On Friday night I received a call from Kim inviting to their family picnic. Although I was not very close to Clyde's family, I always tagged along because of Kim's consistent invitations. We used to be like peas in a pod when Clyde and Keri were dating. In most of their family picnics, two members outside the family were supposed to be invited as a rule. To make the occasion more lively, Clyde and Kim had to invite a close friend of theirs to join. I admired that family tradition of theirs.
Kim always chose me because she said I was her best friend though she wasn't my best. We were super close though not in the way I was close to friends I wasn't related to. Clyde always came with Louis or his other friends. Before my first kiss with Clyde I'd always loved the picnics because it gave me a chance to hang out with the guy I was crushing on.
This time I wasn't thrilled at all. I had not been with his family since we kissed and I knew awkwardness was g
I glared at Clyde as I descended the stairs. He stared at me, a smirk on his face. Kim and Jenny were wrapped up in a sisterly embrace, clearly happy to see each other again. They had always liked each other before Jenny decided to drop her miss innocent act and run off to Indianapolis with her new boyfriend, Daryl leaving Clyde broken hearted. I couldn't believe Kim was glad to see her after what she had put her brother through. Kim had always been a soft hearted person who forgave people easily and never kept grudges. Sometimes it went overboard."Shan!" Jenny beamed at me. "I missed you so much darling." She hugged me and withdrew her hands before I could put mine around her. "Did you find a boyfriend better than that good for nothing Chad? Oh my gosh, we have a lot to talk about. He used to be quite horrible I don't know how you managed to tolerate him. We should have a girls night out for the three of us. We used to be so tight and I'm so happy to be b
Kim and I carried the stuff we needed for the picnic to her car while Clyde and Jenny relaxed in the living room. Clyde seemed happy and it was killing me. What if he accepted her into his life again? I'd kill that bitch. I loved Clyde and he had to think about how I'd feel if he ran back into her arms. Besides she was much older than him compared to me. No way I was letting them be together again."What are we waiting for?" I asked Kim. Everything was in the trunk and her parents had carried some of the picnic baskets in the backseat of their car."Clyde and Kim," Kim informed me and slid into the driver's seat while I walked to the passenger side and got in. "We can't take three cars. Besides Clude can't drive steadily with Jenny now that she just got back. He can't keep his eyes off her. I think he still loves her but can't be sure. Maybe she's the reason he's not dating anyone.""I guess that's true," I sighed impatiently
Tears clouded my vision as I walked away. Kim called out to me but I told her to leave me alone. I wanted to be alone and away from anything that reminded me of Clyde. Only one kiss from him had brought my world down and I was addicted. It was hard to back off.Why had he fuelled my forbidden feelings by kissing me that afternoon in his family hallway? I had to go as far as I could from him. I allowed tears to fall free and earned weird glances from the people I met. I didn't care what they thought of me since I'd probably never see them again.What hurt most was that Clyde didn't attempt to make me stay or call me back. He just sat there, doting over Jenny, making her feel like she was the most beautiful human he'd ever met. The painful realization hit me and my heart was crushed. Clyde didn't care about me as long as he had Jenny. She had been there before me and would be there after. It would always be her.People said love was a decision but I thought it
Thoughts of Clyde and Jenny possessed my mind during the first half of the drive to South Bend. I couldn't shut out the thoughts, at one point I banged the sides of the car in frustration."What's up, darling?" Chris asking, reducing the driving speed and holding my hand."I just hate the way everything is happening," I said. "My heart feels tired.""Don't worry everything will be okay," Chris said, withdrawing his hand. "This will all pass and will be forgotten. You're a beautiful and intelligent girl who shouldn't be crying for anyone who doesn't see your value.""Thanks, Chris." I said. He always knew how to make me feel better."I went back to my thoughts. Maybe deciding to leave the two of them together was wrong, I gave them unlimited freedom to do whatever they wanted. Who knows they could even do more than just kissing and Clyde would start to think he still loved her? You couldn't trust anyone, not especially Jenny when she had Clyde wrapp
Sadly, Chris left when we got to my room. He did not even stay for a minute. He said he had something urgent to do and would call me when done. It had been a fairly stressful day for me so somehow I was glad to finally get close to my bed. I could finally get the rest my body craved. The day had taken a toll on me. In the morning, I never imagined it would be this bad.Kelsey sat on the couch watching a sappy love song on TV. It had a large serving of cliche. Love was not something I wanted to think about at that moment and even though I begged her to change the channel, she declined and I had no choice but to watch it."Hey," I forced a smile."You're back early," she stood up and hugged me. "And you don't look too good. What happened? Lately, your life is full of drama I can't keep up.""Nothing much, I'll tell you about it later." I slumped onto the couch. It felt so good to finally relax.
"What do you want?" I repeated the question with a stern expression. I did not take my hand off the door."Are you gonna let me in or not?" Clyde inquired without taking his eyes off my face. He ran a hand through his disheveled brown curls and shook his head."No!" I shook my head, glaring at him. "I think Jenny is waiting for you, just leave now Clyde. I don't want to talk to you right now. Why don't you leave me alone?""Wow," Clyde said, sighing. "Is it jealousy? Are you jealous of Jenny."There was no point in denying it. I was jealous and Clyde knew so why cause a silly argument that'd end with me losing anyway."Yeah I'm very jealous, Clyde." I said. "I can't stand the fact that everybody including you just accepted Jenny back after all she did to you. Did you forget that she left you? You just can't let her back into your life like nothing happened. Who does that?""I'll explain everything if you let me in," he said. "Wil
Later that evening as I lay on my bed, I made up my mind. I was going to be with Chris and there was no turning back. It was time for me to get into a stable relationship again and with Clyde that wasn't going to happen any time soon. Being with Chris was safe and good for everyone. No family drama and clingy ex girlfriends. It would be just me and him. Perfect.I tried calling Chris to give him the good news but his number was unavailable. To be honest, it was quite strange but I decided not to dwell on that. I put my phone away and slept off.The day dragged on slowly, more slowly than I could bear. I couldn't wait for the last of my lectures to end so I could go and meet Chris. Everytime I thought of him, a smile appeared on my face. And that meant I was smiling all day. I just couldn't get him off my mind."What's the good news, Shannon?" Mari, girl who sat next to me in one of my classes asked. She touched my upper arm for a second."Nothing," I shoo
Chris put me on the bed and sat on it. "Are you sure about this, darling?""More than sure," I replied with a smile. Taking off his shirt, he climbed on the bed and we brought our lips together. The sensations I felt weren't as strong compared to when I was with Clyde but it was okay. I had to take what I got. It was not bad, it was also amazing in its own way. He was an amazing kisser. Not disappointing at all.When we broke off, Chris helped me get my top out of the way. When our lips reconnected, he used his right hand to unbuckle my bra and threw it across the room. He kissed his way down my neck and towards my nipples which were already erect and sensitive. My hand dug into his back as my body trembled with desire. I didn't know how much more pleasure it could take.Chris got on his knees and undid my jeans, pulling them off my body. He opened a drawer in his bedside table and picked out a condom. I watched him open it and smiled. It was going to be a good