Amber's pov
"Did you hear me Amber? Alpha Axel Wensworth is the one who will be visiting us this weekend."
I had heard Alpha Drake, but his words hit me like ton of bricks. Axel, someone I thought I would never see again, was visiting my pack.
I was trying to push back the memories and the feelings of heartbreak that followed. I tried to contact Axel after I had found out about my pregnancy. We had been careful, using condoms every time. But during our last time, there was a tear in the condom. I was planning on getting the morning after pill, but the pack's gossip was in line behind me in the pharmacy.
The next day Axel started to ignore me. I was so heartbroken that I didn’t even think of the condom until I started feeling nauseas. Abortion isn’t uncommon in the werewolf community, but in Alpha’s Alistair’s pack women didn’t have much choice and abortion was forbidden.
I don’t know if it would have mattered if I had the choice, I knew what it felt like to be unwanted and Elias was loved from the first moment I felt his first kick. Before my parents found out I was pregnant, I send Axel a message to contact me asap.
I got a message back the next week that said:
"Don’t ever contact me again."I calmed my mind. Alpha Drake expected an answer. I I could feel my wolf being stressed out and in pain. She had been hiding in the back of my mind for some time, angry at me for not letting her out at night. But hearing about Axel was hurting her just as much as it did me.
I looked up at Alpha Drake, trying not to cry. "Thank you for telling me Alpha."
"Do you want to take some time off work?" Alpha Drake asked me.
I knew how thinly staffed we already were, Rosa was on maternity leave and Wesley had just hurt his knee. I couldn't do that to them.
"Would it be possible to work behind the scenes in the kitchen? I'll keep a low profile the rest of the weeks while he is here."
Alpha Drake thought about it for a while, "are you sure? You can’t avoid Alpha Axel forever, but I don’t want to force you to be so close to him if you’re not ready."
I was surprised by the kindness of his words, years of being in fear of your alpha are hard to unlearn. But Alpha Drake was the opposite of my former Alpha.
"Thank you so much Alpha, but I can’t let my colleagues down. I doubt Axel, uhm Alpha Axel even remembers me."
Alpha Drake must have thought otherwise.
He smiled and said, "I am sure you made an impression, but what about Elias? Do you want to keep him hidden as well?"
When I arrived at the Cold Lake pack I very pregnant and was showing quite a bit. I wasn’t planning on telling anyone the father's identity. Axel might have had just fun with me, but I fell in love and I would not betray him.
I knew what his father would do if he ever found it his son had made a common omega pregnant. But when Elias was born he looked nothing like Brian. Alpha Drake visited every pup that was born in pack and he knew immediately that Elias was not Brian’s.
I explained then and there the situation as best as I could, how Brian had protected me and how we helped each other. That Axel didn’t want anything to do with me and that I feared his family.
Alpha Drake understood why, Alpha Alistair and he had never been friends and he knew the way he kept the Crimson Moon pack under his thumb.
"This is my chance to become allies with the Crimson Moon pack, one of the biggest packs in the country. I've heard Alpha Axel has been making some changes to the pack. Honestly anything must be better than his dad Alistair. Perhaps the apple didn’t fall far from the tree, but I am willing to give Alpha Axel a chance, if it will help our pack. I won’t force you to meet him or introduce Elias to him, but Elias doesn’t resemble Brian. If Alpha Axel sees Elias it won’t be hard to put two and two together. It’s your choice." Alpha Drake explained.
After I thanked Alpha Drake for his kindness, I went down to the rest of the staff and asked if I could help out in the kitchen this time. I explained I wasn’t feeling so well, but did not want to disappointment them by staying home. Luckily it was no problem.
I still had some time to prepare, to discuss everything with Brian and to explain to Elias that he should stay clear of any visitors coming this month. I just had to think of a reason that a curious five year old would accept and understand.
Amber's pov I felt numb the rest of the day, until I saw Elias playing in the garden with Thomas, Casandra's mate. The first time I met him I wasn’t sure how I felt about him, he was scary looking and build like a linebacker. But once I saw him with Cassandra and the kids I knew it was all bark and no bite. He was one of the kindest souls I ever met and would go to any length to keep his loved ones safe. I was so lucky he counted Elias as one of his bonus grandkids. Looking at my boy with a loving father figure nearly broke me, I tried to keep the dam from breaking before anyone would see. Unfortunately Casandra had already noticed something was off and quickly took me inside. "Tell me what’s going on, you can’t go to Elias looking like this. You need to calm down, tell me please so I can help you," Cassandra said. It wouldn’t hurt to tell her now, I thought to myself. It might come out anyway if I’m not careful. The more help I can get to hide Elias away the better. I told Casand
Amber's pov The next few days went by in a blur. Brian came back on Tuesday and I filled him in on the visit of Alpha Axel. He suggested to leave for the weekend, Axel might recognize him as well. He couldn’t stay away for the whole two weeks, but that first weekend would be most important to skip. Usually when Alpha Drake had guests, he would invite them over to his Mansion for dinner and would show them around town the next day. I guess Brian was scared of what Axel might do if he found out he’s been living with the Alpha’s ex and their secret love child. Brian had helped me when I needed it the most, but he was not a brave or strong man to be honest. Years of using alcohol to numb his senses, made him slow and he skipped out on training most days. He wouldn’t stand a chance against an Alpha. I actually felt relieved, not having to worry about Brian this weekend. My mind was busy enough with worries and thoughts about my old pack.Suddenly it was Friday night, the day before Axel,
Amber's pov I woke up after having slept barely a few hours. I was unable to forgot about the events of last night. Who was the mystery wolf and would he tell someone what he saw? I couldn’t focus on this right now, Alpha Axel and his pack would soon arrive and I needed to help get the Mansion and packhouse ready. We needed to set up all the rooms at the packhouse, fill the pantry and I brought some of my fresh vegetables and fruit. We needed to decorate the dinning room in the Mansion and make preparation for Dinner that night. I started at the packhouse, making sure each room looked nice. Alpha Axel was bringing his Beta and the Beta’s mate. Plus his Delta and some security. When everything looked great in the bedrooms in the packhouse, I went downstairs to head to Alpha’s mansion. I heard noises coming from the kitchen, people talking very seriously. Suddenly I smelled Eucalyptus and Sandalwood, I turned my head slightly trying to sneak a peak at the person that smelled so nice.
