed over. I pressed my legs tightly together, searching Michael's face for help. "You little slut," he muttered under his breath.Tears streamed down my cheeks. In the beginning, Michael had always indulged my impulses, but as time passed, he simply couldn't cope. He picked up a can from the ground and handed it to me. "Deal with it yourself."The can, though, wasn't quite long enough. Speechless, Michael returned to the trash bin and dug out a bottle for me.I stepped into a small grove. After slipping off my pants, I was ready. Suddenly, someone hugged me from behind. I thought it was Michael.Panting, I spun around—only to find it wasn't him. I tried to push the man away and run, but his grip was tight. I screamed for Michael, but there was no answer.In a grove th

Chapter 2

Jerry stood and picked up a tissue from the table. As I watched him wipe those familiar traces from his face and hands, I was completely mortified and furious.I was such a slut. I hadn't been able to control myself for even a moment. My fluids were all over Jerry. His clean clothes were ruined. "S-sorry… I didn't mean it," I murmured."These reactions are normal. I only see you as a patient," Jerry said in a gentle voice. I felt my tension ease immediately. However, the moment I lowered my leg, he said, "Keep it up; the examination isn't over." I had no choice but to obey.After finishing the examination, he pulled out his phone and began taking pictures. Seeing me hesitate, he explained, "It's too dark down there; I can't see properly."I was utterly mortified and wished I could disappear. I'd thought a little medication would be enough—who knew the checkup would be this thorough? I should have shaved in the dorm earlier.After studying the photos for a while, Jerry finally id

Chapter 3

It felt like I'd been struck by lightning. I never expected this to be the "tool" Jerry had been talking about.He hastily pulled up his pants and returned to his typical indifferent demeanor. With that emotionless mask, it was as if the person from before had been someone else entirely."Based on my examination, you'll need the largest size." Jerry's expression remained serious as he walked me through the instructions and safety guidelines.My thoughts were entirely taken over by his jaw-dropping member. I even felt a flicker of regret—if I hadn't pulled back the curtain, would I have gotten to experience him inside me? It would have been so much more intense than anything I'd ever felt with Michael.Lost in my own mind, my body grew hot and restless. Thirst clawed at me, and I reached for the water bottle nearby. Believing it had been placed there for me, I lifted it to my lips without hesitation.As Jerry looked up and saw me grab the bottle, his expression immediately darkened

Chapter 4

Jerry quickly lost his patience. This time, his movements were rough. It felt like I was nothing more than a tool for him to fulfill his desires.Yet, in the end, he still wasn't satisfied. He went on for too long. Michael knocked repeatedly on the door to hurry us up. I covered my mouth, afraid a sound might escape.Finally, Michael couldn't wait any longer. Just as he was about to break in, Jerry reluctantly pulled his pants back up.It felt like a massive truck had run me over. I was barely holding myself together. It took a long time before I felt brave enough to step outside.When Michael asked why I'd taken so long, I tossed out a random excuse to dodge the question. Seeing that he didn't press the matter, I finally let myself relax.Unlike me, Jerry looked entirely unfazed. He seemed to hold none of the guilt and unease I carried. He acted as if he had not been the one who had driven me to the edge."Your partner isn't in any serious condition. I've gone over the treatment

Chapter 5

On Monday, I didn't go to the appointment. Michael was with me, and I couldn't come up with an excuse to leave. Besides, I was too scared to go. I didn't want to get pulled in any deeper.One time would lead to another, and then it would never end. The more I let it happen, the more power Jerry would have over me.That night, I sat anxiously until dawn. Luckily, nothing happened. It seemed as if he hadn't exposed me. …Before I knew it, noon of the following day rolled around. While we were having lunch in the cafeteria, Michael's phone rang."Your girlfriend cheated. I have proof.""Baby, someone said you betrayed me."I nearly stumbled in shock. "What?""Nonsense! I just hung up. How could they accuse you of cheating? I don't believe it for a second.""Exactly. Hanging up was the smart move. It was probably just a prank call."I struggled to keep a straight face, afraid of letting anything slip. Still, tiny beads of sweat dotted my forehead.After leaving Michael, I rushe

Chapter 6

On the way back to campus, I couldn't stop thinking about everything that had happened. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't make sense of it.The only people who knew about my urges were Michael and Jerry. The person who drugged me had to be one of the two.I decided to keep a close watch on Michael and installed a spying app on his phone. However, nothing seemed amiss.If he wasn't the culprit, then Jerry was the only other possibility. After following him for quite some time, I still didn't notice anything out of the ordinary.However, once he went into the clinic, I had no way to keep track of him. I decided to wait around the campus clinic all day. When Jerry went to the restroom, I secretly took his keys.I hid in the women's restroom at the campus clinic. After the lights went out and the building closed for the night, I used the key to slip into Jerry's office. I searched everywhere but came up empty-handed.The only thing I found was a locked notebook. It was almost da