God! Why did she have to be gone so soon?
We had so many plans!
She talked about marrying me!
About us moving in together!
We didn't get to do that!
Her life was taken right in front of my eyes!
Why her!
Gone too soon...
From that moment there were only two emotions that I could switch in between. There were times when I was crying my eyes out until I could barely breathe. And then times when I was kind of okay — but only because it doesn’t feel real at all, because it hadn’t sunk in, or because I refused to believe that it was the truth.
Every morning, my body realized it before my brain did. I would wake up and already feel sick to my stomach — not physically no, but mentally. It was this heaviness in my heart. A lightness in my stomach that made me want to puke every little thing I put through my mouth.
Sometimes it would take a minute for me to process what was wrong. There was a split second when my mind was still fuzzy and sleep was still clung to me, where I wondered wh