Axel’s point of view. Was that Amber? No it couldn’t be! I had been trying to follow the scent of the wolf I met last night. She smelled like wild flowers. Later that day I smelled it again, while meeting with Alpha Drake at the packhouse. We were early, we stayed in a horrible hotel on the other side of the forest and I couldn’t stand being there any longer. The food was horrible, the matras lumpy and dirty. And when I couldn’t sleep, I let my wolf out for a run. That’s when I noticed the other wolf, it was big but my wolf wasn’t scared. He just wanted to play and tackled her to the ground. Sometimes happened with the wolf's fur, it glowed. It looked magical. I instantly wanted to know more about it. I apologized to Alpha Drake for our early arrival, but once I explained the state of our hotel, he understood perfectly fine why we couldn’t stay there any longer. Alpha Drake was often mentioned in one of dad’s rants. He was the type of Alpha dad hated, he was too soft and kind and le
Chapter nine: Amber’s pov: "Amber?! Is that you?" Alpha Axel asked, a shocked look across his face. "I’m so sorry to bother you, I will leave you alone. I know you don’t want any contact, so I will head home now Alpha Axel," I mumbled very quickly and almost ran to my house. Leaving a stunned Alpha standing there. I knew I could have handled this better. It was kind of low to mention his last note. Five years had gone by, he probably had enough to deal with without worrying about me. I made myself some chamomile tea to calm my nerves and help me sleep when I heard a knock on the door. Before I could open it I saw a note being slipped under the door. I picked up the note and carefully read each word: "Amber, would you be willing to meet me for lunch tomorrow at the packhouse? A." Axels point of view: I slipped the note under the door and quickly left. I noticed she had a swing on the right side of her garden and lots of vegetables and flowers on the left side. I planned on aski
Amber’s pov I didn’t sleep well, tossing and turning in bed. I had read the note so often I had memorized every word. When I woke up I took a shower and headed to Cassandra’s house. Elias was so happy to see me, he was hugging me and jumping around. I had missed him too, even if it was just for two nights. I asked Cassandra if she could come over in a bit, because I needed her advice. Elias was on the swings, while we sat on the bench outside. I told Casandra of the note and what had happened last night. "I think you should give him a chance. He might have changed. He’s an Alpha now, so he might just want to make sure there are no hard feelings about the past. Or perhaps he has questions about why you left, you told us you didn’t tell anyone that you were leaving and where you were headed right?" Casandra always had a way of calming me down and asking the right questions. I explained, " I just don’t want him to feel obligated to have me be a part of his life, because of Elias. He
Axels pov The meeting went great. I shared my plans with Alpha Drake and he seemed really surprised. "You're really nothing like your father are you? I don't want to speak ill of the dead, but that man didn't have a kind bone in his body. I was surprised he was killed by a rogue, because what he lacked in kindness he gained in ruthlessness." Alpha Drake was right, my father was a strong and ruthless bastard. I explained, "the rogue used a silver blade laced with wolfsbane." I saw the look on Alpha Drakes face, a face of pain mixed with relief. "I hated the bastard, but I wouldn't wish that on anybody. Wolfsbane hurts like a bitch. It does feel a bit like karma though, wasn't he known for carving up traitors and rogues with a silver blade?" I quickly changed the subject, I did not want to think about my father to much. "I am glad you feel this way about me, I can use all the help I can get. Some of the old guards aren't happy with my chances and I have been feeling some resistan
Axel pov Elias did look like me, that much was true. He had my eyes and my hair color, but had a darker complexion than I have. He reminded me of myself when I was that age. I could see Alpha Drake staring at us, looking very nervous. When I took a good look at the boy I could see someone else, his curls and the dimple in his cheek. The shape of his mouth and his button nose. He might have gotten his eyes from me and he had my build. But I could still see Ambers features shine through. I couldn't leave the boy hanging, the boy, my boy, my son. I tried to calm down and said, "hi Elias, it's nice to meet you. I will have to talk with your mother first, but I think you might be right." Almost no-one else had witness our conversations, most were still busy sparring. I could see Alpha Drake getting more nervous by the minute and Beta Logan was looking at me and Elias and back at me, trying to make sense of the situation. I needed time to think, to deal with the mind blowing revelation