KABANATA 59:

I wasn't in myself while doing my job. Masyado akong na-conscious sa galaw ko dahil nanunood siya. If I could shoo him away, that would be better. Kaya lang hindi ko magawa. People would be curious on us. Lalo na kung kakausapin ko siya nang kami lang dalawa at sasabihin ko sa kanya na umalis siya.

At bakit ko rin gagawin na utusan siya? He's the owner. He was the one who can shoo me away instead of me.

"Cut!"

Huminto ako. Kumabog ang dibdib ko dahil sa kaba. I'm not yet done. Iikot pa ako nagkamali ba ako?

Everyone was looking at me, and I was even more conscious now.

"You forgot to turn around. After five seconds, turn around na 'di ba?"

Shit!

Tumango ako at nag-init ang buo kong mukha. I supposed to show them how focus and good I am at this lalo na napansin ako sa ibang bansa pero ngayon simple instructions lang ay hindi na ko makasunod.

I know the reason why. But I should still be professional, and I shouldn't be affected by his presence. I can still see him sitting there—watching